Success is elusive for me.  I've spent most of my life being self-critical, striving for perfection.  I've realized this is a myth.  There is no such thing as perfection.  Time after time, I have spent so much time trying to make sure everything was perfect.  It usually resulted in nothing getting finished.  That resulted in self loathing.  The self loathing resulted in inactivity.  It has overlapped every area of my life.  Coupled with a tendency for depression, I've spent most of my adult life in a self inflicted hell.

I've changed my system of measurement.  Its not what I accomplish, its what I attempt.  I have an idea I've that's been tormenting me for 7 years that I'm finally doing something about.  I'm trying to have fun playing music and building a following (go and listen http://richardDshank.com/free ).  I've started taking college courses to help with my math skillls.  I'm doing my best to be a good husband to my wife and a good friend to the people in my life.  I'm successful in my attempts.  

I believe success builds success.  There is something about getting the mind acclimated to succeeding instead of failing.  Failing is highly overrated.  I'll just stay on my road of successful attempts.


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