first of all, not only do i despise getting truths like this

"i think your hot"
(by the way it's you're)

but i, like i'm sure alot of you out there, hate that some people use the truth box as a wimpy way to let others know that they don't care for them. i'm not living entirely up in the clouds, i know that there are people that don't like me, but honestly why let me know anonymously? seriously - i'm not going to come through the computer screen and rip anyone's heads off! we're all entitled to our own opinions. there are some people that we just don't like. it happens. we all have to deal with it. secondly, although it is anonymous there are still hints that you can get that pretty much help you narrow down who actually leaves each comment, so yes, i have a pretty good idea who leaves what, but that's not the point of this entry.

i've just realized how completely childish the whole "truth box" thing is. for that matter most of the applications are. anywho...

here's the big thing. if you don't like someone, 8 times out of 10 they probably already know this. so why even bother unless you actually want to cause drama. however, let's just say that by some chance you really want this person to know that you don't like them. okay, fine.. how about having some balls and just telling them - either by phone, person, txt, message - whatever. why try and do it anonymously?

i'm basicaly deleting all of the applications i have on here because, a.i don't even use them; b.i don't see the point in them; c.they're just breeding grounds for this type of childish nonsense that i don't have room for in my life.

but seeing as i am, afterall, only human i would like to comment to this left by a 19y/o female (according to myspace; we all know some of us do change our age on here lol);

"I don't like you at all, and I think that you will be very lonely at the rate you are going!"

first of all, i am terribly sorry that you don't like me and that you feel this way. i am only human and i make alot of mistakes. there are times when i let my emotions control my actions and i shouldn't - of this i am especially guilty of now since i'm going through menopause and having a very hard time controlling my many mood swings. secondly, i don't expect everyone to like me and in no way do i hold this against you. although it can be a little battering to the ego to know when people don't like you, it's also good in a way. it shows that i still have alot of work to do as a person. however, i know that there is no way that i can ever please everyone and make people like me when they don't. i try to be the best person that i can be and alot of times i fall short, i will never deny that! there are many people that i know that live lifestyles that i don't agree with, but i can honestly say that this doesn't make me dislike them - only what they are doing that i don't see as the "right" way or thing. i try my best to love everyone and their flaws.

as for the second part of that comment, first i do have to pose the question of, what rate exactly am i going? i must state that i, but not just i, wayd as well, have spent the last few months trying to flush our lives out and get things back on track. i suppose it could be worded that way..? not just i, but in this case it has been mutually - a husband and wife decision - decided that we should get out from under the people that we felt where not only draining our money, but parts of our lives as well. was any of this an easy decision? no, not at all. it was all extremely hard. probably more on me because i want to be able to help everyone. i can't just say well, "f*ck it" like wayd and then not worry about it. i spend many nights tossing and turning worrying about people and the decisions i've made, but when it all comes down to it, we have to look out for us, for our family above all. i do not see that either wayd or i will be lonely by continuing on the path we've chosen. just because we don't won't to party all of the time doesn't mean we don't have people who love us and who we love in return. i know we went a little crazy in december. sometimes that happens. we spend so long not going crazy that about every year we take some time to cut lose, but then it's back to normal. we can't fill our lives with people who want to do nothing except party - there's much more to life than that. it doesn't mean we don't care about and love them. it just means that we have entirely different life styles.

as for being lonely. i'm not and neither is my husband. not only do we have enough friends here where we live, but we're both blessed to have many friends in california as well. this doesn't even begin to include all the family we have here in georgia and california! not to mention the fact that i have many wonderful and amazing friends all over the untied states as well! all of them whom i love dearly and i know feel the same towards me.

i feel very sorry for the person who wrote that comment and i suppose that is part of the reason for this whole entry. the other reason is because, like i stated, this kind of thing is very childish and i want it to end! if you don't like me, please just tell me and i won't ever bother you again! seriously. just leave me a comment, let me know that you don't care for me and then, if you have me added, just edit your friends list and delete me. what's the point of having me added if you don't like me!?!

k. that's all. i love you guys, all of you.