It’s been ages since my last blog. I’m not sure what took me so long. Maybe my messed up day job, my laziness, or my health condition but honestly I think there’s nothing at all.

Well, the one who inspired me to update MySpace is ……

Hmm I don’t wanna tell you now. Let’s take a look at this picture.

What you can see by looking at it? For me, there’re lots of feelings that runs through my mind. It touches my weary heart so deep and I now truly agree that a picture can paint a thousand words.

I’ve seen this pic few days ago in SJcelebs which I sneakily surf as YaSlave to looking for Kim HeeChul’s news and pics. (I’m trying to find out who use this pic as her siggy and I’ll thank her later.)

I searched anything related to Miyavi and his new born daughter and I rapidly fall for him. You’d better look at his space and you’ll understand how I became like this. www.myspace.com/miyavi

I have no idea where the hell I am, for not interested in him before. If you’re his fan, please don’t blame me. You’d better tell me the thing I don’t know about him instead, right? lol.

When I show his pic to my friend, they always say something like “Really, it’s him?” or “Does this man can have a baby?” Gosh! I talk to myself “Why not?” Do I show them the wrong pic, maybe. : ) But these are some of my favorite pics of him. I honestly feel a bit uncomfortable with lots of alphabets and numbers spread through the body. I have no idea how or when it became my pleasure to find out what’s the meaning of his tattoos. The first one I know is the one on his right arm which HeeChul adapted them as his minihompy folder’s names. There’re still lots to search for.

I don’t know what other people think about a guy with tattoos and that hairstyle and rings and lots of stuffs that make he looks …… ahh, you all know what I’m about to say so I’d better skip them for my life safety. lol. After that I show them this pic. : ) Does it looks like a father than those 2 pics. :P

 

I’m really happy for him and his wife about his Lovelie baby. Love’s in the air and I can feel it. I always feel good to see an artist have someone to stand by his side, get married, having a baby, start their own family. Life’s good and he worth it. All I can do is wishing them love that last forever, love that won’t fade away but keep growing everyday.

Note : no piracy intended. If any pic shouldn’t be here, please kindly let me know.

I feel uncomfortable with some K-songs again! Ahhh don't tell me it's 5095 times I told you, I know! lol but I can't stop myself. I don't understand what's the reason why they have to dance almost every songs while it's not necessary. Most of my cyber world friends are K-music fans so how can I escape form K wave attack. : (  I am the one who really like listening to the music but I reject what I call "fan duty". I don't want myself to be a bias girl. I think the artists should get the right feedback to improve themselves which can make both themselves and their audiences satisfied. But I find some fans always say "oh it's good. I like it. Cool!" even it's a bit noisy song. I think if the artists are good enough, I'll like it without any irritated emotion at all.

I've just watched Albert Joo's vid about YouTube comments. He said when people comments him on his myspace or facebook, they always talk about good things even though he had pimples or fat or whatever, they still say "You're so gorgeous." or "I love your hair." (I noticed that comments, too lol) YouTube watchers're more honest but sometimes so mean. And some comment's not related to what he tried to communicate with the watchers.

I can say I like this boy not because he danced BigBang , covered my favourite song "Lie" and "Better together" on piano so awesome or played guitar on another my favourite song "I'm yours". Because I, as a listener who can't play any instruments can hear his wrong chords and tied tongue in some verses. There's a space for improvement, he's just a human ohh just a boy so there're lots of times for him to improve himself and become more perfect. What I like about him is he can entertain the audience and himself at the same time. And the way he deals with the feedbacks both good and bad. It doesn't matter if he become (more) famous or not but if he wants to, I'll need no time to think before support him.

It's like what I feel for BoyceAvenue. I suggested my friend to listen to BoyceAvenue's song "Find me" and she fell in love with this song like love at first sight yeah, it's love at first listening. She asked me to updated BoyceAvenue's songs for her because she doesn't browse YouTube often as me. We said we'll buy their album without hesitating if it's released. I think it's not a fan duty but if someone pleased me, why don't I let them know by supporting them.

Well, back to my favourite Thai artist, Ornaree's coming back soon. I'm not sure when will she released the new album but I wish it will be soon. The New Year gift song "Feed" is cool! and so Ornaree's style. Hey, I'm not saying this because of fan duty! lol I really do like it. I wanna add this song to myspace but I can't. T T Never mind. Just wait for the album and I'll keep playing the songs 24/7. lol

While I was reading this blog, I was watching Jason Mraz at the same times. He's a good entertainer who can let the audiences take parts in his show wisely. Oh If you're Thai I suggested you to buy this limited editon because it's worthy. CD and EPs and DVD and the package is simply nice with details that I can spend times looking each little photos on it without boring. OMG what a good edition like this. The only one thing I dislike about it is the lyric was written by hand writing which makes my eyes sore! I'd better search the lyrics from internet unless I'm blind by looking at the hand writing lyrics : )

Umm I'm so sleepy right now. Gotta go preparing for tomorrow's tough work. Please wait for my next blog. I don't know when but the Christmas's coning. I guess I'll post new blog before New Year day.

A long time ago, there was a client who made an appointment to see me at my office. It was a bit funny cause he never let me nor his secretary know what he came for. So his secretary kept calling me to ask if I knew her boss’s purpose in case she could prepare some documents we required. How could I know what he wanted? I asked him but he told me nothing. He’s her boss, not mine. We both had no clue until the day he came. 

He’s a kind man and we talked a lot while waiting for another staff to tell him more details he wanted to know. Thai clients never talk to me like this. Maybe they try too hard to make a “business talk” and it ends up not effective as they want. But this man could make a good small talk on every topic: the political chaos, economic crisis in both American and Thailand. Did my office affect by the economic crisis? Bla bla bla.

First question he asked me was where I learn my English from. And I didn’t know why I told him all the truth! I told him that I only learn from my school but I love to listen to the music and it helps me a lot. After saying it I realized how silly I was but it was too late. He asked me if I dance along while listening. I had to say no cause I’m afraid if I say yes he’ll ask me to do him a favor. I swear I’ve never expected a client like this. He’s about 60 years old and I guess he sees me as his niece or his daughter.

That’s why his visit made my day. I know my English is NOT excellent. (You can see from my blogs that many words need correction.) But I don’t think I have to be afraid of foreigner. In the other hand I’m their foreigner, too. And “Farang” is not afraid of me so it’s no use to afraid of them or afraid of talking their language. I’m not a native speaker. It’s my second language. They can’t blame my English skill.

I still remember what Jeong JiHoon aka BI or Rain said. He said he thought he’s better than Westerners because they can speak only one language - English but he can speaks two languages - English and Korean. His words make me fall in love with him again cause he can protects himself by thinking in a positive way. I know he’s not mean to bashing anyone but when people seem to concern him while he “goes Hollywood”. He has to make it clear and make others believe in his potential. I bet there’re lots of people out there who treat him bad because of his ration and he has to find a happy way to struggle in entertainment industry. He’s a great fighter. Move on boy!

And yeah! his new album launched! I keep humming Rain-nis-sm the Rain-nis-sm all day. I think I’m more stick with JiHoon than Seery now. I tried to tease her by talking jokes about JiHoon but my jokes are not work on her anymore. She has no feeling left for him anymore. How sad it was! when someone who’s a BIG fan ignores her star whom she used to literally crazy about. This thing teaches me a lot. 

Here are my new gifs. I know it’s kinda fool. lol I just wanna give myself some fun and I will be happy to see your smile. They’re very basic Image Ready files but please forgive me I’m so sleepy and bore of fan duty while making them. Thanks many fan sites that teach me many things.

My life's so chaos these days from my routine work, my messy apartment, and my new cyber home. Those who've known me for few years may curious with what I'm doing nowadays. I don't mind cause I'm curious, too. And I'm sure I'm confused with myself more than what u've felt for me. I'm shouting out loud now I'm not a VIP. (That's what BigBang's fans call themselves.) I'm still not a fan of any artist especially K-Stars. Can u hear me? Can u feel me? But why I participate in www.choitopthailand.com ? I don't know. I truly don't know. But one thing I know is I'm the same person I used to be. I still be myself but just open my mind to learn the world outside. It's a good place for learning to give a hand to each other, take different opinions in appropriate ways and improve my English skills. I think it's a short period in my life so when I grow old I can look back with smile on my face.

After u read this blog, why don't u join me at www.choitopthailand.com? Hahahahaha I'm back to my point again. It doesn't matter if u're a fan of ChoiSeungHyun aka T.O.P of BigBang or not. I've already told u I'm neither a fan of him nor any artist. Do u remember? So please feel free to join this chaos community! Life's so short. Let's seize the day!

I feel like I lost my way with fanclub things again. lol  There's something about being a fanclub I still can't fit in no matter times pass by. I don't get something Seery said. I have to say it's good to learn from Seery's experience. But many things I don't understand, many things I can't admit.

One thing is talking about T.O.P's affair with that celebrity. I understand that Seery cares for me so she warns me not to do something irritates another fans which can harm myself. I truly thank her for caring me. But I really don't mind if my favorite artist's in love. He can do everything he wants smoke , drink , flirt with any girls he wants. So I don't understand why some fans make up their minds like that. Even he's not in love with her , he'll never loves me (I think also them). He is individual people like us, why they act like they own him. Is this what they call love?

And other thing is about JiHoon's visiting Thailand this week. I heard someone says it's private visit. But why we all know! Even I'm not his fan I heard when he comes , where he stays and his pics spread though the internet. I don't know this's real private or not because he comes with his about 20 crews to do an advertising shoot. But if he says it's private then it should be, right? Why some fans try to be where he's at and book same apartment he stays. He chose to stay in luxury apartment than a hotel. Why those who call themselves fan ignore this significant sign from him. What's personal right respect? I know he can come this far because of his fans "Clouds". He smarts enough to do whatever they please. Do their fans really do something he please in return?

If we do whatever we want and call it's love. If this's the way we treat the one we say we love. If the world spin around this way then I hate this world again.

I've just came to my apartment after LOST Concert. It's so awesome!!!!! God I can't keep it myself. Please forgive me I'm gonna spazz like crazy from now on! Lol

First artist was Rik, I was so excited to see her live concert cuz long time ago when I was a university student I missed the chance to see her show but my friend did and she told me that Rik has the incredible voice. I know from her album how good it is but as u know some singers lose their powers during the live show. But after I saw Rik's live show myself I totally agree with my friend and her show was so admirable. I don't know why I feel this way but I think she looked so SEXY tonight : the way she moved, the way she sang even when she just stood still especially in the red light. : ) She was like the queen of the stage. She conquered it!

Yarinda's a little bit too skinny for me but nice and attractive. She performed in the beginning part of the concert with Noi. The concert flew song by song fascinating smoothly. Noi's song I like the most's Pru. He sang it from his heart and I was touched. I bet those guys who sat in front of me are his fans cuz they acted like they gonna jump and dance ballet the same time as Noi did. Lol

When every single song ended I wish it was Ornaree's song but it wasn't until 30 minutes left. Well it was worth waiting. She began with Between Us and what came after was unforgettable. Her new single which she sang with Q's gonna be my next favorite. : ) Her continuing songs made me so happy. I guess some audience couldn't fit in those continuous like never ending Grunge songs but for me I'm so in love with this part cuz I came to see this concert because of her. I determined to get a ticket when I knew she gonna have a concert. At that time I don't know there're more 4 artists in this concert. What a fool I am.

Rik's also my magnetic artist beside Ornaree. But when I heard that Q's also in this concert I think twice. I personally ignored Q before this concert because I disliked my favorite Pause's song he covered. I had no feeling about him neither like nor dislike. But he did his best which was literally good performance and he already made me feel more comfortable with him tonight.

I think both directors did a very good job in leading the audiences to cruise along the LOST concept very well. They carried those messages to the audiences with enjoyable method. I felt like I'm in a good concert and see independent films/short films at the same time. But I personally think there's the lack of 5 senses they mentioned in ads spot before. Anyway I impressed several clips during this concert even the wall and the ceiling don't suitable for showing the clips. I like the clips about classical games especially Mario who struggled with the blocks and the clips about violence parts from high-rating soap operas. (Does politician talks also a part of the soap apera? I think so. Hahahahaha )

Then Siammanusati sung by rik. It's the clearly speak out song for peace and self consideration. I couldn't find another version touched heart like this. Rik has very unique voice and style. I think it's a difficult job to unite her with other artists cuz she always stand out while Yarinda and Noi seem to be the best couple to merge each other.

Even though I couldn't see several favorite songs of mine, it still OK. Emmmm no not only just OK, this is one of unforgettable time in my life cuz I saw my most favorite idol(s) not only one but two at the same time and they were hugging each other on the stage in the last song . OMG I feel like I'm in heaven. : )

After the concert finished I waited at the entrance door and saw Noi. He was nice to his backstage staffs and fans. Q was just sitting drinking and I saw some of his fans kept taking his pictures from her cell phone without any asking for permission. I think it would be better if they put more personal right respect in their action than this but as I told u before that I personally feel nothing for Q so I don't mind.

The concert finished earlier than I thought. So I waited for Ornaree and Rik to came out of the hall. I had an experience waiting for Big Bang at the path they supposed to leave. So I did the same thing, waited at the back door of TU hall which they supposed to park their cars at. But I went to this concert alone by myself. Those long time waiting made me so lonesome and there were few fans waited with me but lots of black t-shirt staffs all around. I felt a little bit of alienation and almost gave up once. Fortunately I heard someone said that they were at the front of the hall so I walked after them.

First of my favorite artist I saw was Rik. She makes me wonder how nice she is. Those who hear but never listen to her music always say she's weird. But in person she's officially nice person and she's so beautiful and wonderful and…. and Ahhh I LOST all of my words when I saw her. Next one was who made me wait for 40 minutes. Yeah, that's u Ornaree! Lol Well she has never asked me to do that. I determine to do it myself. So I can't complain. : ) I'm so happy that finally I met her in person. U don't know much influence she has on me. This myspace's the proof. I abandoned it for years until I found her space by chance. I begin to believe in destiny again. (If I'm a good Christian, I'll surely say it's the hand of God.) That's my motivation to brush up myspace. I think I should answer her with more sense than what I said when she asked me If I have fun with this concert. I LOST all my words again. O ma gosh! please forgive me I was so excited.

I don't mind if someone says I'm LOST or just an idiot trying to stick myself with these artists. They don't know how does it feel when I never have a chance to let somebody know how much I love them. Life's roller coaster and there's something out of ur control. How can u presume that others still waiting for ur words until the time u ready to say. If u love someone, why don't u let them know before we're apart. My mom always tell me to do something good to others like there's no tomorrow. And when death do us part, I'll have no need to regret. That's why I wanna tell them they're admired. Not as stars but humans who live and breathe like others. Dare to do what they want and speak for what they believe in.

There're peoples who get LOST everywhere every time even in Lost Concert. I don't know WTF white t-shirt man screamed during concert and that violence he did. He's the good exist example of LOST people surround us.

Official LOST Concert myspace click here

Watch intro (Stand Up) click here

Credit : stardaisy212@youtube

Watch Haru Haru mv click here

Credit : FlyAway87@youtube

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Finally those marvelous boys released their 3rd mini album! Stand Up! Seery got those songs from Takeshi's clubbox. First time we listened to them 2gether, we honestly dislike them. But later .. we saw Hara Haru (Day by day) this song sound a little bit better. Maybe seeing TOP's face can help it. Hahahahaha In this mv, GD my poor boy hurt himself during the set. Get well soon, little boy your birthday's coming. Haru Haru mv reminds me of lots of nice shots in previous mvs of Big Band themselves and Red Roc , Gummy and many. So I made some fun by finding out each scene taken from which mvs. You can guess, too. Here we go!....

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Lie – Big Bang....

Hello – Red Roc....

I'm sorry - Gummy....

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First time I heard 6^th song Oh my friend I bet it'll be Oh my gosh!!! for some VIPs because it sounds like J-Rock a lot and I find some comments say so. For me, I don't mind cuz u know I grew up with rock and some J-Rocks can catch my heart. This mini album's too K-Pop sound for me. But I can't complain since I fell in love with these boys several months ago.....

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GD shocked many fans of his with his new hair style. Those fans who wants him to be a queer dislike this manly punk hair style. (I still don't understand why some fans want their singers to be a gay even he's not close to it. WTH about their brain?) There're many real gays who are legendary and I admire; Freddy Mercury, Elton John , George Michael , Boy George , Darren Hayes and so. I really don't mind if GD's a gay, he is a good artist who has beautiful face and can act like a cute gal but I personally think he's not.

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Sometimes I think he's turning himself to be an extremely punk or emo. I see from his tattoo "too fast too live too young to die" a punk motto and some of his friends in "Nuthang" (totally hot stuffs). Just wait and see who he really is. But now one thing I'm sure of is he's a hot young blood with brain. I admire him so much. *dies*

They all were put eyeliners and I guess SeungRi the Makne's the most happy person. Because he always lose his self-confident about his Panda eyes. He talked about it in many shows even his message for fan club. Hey don't call him Panda again cuz now his hyungs are Panda, too. DaeSung is good looking for smoky eyes in this mini album. I've never seen him handsome before but he looks good in this pic.

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But TOP looks good in many pics. Lol Anyway, I still love TOP even he's a little bit thin now (base on his standard). Lol I heard the Iris's director assigned him to work out in gym! and he supposed to eat chicken chest and potato to build up his muscles which hardly find. What a pity of this big boy. Everyone knows how much he enjoy eating and sleeping. That's why this time his face looks unhappy and tired. That's a sacrifice to be a success artist like what JiHoon used to do for Ninja Assassins before, now it's TOP's turn for Iris. Why both artists I love have to go on diet, hmm? They supposed to do whatever they like, don't they?

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Edit : I erased the track lists and lyrics in both Korean and Romanization and English translation here but you can find them at www.choitopthailand.com

Last night I saw Nampeung in a TV show and I couldn't touch that dial but stayed tune for the whole programme. Some said she's too much artistic. But I used to read some of her interview which she said she had something in her head and she thought she's smarter than others so she couldn't talk to them any more. Sometimes I've been in those shoes either. I don't think I'm that smart but talking to someone is just wasting my time on crap! So I quit and desperate myself for once in my life. Thank god I'm in right state of mind now. : ) And so she does.

Her favorite artists are Joey Boy, the first real solo rapper of Thailand and Noi of Pru, a very unique singer. Joey Boy is a legendary of Thai music history began as an artist in Bakery Music Company. Now he has many cool artists in his hands also Zom Amara. And Noi performed my all time favorite song Took Sing (everything). He rocks! But another song Nahng Fah (angel) didn't catch my mind. He used to be an artist of Bakery Music Company, too but he also a CEO of it. It's so sad for me when this company had to close itself to join another company which's tragedy for me. It feels like when I knew The Radio was going to ended itself. Something good can't last forever so seize the day! Get anything good while you can.

I've just heard covered version of Love Symphony. I'm so surprised to know that New Kids On The Block reunioned again. INXS, Take That, Spice Girls were not much amazing as New Kids On The Block. Cuz there's no new KIDS any more! Look at their ages! I've heard it's gonna be NKOTB but that time I think it's just a rumour which can't be real. But here they comes. OK let's turn my head to listen to BigBang's songs as usual. Hahahahaha