There is a thing I have come to notice in my life that I can not express to anyone close to me. They would not understand my predicament and would probably laugh at my childishness in the matter. Love had been ultimately what I sought even at a young age. I have been through many boyfriends looking for the love I sought out in my heart. When I came across the myspace of a guy that at first I only admired him for his looks I added him thinking he was not going to accept it. To my surprise he added me and even if he was not on myspace a lot he would still talk to me on and off. I held it in not telling him that I had actually came to like not just his looks but his personality as well. I did not have to tell him, he asked me and we have been dating since. Even if it is over myspace and messenger I have come to know him even more and the truth is I do not want to see myself with anyone but him. It hurts yes, having to wait for him not knowing whats going on and not knowing wether or not his love is true like he says it is. But I have faith in him and I love him with all my heart and even if we cant talk to eachother I will wait. I explained this to my mom who has pestered me for months to move on and get a boyfriend "closer to home." But the truth is I can not bring myself to do that. My mom calls me a foolish child but inside I see myself with him no matter what the consequences. Is childishness really it or is this something else?

Alone in bed she cries

As rain pours from the skies

 

Alone She really screams

Cant wake from all the bad dreams

 

Alone she starts to cut

Because from the world she is shut

 

Alone she starts to fade away

It becomes clearer every day

 

Alone in her bed she cries

Finally she lets go and she dies.

Forget me like I was never there,

That I dont exis

Like a forgotten Rag doll

sitting in the trash

her hair is straggled

her dolly heart broken

she cannot fade

she cannot do anything

to changer her ugly fate

she lives on memories and dreams

the likes of which have been shattered many times

The people they pass her

but they hold no notice to her misery

her coal eyes fade to dull grey

her soul, once colorful, loses its color

her life is unending pain and grief

but it is not her purpose

so forget me like i was never there

that i dont exist