Will I wake to the deepest greens of summer

Or sleep with the darkest blues of night

Will I cower at the power of the river

Or rise above the mountain in its might

Will I live a life of sadness with the willow

Never knowing there's a brighter star above

Or will I smile at the face of my creator

When I look inside myself and find there's love


There is love for a deeper understanding

Of sad resonance that passes through the soul

And like a bell I'll ring on to tomorrow

Seeking other hearts to make them whole.

"I have hoped as many hopes and dreamed so many dreams, seen them swept aside by weather, and blown away by men, washed away in my own mistakes, that — I use to wonder if it wouldn't be better just to haul off and quit hoping. Just protect my own inner brain, my own mind and heart, by drawing it up into a hard knot, and not having any more hopes or dreams at all. Pull in my feelings, and call back all of my sentiments — and not let any earthly event move me in either direction, either cause me to hate, to fear, to love, to care, to take sides, to argue the matter at all — and, yet ... there are certain good times, and pleasures that I never can forget, no matter how much I want to, because the pleasures, and the displeasures, the good times and the bad, are really all there is to me. And these pleasures that you cannot ever forget are the yeast that always starts working in your mind again, and it gets in your thoughts again, and in your eyes again, and then, all at once, no matter what has happened to you, you are building a brand new world again, based and built on the mistakes, the wreck, the hard luck and trouble of the old one."
 

I have fallen in love and drowned myself in sorrow to this song over the years.

From the sorrow that lies in the deep darkest shadows of living
To the light that will shine when the shadow fades into the dawn
Come walk with me now and speak to me truth about giving
Just as light gives shadow the truth about where it belongs

I've held your heart for so long I'm afraid I grow weary
And the heaviest heart cant be held by strongest of men
And I've deafened your ears with my song so that you cannot hear me
But my words, may they reach you to lighten your heart up again


Too proud, though we are, to admit there's a sorrow between us
That forms as a cloud and slowly it blots out the sky
Though winds of caresses blow softly and try to decieve us
It cant move the cloud no matter how hard it will try

So look not on yesterday, it has no place in tomorrow
And I'll have no place in your eyes while yesterday pines
We'll meet together in memories of joy and of sorrow
But memories get lighter and joys they get brighter with time.

In the shower today I noticed a very small

ant

Crawling across the ceiling

And I immediately assumed he was a scout

From an army of millions

That would eventually come to kill me,

But then I saw him drop

All the way down

Into the hot water

And quickly pass to the dark swirling abyss.

At once I realized he was probably working

alone.

I havent done a thing today except

Piss and moan about having to play this

Ridiculous game I'll lose anyway

In the end.

And if I never saw the face of a girl

Would I still feel lonely in this crooked world

Did Adam ask God why he needed Eve

In the only perfection that we've ever seen

...


And we dont choose to live, we dont choose to die

We dont choose to love and we dont choose to cry

And the stars never wonder, the stars never pry

They take the world at face value

the butcher, the baker and a little heartbreaker

stuck in a tub in the middle of the sea

the butcher got jealous

of the baker and the girl

and now there's two where there used to be three.

devil's got a tail six foot long
tug it three times for a country song
if you take a notion to sell your soul
get a little bit of that rock n roll

devil's got eyes as black as spades
cut right through you like razor blades
you can make a deal, you can make a dollar
hell and houston arent getting any smaller

that aint the sun up floating in the air
thats all the lost souls of millionaires
burning in their money, burning in their greed
burning all the light that the wicked need

devil's got a cadillac ten foot wide
take you cross the desert if you think you need a ride
travel halfway in the sweltering heat
kick you out the car make you use your feet

devil take your nightmares, put em in a box
cover it up with chains and locks
close your eyes for to go to bed
they'll turn around and put you in the box instead

aint in the center of the world

he's in the center of your head.