The original date of this blog was set for 24 September, but I've put it off in hopes of completely cooling down before trying to write something civil.  I've learned I can't quite achieve that level of cool-headedness.  Oh well.

When I was a kid, a lot of people told me that all the friends I had today, I wasn't going to have in the future.  As ignorant as I was in those wee years, I pretty much thought all of these people could shove it--my friends were the best friends anyone could have asked for, and we'd make it through anything.  And that was that.

It's been about 6 years since the start of my High School career, and I'm well out of the game to know exactly what they were talking about.  Having still been a junior at the time, a certain chain of events happened that caused me to lose touch with the first best friend I'd had since moving away from my first real one.  Over the years, a series of arguments and so on pretty much crumbled our relationship... and, by the time it really ended, I wasn't hurt.  No.  In fact, I was glad it was over.  No more deciet.  No more fuss.

I was FREE.

But when you meet such a person, you slowly begin to realize that you'll never be completely free just by getting them out of your life.  This infectious parasite feeds off of everything it knows you hold close: your other friends.

Case 1.

Year two going out of Westview, I'd lost a friend I kept really close to my heart due to that woman that continues to act like a black hole.  Two days ago, I'd lost two friends I'd held in high regard, only differing in our acquaintanceship by two years.  The parasite had fed them ugly lies about things I couldn't really done.

"A person who remains nameless had told him that you're still head over heels in love with him, and he thinks that fact alone is going to ruin his relationship with his woman."

I don't talk to the 'nameless', so how could this person know of such knowledge that stopped existing two years?  Taking things out of context is, quiet frankly, really annoying.  For that matter, how could she (I could only guess who the nameless is -eyeroll-) know that I'm actually head over heels for someone else, and have been for a while now?  She couldn't.

I.e: Read my survey bulletins.  Does the name Brandon sound familiar?  I can't hide who I like.  It's a shame, really.  (Photo albums > "Their Photos" > Page 1 > the only blonde not smiling because he's a goofball. <3)

11 October 08: This friendship was actually fixed, because he had the sense to contact me and apologize for not asking about my side of the story.  He has revealed the name of the 'nameless.'  I had already guessed.

Case 2.

"She had told me that you and your little friend Courtney and her sister had gone out of your guy's way to go to Kyles work and bug the shit out of him. Trying to convince him to leave poor Alex for Courtney because Alex wasn't good enough looking to be with him and all this other bullshit that isn't true."

Honestly, I agree with that, but it's not like I'd waste time meddling in it.  Kyle must already know.

But.

I'm curious.  When did I do this?  Weeks ago?  Months ago?  Give me a date.  A time frame, at best.  And trust me... if you really want to validate your story, it had better be a good one.  For someone I no longer associate with, she does certainly seems to know a lot about me and my doings.  This person must think I possess a magic time-traveling teleporter.  I mean, it's the only thing that could put me in two places at once!  I'm amazing, sure, but I'm not magical.  Unfortunate, I know.  I, too, wish I had a TARDIS.*

So let's think.
x. I know where Kyle works only because he got the job there because Courtney's sister worked there first.  How do I know this?  This place of business is only of the places within walking distance of her house.  Kyle lives closer to Jessie.  Why would he go out of his way to work at some crappy groccery store farther away when there's one (Walmart) up the street?
x. We must've REALLY gone out of our way, because I'm busy as hell on the weekdays (I literally have no time to do anything), I don't have time on the weekends, and Courtney's time off is erratic and doesn't fit my schedule, either.
At that point, it just sort of seems economical to not do it all, right?
x. And... lastly, yes, there was a history between Kyle and one of the sisters.  However... Courtney is the wrong sister.  The million dollar answer is Caity.  Caity.

In short: For fuck's sake, get your stories right.

As for dealing with anyone who would rather believe rumors and not get it all in place?  I don't know what to say to you.  You can get it all on your own, or you can sit wondering if I'd really done wrong by you, indulging the silver spoon-fed lies.  I'm really sick of trying and caring and shit.  By fuck, my friends aren't stupid, but some are really acting the part.  If that's the case...

Ciao.


*TARDIS: Time and Relevant Dimensions in Space.  Usually in the form of a blue 1960's London Police Box.  A Doctor Who reference.

Anthony. :3
Such is my nature.  If you'd like, you can delete me so they don't show up.  I won't take it into offense-- it's happened before.  And, I can still contact you through messages if need be. :D
But sometimes I think I say interesting things.
Maybe. -shrug-  I could just be being bold right now.
My mind takes a turn after the 1:30 am mark.  For better or for worse, I haven't decided yet.


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Was the first person to text you today a boy or a girl?
Uhh, I've already erased this morning's messages, but it was either Jenny or Molli.  Both of which I had been asleep for.

What is one question people always ask you?
I don't think I have a question routinely asked of me, or at least not to a point where I've noticed.  Unless it's "What's wrong with you?!" when my mom is angry with me.

What is the 6th text in your inbox?
That kind of blows.  I'm watching men in black :]

What's the last thing you said to someone in person & to who?
Like Missed Call?  Onoes.  I never saw that.  I wonder what the psychokilla! is plotting.  Maybe it's Colonel Custard with the lead pipe in the foyer?  (Robert.)

These will change by the time I'm done.

Name something you have to do tonight?
Take all the crap off of my bed and finish cleaning.  I'll go do that in a bit.

Where is your cell phone?
To my right.

Has anyone told you a secret this week?
A secret?  Uhm... oh, yeah.

When was the last time you had Starbucks?
I'm sure it was with Jenny, or when my parents sent me on some small task.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Oh, what a question.
I want the seal of Rassilon;


The TARDIS;


and possibly the TARDIS Key


 all combined into some floral design/spacey pattern starting from my right shoulder/shoulder blade and going down my side.  Though which side of the key, I'm not sure of (possibly the Kasterborous side, for the dots).  I wonder what it would look like if it was all UV.  (Does UV come in colour or different tones?  Hm.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/UV_tattoo)

Or, if I don't feel like being elaborate, then probably just the Seal on the back of my right ankle.  I also want to get:
x. a 'joint-custody' (for lack of a better term) tattoo with someone in the future, but I don't know with who or what it will me.
x. a cross hair over my heart, but I doubt it with the things I like to wear, I don't want it showing all the time.  It was an old idea, but I still like it.  Maybe in UV ink?
x. A pair of penguins.  Don't ask.
x Ourorboros twisted into the sign for infinity... but that would take away from the "Circle" aspect of him, wouldn't it?

As for peircings... I have no idea at the moment.  Maybe just another set for the ears?

Do you sleep on your stomach?
Sometimes.  I like to shake it up in bed.
Yeah.  I said it. XD

What are you listening to?
Pandora's Box; Bethany Home
(myspace.com/bethanyhome)

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Text: Saubs
Phone: Momo

What's bothering you right now?
Nothing at the moment.  But just you wait... ha.

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
I have one fluttering around in there when I'm at work.  I release it when I go home for the day. :D

What did you dream about last night?
Oh... did I even dream last night?  I don't recall.

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
On given days.  I've gotten texts at 3am... BRANDON.  Ha.
Which is surprising in itself, actually.

What gets in your way of your sleeping?
Thinking.  Always.

Do you know anyone that's married?
I know plenty of people who are married.  I know plenty who aren't.
I even know someone who is about to be next month.  It's exciting, how many people you meet in different walks of life.

Who was the last person that made you cry, why?
I don't recall.

Where are you going to be at 6:00pm tomorrow?
On a van with my lovely kiddies. :D

What are some things you miss about your past?
I... don't.
The people I want to talk to, I'm starting to talk to again now.
The person I used to be wassn't as good as the person I am now.
The new friends I've made now are just as great as the people I knew.
The places I go to now are forming who I want to be in the future.
The attitude I have towards life feels more mature and... I generally like it much better.

Are you jealous of anyone?
I sometimes have wishful thought of having a car to use anytime at my disposal, or a special someone to be coupley or just hang out with in my times of want or boredom, but I'm not jealous of everyone who has them. :p  Such is life.  These things will come in time.

Who was the last person you rode in the car with?
Myself, and two things of apple juice.

How many things in your past do you regret?
I used to... sometimes, depending on my mood... but everything I've learned from.  Though, the only thing I think I recently still regret is not balling up and asking Brandon out when I had the chance.  I wonder if I still can...

What are you looking forward to?
Tomorrow.
All of October.

Who are the third and seventh texts (inbox) in your phone from?
Third--Saubs: [3/3] messages
Seventh--Saubs: [2/2] whole day to make the drive (both ways mind you).  After the $200 mark it almost seems more economical to fly.  You end up without a car to drive though.

Are you upset with anyone?
Always.  But at this very moment?  No, as it's only festering in the dark recess of my mind.  I'm not actively thinking about it.

Have you ever gone to court?
Mmm, yeah.  But it wasn't for anything bigger than a ticket I was getting cleared from.

Have you ever gone to the beach?
A few times in my youth.

Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
Nah, not so much.  I've tried that... and it always gets re-fucked in the end, so... yeah.  Screw it.  I'll stick to just being civil and ignorant of her presence when the times call for it.  As for someone else... it's not so much fixing.  That part is done.  Now, I just need to grow the relationship; have it blossom into something fantastic.  We've been a good match for a better friendship... if we had the time.

What's something that can always make you feel better?
Give me a hug.  I feel best when they're by a certain circle of people I keep close to my heart, but anyone will do as well. <3

Do you have unlimited texting?
Yes ma'am.
623-262-1186.
Text it up.

Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly?
I think we've all been there.  It's usually when they know they have us under their thumb... which is actually very sad and manipulative of them.  But we're so wrapped up in glorifying their 'awesomeness' that we don't see it... even when it's probably apparent to everyone else.  But no one wants to say, perhaps because they don't want to hurt you like the person that shouldn't be...

Oh.  Was that too deep?  Hm.

Do you fall for people easily?
I don't normally, but when I do... I fall hard.  I hate the lingering, paralyzing affect it has on me, but it's there.  I've worked on fixing those two bits, and it's getting better.  I can joke with Brandon, and make it seem low-key.  I'm proud of myself for it. :D

Everything happens for a reason?
Yes.  Sadly, you won't know until you're questioning yourself about it and make the connection, but... yes.

Do you live with both your parents
indeed.  Not for long, by the way things are going...

Do you smile a lot?
Most of the time.  Sometimes, it's fake for my kids at first... but those little bedlamites can really brighten my day.  Little Yayah will never know just how much better he made my day that one morning during Respite. :)

Do you have any siblings?
2 deceased.
2 half blood.
1 no blood.
0 same blood combo.

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
It's some undershirt I picked up at Walmart.

Do you have a tattoo?
Nope.

Are there things you can't live without?
"Water? Food? Shelter? People?"  Good answer.  I add "oxygen" and "blood" to that.

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
It's called 'medium' by my stylist.  And by stylist, I mean my aunt. Ha.

What happened at 10:00 am today?
I was woken up... and decided that I didn't want to clean my room, so I went back to bed.

Is your family just a bundle of fun?
Sometimes.  That's all I'm going to say.

Have you talked to an asshole today?
NO.  The asshole left a message from a restricted number and didn't leave a name or callback.  I wouldn't normally care, but the tone of the message has me either irritated or concern.  I have NO clue as to who it is.
So help them if I find it was a hoax.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Nothing I look at too often.  But they're there.

Do you use lyrics to express how you feel?
Sometimes.  I'm not going to lie about it.
Just not as much as I used to.

Who was the last person you screamed for?
...What?
Erm.
Well, I 'screamed' at Brandon for making me 'late for the bus', but it wasn't really screaming for, nor was I really late.  In fact... I take that back.  I have no answer for this freaking question.

Are you happy right now?
Decently.  Nothing is really irritating me, so my mind is free to wander about to my better thoughts.

What's the time?
2:43.  Yes, I'm well aware of the time, too.

Do you trust people?
I have trust issues, but I can trust people.  It depends on if I think they trust me.  It's a two-way street to me.

What is something you say when you're mad?
It depends on who, and about what.
Mostly, I let it all go and keep silent while they vent, but there are some things that instantly make me snap.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Oh yeah.

What can you do when you can't hit things?
I've cried in frustration before, as previously stated.  I don't really raise my voice and scream.  It hurts my face after a while, and once I've gotten started, I can't stop until it's ALL gone.

What is your favorite beverage?
Sweet iced tea.

Have you ever seen your best friends cry?
Plenty.

Where was your default picture taken?
In my room, like the last few times I've been asked this.

Have you ever tee peed someone's house?
Oh, never.  It's not my prerogative.

What were you doing at 1am this morning?
Doing this, talking to Saubs.

Do you have any enemies?
Surely.

What'​​​​s somet​hing that bothe​rs you about​ girls​?​​​​
Bitches.  In a word.  I could elaborate, but... well, I'd rather not, because some things also cross into the other gender.  I don't think a difference in genitalia really make the difference other things.

But let's be fair: What bothers you about boys?
Jerks.  But I chose them over girls, mostly.  Weird how it works out.

What was the first​ thing​ you thoug​ht this morni​ng?​​​​
I DONT WANT TO CLEAN MY ROOM RIGHT NOW.
I WANT TO SLEEP.  
SHUT UP AND LEAVE IT.

What if you had a baby with the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​​​
UGH.  Please, no.  Can it be the last person with adorable baby blues wearing a bright yellow shirt inquiring about my dad's car?  Because I would accept that.

What was the first​ thing​ you thoug​ht about​ when you looke​d in the mirro​r this morni​ng?​​
...Is he rummaging around in my room?
Don't ask.

What are you liste​ning to?
Still listening to Bethany Home.  Headshrinker.
(myspace.com/bethanyhome)

What are/​​​​were you doing​ at 12:​​​​00 this after​noon?​​​​
Cleaning.

Would​ you ever dye your hair blond​e?​​​​
Sure.  But I'd just as sooner dye it different types of red again.

What'​​​​s the close​st purpl​e thing​ to you?
I don't know.  At 2am, my eyes blur everything together.

What are you weari​ng?​​​​
Gray pyjamas pants and a white tank top.

Last movie​ watch​ed?​​​​
Uhh...?

Do you like the major​ity of the peopl​e you go/​​​​went to schoo​l with?​​​
Some of them I still talk to, but I'm running with different packs of wolves nowadays.

Have you ever gotte​n a sunbu​rn so bad it hurt to move?​​​​
OH yes.  But Brandon's tops the cake.  Lobster boy couldn't move an inch without hurting.
Do you feel like you'​​​​ve got some growi​ng up to do?
I've always got a bit of growing up to do.  But, all things considered... I believe I've done alright for myself so far.  Or so I think.

Have you ever calle​d anyon​e the C word?​​​​
You need to define your 'C' word.
Cutie? Yes.  I call little Jeffy that everytime I see him.  He's such a button...
Cunt?  Sure.  But only in extreme cases.
...Cake? Maybe when I was referring to the band...?

What will you name your daugh​ter?​​​​
Hellifino.  We'll see what we decide on.

Would​ you prefe​r to go to a sport​ing event​ or an art museu​m?​​​​
Art museum.  Every time.

Who was the last perso​n you texte​d?​​​​
Saubs.  We've been over this already, survey.

Who was the last person to text you?
Well, if he texted me, I texted him back.

What is bothe​ring you right​ now?
Things that shouldn't.  I need to start making the best of what I have.  And maybe go after what I want!  Or, I should really get the moxy and start going after who I want to be with.
Basically what Preston said, except not in caps and with extra words. Ha.

What do you think​ of the perso​n you copie​d this from?​​​​
Preston?  I still remember the days when I first met him.  They were awesome, and I get why I liked him.  But we're worlds apart due to the roads we chose to follow (and again--out-moxied by Stacy)... but I think he does alright for himself these days, just as he did back then.  Albeit things are different, and I haven't really seen him in ages, aside from running into him and Kandace at Harkins... but yeah.  He's a good kid.  I just hope people tell him enough.

Does anyon​e hate you?
Oh, I'm sure of it.  Lately, I've developed quite a mouth, and the people who are used to me being so submissive are getting annoyed that they're losing their little foot rest.

Have you ever read an entir​e book in one day?
A few times.  God, I really missing having that much time.  To read... and to write!  I don't see me finishing NaNo this year. :(

Are you smart​?​​​​
Some would say so.
I would say so, too.
But it depends on the subject at hand.

If you could​ move to Afric​a would​ you?
Why would I want to do that?  Except maybe to live in Egypt.  That's the only part I'd go to.

How long would​ it take you to walk home from schoo​l?​​​​
Eh.  I don't go at the moment.  I'm too busy teaching kids to have myself taught.  Ha.

When you shut off your alarm​ clock​,​​​​ do you tend to fall back aslee​p?​​​​
Hell.  YES.

Your heart​ is racin​g,​​​​ who are you stand​ing next to?
Three people.
Brandon.
A Doctor.
THE Doctor.

I'm not so happy with answer 2, though. :(  He might tell me I've got another heart murmur or something.

Will you be in a relationship in a week?​​​​
Wouldn't that be fantastic, though?

Would​ you cry if you found​ out you were pregn​ant?​​​​
No. That would only happen with the person I wanted to be with.
UNLESS RAPE WAS INVOLVED.  Then I'd be PISSED OFF.
But I wouldn't take it out on the child.  It's not their fault.

What were you doing​ at 9 this morni​ng?​​​​
Sleeping.  YES. :D

What is the last thing​ you said out loud?​​​​
"Sure."
It was a response to being told I was going to mow the lawn when the sun came up.  I think that was all due to my recently rebellious nature... all day today.

What is worse​,​​​​ physi​cal or emoti​onal pain?​​​​
Physical pain goes away with endorphins and morphine.
Emotional pain is harder to work with, because it messes with your head and warps perception of even the positive things in your life.

Are you keepi​ng a big secre​t right​ now?
Probably.  I've also forgotten many secrets, so that just ensures people that they won't be told.

Is money​ impor​tant to you?
Yes, because merchants require it before they give me what I want or need.
But it's not what runs me.  If you knew about my job situation, you'd be able to vouch for this answer.

Think​ a lot befor​e you fall aslee​p?​​​​
Too much.  To the point where I can't sleep.  I have to use my imagination to fall away from the important things I need to think about at a later time, rather than when I'm needing to rest.

Have you ever told anyon​e you were okay when you reall​y weren​'​​​​t?​​​​
Nine times out of ten, I'm lying to you when I say I'm okay.
Or, I'm okay for the moment, but if you could see the big picture...

Kisse​d someo​ne in the last twent​y four hours​?​​​​
In a dream I had during a short nap.

How'​​​​s your heart​?​​​​
Not good.  Clogged with too much plaque, I'm sure. D;

Before note: This is what happens when it's 2am and I'm EXTREMELY annoyed with how we're being dealt with.


[Hmm.  Did you ever hear about the meeting where they let the staff talk and Jerry wasn't going to talk back?  It happened once.  We should do it again while all the staff that's here NOW is still here, so some proper stuff can get done.]

Staffing as follows:

Friday: Jas, Dallas, Lucia, Jeanette. [11 kids.]
Mary: Carol, Diane? (respite?), Cindy, Will. [?kids]
Melinda: Alex, Amber, Andrew. [?kids]
Nena: Connie, Brandon, Christine.  [About 8-10 kids.]
(1:3 staff to consumer ratio)
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Drivers:
Friday & Jas
Mary? Carol & Cindy
Melinda, Alex?
Nena, Connie, Brandon, and Christine.

[fill in the blanks if you know them.]
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Next few weeks/DAYS:
Melinda: [-Alex & Amber.]  Andrew.
Melinda will only have one staff.
+ 2 possible new hire staff.  POSSIBLE.
Until then...

Desired solution: Switch Lucia and Christine, as requested from both staff.
Friday: -1 staff (Christine) to Melinda's room.
Mary: -1 possible staff (?) to Melinda's room.
-Involved staff are accommodated, therefore better suited to function actively in the workplace.  [Better moral = better results]
-Administration has balanced out staffing issues.  
-Melinda gets an extra driver or two
-Lucia gets to work with the other 12-17 kids (yay)
-A little more "paperwork", but in the end, everyone wins.

Cons:
-Still, there's "paperwork" and a lot more red tape.
-Friday will still possibly be out of ratio on Fridays
-Mary loses one driver until extra staff is hired

You can't please all of the people all of the time.  The above are unavoidable anyway.
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Second solution:
RECombine 12-17 rooms.
Nena, Friday, Connie, Christine, Brandon, Jas, Dallas, Jeanette, Lucia
18-20ish kids.
Extra staff (Christine) to go to Melinda's room.
-Melinda gets extra staff/driver
-Christine gets to go to Melinda's class, as requested.
-new 12-17 will not be out of ratio when Friday takes Friday off
-Lucia gets to work with ALL 12-17 kids. (yay)
No, Brandon does not fit in the equation.  Hopefully, this isn't used against me either way.

Cons:
-Absolutely outrageous paperwork for admin, but it's not as though they don't use us like silly putty anyway.
-Mary still loses possible one staff until new hire(s) arrive.
-Hectic for 12-17 staff, but it isn't as though our kids/staff don't get along.  Halloween may be a bit more fun?

Yes, there is another 12-17 staff that could be sent to Melinda's classroom, but given Friday is out on Fridays and that class may be missing staff on some days
(sick, ect) that extra person will be needed.  If another class needs a filler, then the extra staff can fill in for the day.  However, if one staff is missing one, the extra will still fit into ratio for such a large class.

-this solution will never see the light of day, and we both know it.  Even if it makes a bit of sense.  Kinda sorta.  Ish.  Eh.
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Most likely solution:
Christine to remain in Nena's room.
Friday & Mary: -1 possible staff each.

Cons:
-Still, there's "paperwork," no matter how you look at it.  Because just having Melinda and Andrew as 7-11 staff will NOT cut it.
-Friday will still possibly be out of ratio on Fridays
-Easiest on admin paperwork.  BUT:

Who is Friday's possible -1 staff?  All bets are on the new girl. -points to self-  Because "she needs to rotate anyway", has already requested a "room change", and the job description is "go where needed."  Basically, "we'll stick you where -we- want, regardless of your requests."  Unnacceptable.

-Possible grounds for Lucia's 2-week notice
-Admin in the balance of losing yet ANOTHER staff member.  The nightmare begins again. 

Solution: JUST ACCOMMODATE THE STAFF.  Admin will not lose in the end.
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P/U & D/O?
A whole 'nother demon.
I want to work with UCP long enough to be a director of some sort of program.  I feel because I've been WADING through the crap, I might be able to sort it out better.  Ugh.

I didn't know I knew a Dominatrix.  Well, to be fair, I didn't know I knew a Master, first.  To be honest, I don't know what to think about it, really.  I mean, I know people from all walks of life, but to know I went to high school with someone who actually became BDSM... is quite an interesting thing to think about.  Maybe I am just a vanilla girl at heart.

There's a lot of things that I want to update on, but nothing really paragraphly expansive, so instead, here are a few sentences and whatnot.  Have I become so busy that I've not really much time to write?  ...yes.  Crap.

x. I need new shoes, and the only thing I wear are kinderwhore/Lolita fashion Mary Janes... and Converse.  
x. I want a gym membership to get into ship-shape, but I think biking during the fall will do just fine.
x. I hope I can switch drop-offs and get home before 11.
x. I want to see the Goo Goo Dolls on October 16th at the State Fair with Brandon.
x. I'm hoping to get a second job as a Respite/Habilitation care provider.
x. I've been putting off getting my hair trimmed and layered since my 19th birthday.

Things seem to be moving quickly in slow motion.  It doesn't look like I actually sit down and write in depth blogs anymore, let alone anything else in depth either, unless it is of importance.  So let's see... what's been going on lately?

Jessie's been pregos since May, and it hasn't really started to show.  It's amazing-- going from that girl I met in Keyboarding because I nagged at her, and ended up being the only one of two people I talked to in that class, to becoming a to-be-mommy.  Though I know I never say (because I'm a quitely unblunt Aries), she really is one of my oldest and best friends, and I love her to pieces.  We've been through a lot of shit together (running from large bugs on an elementary school campus at midnight with a camcorder, ALMOST going to the Army), and it's just down now because I'm so damn busy.  But once we get our lives in order... her kid will babysit my kids.  I know it.

The other night, I saw the Calabrese boys for the first time this year... and it was a bit saddening.  I didn't get to talk too much to Bobby (I think I creeped him out with my newfound confidence (I'm sorry about the shoulder! :O), I talked a bit with Jimmy... but when it came to Davey, he whizzed right past me with nothing more than a wave.  Haven't seen the boy properly since October, and all I get a whimpy little wave after driving all the way out there to see them, wth.  That really gets me, since I've known him since before he was legal.  Gah!

But he nicknamed me Lucreepa.
It softens my ANGERRRR.  Hahah.
I really miss those boys from time to time.  They're my boys, and they belong to the old Bandwagon.  No new wave of fans is going to take them from us.

I think the most exciting part about life right now is how I'm actually planning to move out...FINALLY.  I promised that if UCP permed me, I wasn't going to the Job Corps thing anymore... and well, here I am, getting a place closer to work.  We've got an apartment to look at tomorrow (Mission Shadows on 19th ave & Northern, and possible Montelano in the same area), and I'm moving out with my flaming homo and a new friend.  We're going to meet up tomorrow on the bus (hahah!), then see what we think of the place.  They only have 2 bedroom apartments, but Bradley has opted to take the living room.  I honestly don't want to hear of such a thing, so he may just share my room-- it wouldn't be fair to have the new girl share when she doesn't really know either of us.

We don't have a car or very much for our apartment, but it's the living experience and the FREEDOM that will get us through the rough times.  Winter will be a-comin' when we get in, so blankets will be a must.  I would think we're going to be a bit thrifty in the early months trying to get things together, so I'm hoping the 2mo. free rent deal goes through for us.  We'll all need bus passes, so I'm also hoping Sasha will purchase ours because she's still 18, versus our fair which is not reduced and near 40 for a month...  Beats gas prices, though.  One thing we won't have to worry about for a while is car insurance and car payments.  I knowI plan to get a part-time weekend job to help us along, but with the raise at work, it's certainly going to help.

It's not going to be easy, so we could defintely use all the help we could get.
Sites:
freecycle.org -- already joined to Avondale, pending Phoenix
craigslist.com

Note to possible new movers: don't get an apartment anywhere near Thunderbird.  I've already read the reviews for the ones near enough to 19th ave-- they're ALL full of Widows and Bark Scorpions.  I don't know about you, but I'd take a nasty old crack dealer over a Scorpion anyday.  At five of them don't suddenly show up in your shower in the morning before work.

Or do they?  Damn prostitute peddlers.

Aaaaand I've finally done it-- waited too long to ask someone out, and lost out on him... even when we would have totally dated.  Goddamn shy Saggitarius boy!  You're supposed to be a blunt set of people!

I dated a Libra once... lawl.



Yes.  I KNOW.  But I think it's a good thing, so STFUnab.



That's all I need.  Some of the things lessen, give or take real-life personality (I've never seen him gamble unless it's in poker, and he's responsible with his finances... for the most part), but for the most part... I've found my match!

But thanks to the wildfire that is UCP gossip... fucking Jessica... ugh.  I would love nothing more than to slap her, really.  She makes for an alright friend, but not one to tell secrets to.  Sheesh.  Not to be confused with the Jessie above. :3

Oh wow.  So yesterday was quite a day.  And it started with waking up late.

When your job is a good 20-40 minutes away, you've got to amplify it by ten to know how long it takes to get there on bus.  No, really.  To get from 107th Ave & Indian School to 19th Ave and Deer Valley takes a good 2 hours and 7 minutes.  If I can skip the DST and go straight to the connecting bus on Indian School... MAYBE it'll take less time.  But fuck RT19's scheduel.  Ehh.

Right, so, how does one get to work on time from 7:45?  Call Jenny.  Who is made of awesome.  :)  The rest of the day goes along smoothly, watching The Spiderwick Chronicles, hearing of a snake in the girl's bathroom, taking a smoke break with Brandon... or not really taking it.  >>;  Okay, so I can't do cigarette smoke at all.  So sue me.

Crap.  I really hope... nah.  I don't think he took it personal.

Right? ...ARGH.

The rest of the night went pretty nicely.  Well, not for some, though.  We saw the Ethan Fire as it had begun.  Not the fire itself, but the smoke rising from it when it started.  Hours later, we're driving down to the source of the fire, only to find out we're not the only ones.  I mean, have wild fires become a spectator sport?  The Ethan Fire started because of a random lightning bolt that had struck some brush somewhere around 99th & Dobbins, andddd they haven't started fighting it until this morning.  The people who live around there have been able to stay at local hotels for the night.

So does it help that Jenny's driving with the window down, shouting "MEOW!" at them? ...probably.  We got some pretty good responses.

The rest of the night went off without a hitch, with full moons, Mitch Hedberg care packages, and a list of comedians.  Maria Bamford, Jim Gaffigan, Nick Swardson... Fun times.

 

Rosie, sweetheart, I know I haven't been responding to your blogs with comments of LOVE LOVE LOVE, but you're strong.  You know it, I know it, so I don't have to worry that something bad will happen to you.   Because you'll kick it's ass!  You'll kick it straight in it's ass!

Happy 13th!  I hope everyone forgot to be superstituous and had a great day.  Everything was going alright... until I gave Zach's mom the van attendance sheet, and spilled tea all over the classroom floor.  Hahah.

Anyway, that's not what this is about.  It's about what's been going on in life lately.  It's been fantastic!  I love my job, I love where things are going, I love how stress is off and on and not all the time.  My dad's birthday was just the other day, and I filmed a bit of it.  I'll have to cut the last part out (it was ridiculous), but I think it'll do just fine.

I've decided that I'm going to start vlogging when I'm out of the house and living somewhere else.  After reading what's going on with residentmikelee on Youtube with his parents not wanting him to do what he does, I kinda don't want to run into the reprecussions of what my parents may think of my videos... WHILE I'm still here.  I mean, I don't plan to be raunchy or explicit (to an extent), but I'd just rather not be around if they disprove.  With my brother and my dad, especially... avid Youtube connesseurs.  I have the fear.

That, and I've been discouraged too many times by a dead battery. v_v;

Anyway, I've got a busy list of things I'm doing.  I'm just moving along, but I feel like I have to get my affairs in order because I'm on my deathbed or something.  Ha!  But the next few parts are about to be lists, so prepare yourself.

Things for the interview:

• If you are under 18, please bring a parent or legal guardian.

I may decide to bring my mom or not.  I want to, just so someone is there and knows what happened, but at the same time... after that skank at the admissions office didn't keep her mouth shut, LA is starting to look a little shaky.  The only thing good that came from is that we're going to there for the Fourth of July weekend.

• Government-issued picture ID or driver's license/permit
• Social Security card

Need to get a new one.  Mine's floating around here... somewhere.

• Birth certificate

Hopefully they'll accept birth abroad.

• Health Insurance card
• Immunization records
• High school transcripts or diploma
• Four Emergency contacts: mailing address, phone, cell, pager and/or e-mail address.

Those people will be both of my parents, Joseph, and Aviel.  Possibly Sauble.  -shrug- The Bay area is too far, anyway.  Though this is if I end up in LA, and not Sacramento.  I mean... wtf am I to do in Sacramento alone?  Go see Ashley?  She won't even talk to me, and we're cousins. Fine, skank.  j/k ily   I'm going in for Desktop Publishing. >>;  OR to get my LVN.  Ehh.

Things I need to bring/purchase before I move:

• Grooming materials
  
• Hangers.  Ha.
  
• A lockbox for my valuable shit.
  
• A lockable folder for my confiential papers
• Boxes?
  
• New Converse.  Can't look TOO ghetto in the ghetto.
• Avi's fan!  Though I might just bring that for the July trip.
  
• Uh...?  I think that's about it.

Things I need to do before I go:

• Clean out my room and throw out things that aren't of necessicity or value to me.  Store everything else in boxes in the closet.

As far as old RPs go between me and Jessie... I'll keep some, give her whatever she wants, then throw the rest out.

• Take my brothers... somewhere.  Anywhere.  And vid it.
  
• Return the things I borrowed from people over the years.
• Hopefully have a majority of my debt paid off, if not all.
• See the people I need to see before I'm off.  They know who they are.  Ask if you don't think you are, because chaces are... you are.  (That's a lot of 'are's.)
• There was something else, but I forgot.
  

Sounds epic, doesn't it?  It kinda is, yeah.  Check out a previous blog to get what I'm talking about.  As far as my job goes, this one will run out on August 15th, but I'm hoping to extend to the DTA program Driver's Aide at least until I'm ready to go.  JC has a waiting list, depending on where I go.  I just need to convince the people that I know people in LA and that I know the President of the Corps there.

I guess we'll just see what happens.  I really don't want to leave my job, but alas... I must move on.  Though I'll miss Andre and his Mario obsession, Miles and how many times he kissed Allie, Chelsey's singing, ect. :/



Listening to: Atlantic, by Thrice.  It reminds me of Tay... who I haven't really spoken to in ages.  Boo. :(