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Last Updated: 11/25/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 17
Sign: Leo

City: Seven Oh Six.
State: Georgia
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/20/2007

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[22 May 2009 | Friday] 

Current mood:  breezy

  TO HIM who in the love of Nature holds 

Communion with her visible forms, she speaks 

A various language; for his gayer hours 

She has a voice of gladness, and a smile 

And eloquence of beauty, and she glides         5

Into his darker musings, with a mild 

And healing sympathy, that steals away 

Their sharpness, ere he is aware. When thoughts 

Of the last bitter hour come like a blight 

Over thy spirit, and sad images  10

Of the stern agony, and shroud, and pall, 

And breathless darkness, and the narrow house, 

Make thee to shudder, and grow sick at heart;— 

Go forth under the open sky, and list 

To Nature's teachings, while from all around—  15

Earth and her waters, and the depths of air— 

Comes a still voice—Yet a few days, and thee 

The all-beholding sun shall see no more 

In all his course; nor yet in the cold ground, 

Where thy pale form was laid, with many tears,  20

Nor in the embrace of ocean, shall exist 

Thy image. Earth, that nourished thee, shall claim 

Thy growth, to be resolved to earth again, 

And, lost each human trace, surrendering up 

Thine individual being, shalt thou go  25

To mix forever with the elements; 

To be a brother to the insensible rock, 

And to the sluggish clod, which the rude swain 

Turns with his share, and treads upon. The oak 

Shall send his roots abroad, and pierce thy mould.  30

  Yet not to thine eternal resting-place 

Shalt thou retire alone, nor couldst thou wish 

Couch more magnificent. Thou shalt lie down 

With patriarchs of the infant world,—with kings, 

The powerful of the earth,—the wise, the good,  35

Fair forms, and hoary seers of ages past, 

All in one mighty sepulchre. The hills 

Rock-ribbed and ancient as the sun; the vales 

Stretching in pensive quietness between; 

The venerable woods—rivers that move  40

In majesty, and the complaining brooks 

That make the meadows green; and, poured round all, 

Old Ocean's gray and melancholy waste,— 

Are but the solemn decorations all 

Of the great tomb of man! The golden sun,  45

The planets, all the infinite host of heaven, 

Are shining on the sad abodes of death, 

Through the still lapse of ages. All that tread 

The globe are but a handful to the tribes 

That slumber in its bosom.—Take the wings  50

Of morning, pierce the Barcan wilderness, 

Or lose thyself in the continuous woods 

Where rolls the Oregon, and hears no sound, 

Save his own dashings,—yet the dead are there: 

And millions in those solitudes, since first  55

The flight of years began, have laid them down 

In their last sleep—the dead reign there alone. 

So shalt thou rest; and what if thou withdraw 

In silence from the living, and no friend 

Take note of thy departure? All that breathe  60

Will share thy destiny. The gay will laugh 

When thou art gone, the solemn brood of care 

Plod on, and each one as before will chase 

His favorite phantom; yet all these shall leave 

Their mirth and their employments, and shall come  65

And make their bed with thee. As the long train 

Of ages glide away, the sons of men, 

The youth in life's green spring, and he who goes 

In the full strength of years, matron and maid, 

The speechless babe, and the gray-headed man—  70

Shall one by one be gathered to thy side 

By those, who in their turn shall follow them. 

  

  So live, that when thy summons comes to join 

The innumerable caravan which moves 

To that mysterious realm, where each shall take  75

His chamber in the silent halls of death, 

Thou go not, like the quarry-slave at night, 

Scourged to his dungeon, but, sustained and soothed 

By an unfaltering trust, approach thy grave 

Like one who wraps the drapery of his couch  80

About him, and lies down to pleasant dreams. 

 

[24 Jan 2009 | Saturday] 

Current mood:  breezy

hm. i have slight issues....... seriously. i have soooo many unhealthy obsessions, it's not even funny anymore (was it ever funny?).


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[07 Sep 2008 | Sunday] 

Current mood:  breezy

You soooo totally know you wanna check these contestants out on youtube. Like holy freakin shit. They are the jizz. Do it.

_______________________________________

Kaitlyn Maher. {4-yr-old singer}

 

Nuttin But Strings. {violinists}

 

Neal E. Boyd. {opera singer}

 

Matthew Plazzi. {impressionist}

 

Joseph Hall. {Elvis impersonator}

 

Jonathan Burkin. {baton twirler}

 

Jonathan Arons. {crazy-ass trumpet player}

 

Eli Mattson. {singer} (i couldnt find a better picture... :p)

 

Dorae Saunders. {Tina Turner impersonator}

 

Donald Braswell. {opera singer}

[21 Jun 2008 | Saturday] 

Current mood:  blah



There's a little creepy house
In a little creepy place
Little creepy town
In a little creepy world
Little creepy girl
With her little creepy face
Saying funny things that you have never heard

Do you know what it's all about
Are you brave enough to figure out
Know that you could set your world on fire
If you are strong enough to leave your doubts

Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it
And you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly
So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this
unless you kill this
Go on
And you're forgiven
I knew that
I could feel that
I feel like
I am walking on air

She has a little creepy cat
And a little creepy bat
Little rocking chair and an old blue hat
That little creepy girl
Oh she loves to sing
She has a little gift
An amazing thing
With her little funny eyes of hazel
With her little funny old blue hat
She will go and set the world on fire
No one ever thought she could do that

Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it
And you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly
So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this
unless you kill this
Go on
And you're forgiven
I knew that
I could feel that
I feel like
I am walking on air

Flitter up
and Hover down
Be all around
Be all around

You know that I love you, go on...

Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it
And you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly
So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this
unless you kill this
Go on
And you're forgiven
I knew that
I could feel that
I feel like
I am walking on air

I am walking on air...
Currently listening:
Love Is Dead
By Kerli
Release date: 2008-07-08
[16 Jun 2008 | Monday] 

Current mood:  blank

i took a personality quiz for the current moment, and these were my results. i am surprised at how accurate they are.

 


 

General Characteristics (gray table)

Oppositeness + need of satisfaction + extreme irritation
You are irritated, and, therefore, are unapproachable for close contact. Are disgusted at difficult situations in life.

Your Desired Objective

Suffering from pent-up overstimulation which threatends to discharge itself in an outburst of impulsive and impassioned behavior.

Existing Situation

Seeks a close and understanding bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy, as a protection against anxiety and conflict.

Your Restrained Characteristics

You feel disadvantaged, ignored, hurt, poorly respected, understood and appreciated. You have to accommodate yourself to the existing situation and the requirements of the environment; however, because of this you don't feel any deep attachment in your sensual relationship. You suppose that you get much less than you deserve. Intimate relationships do not cause any deep emotional involvement in you. You feel deprived and wrongly understood.

Your Stress Sources

The existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as he has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to his self-sufficiency because of the restraint he normally imposes on himself. Since he wants to demonstrate the unique quality of his own character, he tries to suppress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned self-reliance to conceal his fear of inadequacy, treating those who criticize his behavior with contempt. However, beneath this assumption of indifference he really longs for the approval and esteem of others.

Your Actual Problem

The need for esteem--for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for himself--has become imperative. He reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

[10 May 2008 | Saturday] 

Current mood:  breezy

 i feel soooooo much better about stuff now. i'm not worrying about my dad. i'm not worrying as much about school. my friends are happy.

no more dramadramadrama.

thank God.

to ashley: love your layout. ♥

[26 Apr 2008 | Saturday] 

Current mood:  loved

i'm at ashley's. it's 8:25am, and everyone else is asleep. gaygaygay. lol. my plans for today are as follows: i will be home by 3pm. and at 4 or 5 or so, i'm gonna go to some retarded christian concert with my friend, kayla, which i seriously do not want to do. but i'm doing it for her. she owes me. lol. it's either me or her mom...and we all know i'm better than her mom.  hahaha. when i get home, i'm probably going to bed. yay me! no. hmm...and tomorrow, i'm gonna get up at 7:45am, take a shower at 8am, and go hang out with john until 1pm. i'm not sure what i'll do after that... i'll probably end up watching movies or getting online....ehhh. i hate weekends with a firey burning passion. that is, unless, i have something better to do. the reason i don't wanna go to that concert: i'm not fond of christian music. let alone christian "punk-rock" music. no. it just isn't right. plus, churches make me uncomfortable. i'm not sure why...well, i am, i just don't wanna talk about it. so there. lol. ehhhh.........oooh. yesterday when ashley picked me up, we went to chef chen buffet. it was pretty hardcore. lol. i love that place... then we rented movies... we watched juno!!! omfg, that is one of the greatest movies everrrr. its right up there with across the universe!!! no kidding. haha. we also watched hot rod [for me, the 2nd time], and i kinda fell asleep towards the end of that, so i don't know if we watched blades of glory or not.... i hope we didn't. it'd be great to watch that WITH ashley, instead of being asleep...  dammit. i can't stop thinking about the EOCTs....  i'm just a little bit worried... especially about geometry. i have a fucking 73 in there right now, and if i don't pass that test, i'm in for it. big time. and it's gonna suck hardcore monkey balls. thats right... it will. so i have to pass that shit. hmm......john didn't go to school yesterday, as most of you already know, and i called him last night from ashley's phone. i talked to him for 59 minutes.  he was still moving stuff around in his new place. heh....he said when he had to take his bed apart, move it, and put it back together, he didn't take even one of the pictures of me off his headboard. that made me happy.... and he also said he had the special penny i gave him in his pocket. i love him so much......

but the biggest news of all....the main reason i brought up john.... while i was on the phone with him, i can't remember what we were talking about exactly, but all of a sudden, he was like: "so, what would you do if i got you a promise ring?" and i couldn't talk. i was literally speechless. when i could get any words out, i said "what?" and he was like: "if i got you a promise ring. like, if i gave it to you in the most romantic way ever, and i told you that i wanted to be with you forever, and that i'm gonna marry you someday. what would you do?"  i told him i'd probably cry and hug and kiss him until he couldn't breathe anymore. lol. i can't believe he asked me that. but he said he just wants to know what exactly to expect. so..... is he getting me a promise ring?  wow....he is so unpredictable. i just love him.....

comment if you wish. i love you all. well, except sammy. lmfao. j/k, j/k.

♥♥♥ melissa.

[25 Apr 2008 | Friday] 

Current mood:  bouncy

today sucked. john wasn't at school. i think my dad's getting over my non-virginess. lol. he's been talking to me more. thats good... EOCTs next week... dreading geometry & biology.

:o

those tests are pretty GAY if you ask me... ehhrrrg. waste of my life. well, not really... but still. they're gay. lol. hmmm...what else? OH! i recently saw alvin & the chipmunks for the first time... it wasn't as great as i thought it'd be...  but whatever. there were some funny parts... i saw some other movies, too...can't think straight right now, though.......... ehhhh. i haven't seen a movie that could compare to across the universe or moulin rouge yet. hmm....i wanna see that movie "Deception". it has ewan mcgregor in it...

..

...i just looked at a supporting website, and it says there are a lot of sex scenes in it...  lol. maybe i'll get to see ewan's ass. hahaha. SCORE.

its showing starting today [4-25-08]. so someone go see it & tell me all about it. :D

[19 Apr 2008 | Saturday] 

Current mood:  bummed

justin cornett josh sherbert justin griffin

^dont ask.

 hmm...well. spring break's conclusion... my break sucked. it was everything i expected... [well...kinda.] ...dad hasn't talked to me much. same ol' death looks. what else? ...i hung out with a few peeps. kayla. john. [i'm currently w/ kayla @ the library] ... my cat ran into the wall multiple times again. kayla's cat got shaved. lol. i watched across the universe again. hung up my movie poster. etc. etc. boredom...

lemme ask you guys something... have you ever just stared at nothing and thought about nothing for hours on end? i did just that all break. well, most of my break, anyway. my family and i have a shattered relationship because of me, and so staring off into nothingness seems to make it all go away. it pretty much sucks. but what else can i do? nothing. i haven't a thing to draw... well, i've doodled. and i've worked on  a story...

i doubt anyone would wanna read it.

ehhh. don't feel obligated.

dammit. im really bored...

[21 Mar 2008 | Friday] 

Current mood:  miserable

have you ever gotten news that wasnt good, but it wasnt bad, either? well... i just had that happen to me.

and now... it seems as if its the end of the world as i know it...