& not read! HA
but I still do it out of pure boredom..
haaay ohh - here's my tumblr:
pinkmonkeybird.tumblr.com
for the occasional lonely & bored reader.
Yeeea it's shitty like me, deal with it.

I'm attending NMU in the fall.
Excited but terrified..
My major will be art (undecided focus.....yikes)
& Native American studies for a minor.
What will I do with that is beyond me..
but really my only interests are
art, music, my heritage, history, cultures, what the hell
is going on in then world, drinking, & being with friends &
family.
That doesn't make a career, ha.
Well I wish the best of luck for myself..
Um, what I am seriously terrified about college ...is
drawing.
I cannot draw, I know that's like the first rule in art "I can't/I cannot"
but really it's not something I am skilled at.
I enjoy painting and sketching random stuff.
But a human figure...is out of my ability.
I'm just having a little freak-out session, I'll stop now before it gets too bad.


This is what 3:30 in the morning does to you.

Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind

I don't wanna be there when you're ...
Coming down
I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground

So don't go away, say what you say
Say that you'll stay
Forever and a day ... In the time of my life
'Cause I need more time, yes I need more time just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I can't find the words to say
With all the things caught in my mind

Me and you whats going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong


Oasis -
Don't Go Away

----Listening to a good cover of it by Five Times August

having $, tea, coffee, foooood (vegetarian), creating art (although my creative outlet has been not working correctly latley..), camping, being with friends, nights out, nights in, music (I happen to have a wonderful CD and vinyl collection), good movies (watching the favs over &over), going to concerts (rare *frown*), gettin my drank on, walking my dog, current events, history, weird news & facts, reading. ETC (:

I'm 18 as of St. Patrick's Day. Senior at Big Bay de Noc.  Heading up to NMU in the fall to study art, my concentration will probably be drawing and painting. I'm also thinking of a minor in Native American studies. Don't know if I want to stay there for all of my college life.  I'm really looking forward to the summer, I have serious senioritis.

Why isn't Arrested Development still on tv?

I like to watch: Will & Grace, House M.D., the Office, The Big Bang Theory, Scrubs, Desperate Housewives, How I Met Your Mother. Music videos (when & if they're on. jeeez.), news, History channel, HGTV & Discovery channel stuff too.

Movies I've watched more times than I can remember & I don't think I'll ever get sick of them:

Fight Club, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Half Nelson, and Girl, Interrupted.

a really random mixed cd I found last night--

-Ocean - Mae
-This Joint - Slightly Stoopid
-a song from The Notebook
-Colt 45 - Afro Man
-I'm A Bitch I'm A Lover - Alanis Morissette
-Hand In My Pocket - Alanis Morissette
-You Learn - Alanis Morissette
-Brighter Than Sunshine - Aqualung
-Strange & Beautiful - Aqualung
-2 stupid songs by some idiot from Jackass.  (not sure why they're even on it? they're fucking stupid..)
-a Spanish song that I can in no way identify (??....)
-Listen to Your Heart - D.H.T. (I'm assuming this CD is from like '06? thanks to this song)
-Down With The Sickness - Disturbed
-Break On Through - Doors
-Damaged Goods - Gang of Four
-Follow Through - Gavin DeGraw
-the 4th part of Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day (that was cutout by....)
-Kermit the Frog on Weed - who ever did that ? ICP ?
-Extraordinary - Liz Phair
-Cocaine Girl - Stage Fright (I guess everyone thinks it's Nirvana ..?)

I couldn't handle listening to
a couple songs on here.. haha

i need a big "love"


someone to be there with me when I'm lonely.
Someone to watch the same movies & tv shows over and over with
someone to listen to the same albums over and over with
someone that would drop everything to come see me
someone to make me feel real
someone that wouldn't think my plans were too obscure:
like spending a week or so in a cabin in the middle of the woods
(to get to know each other better & drink a lot of wine )
like saving up some $ and taking off to Bonnaroo
someone to make me soup when I'm sick (I'd do the same)
someone that's cute, caring, smart & funny.

i could go on & on
but it would just be sad
as if it isn't already  - sad enough
I'm MySpace blogging @ 3 a.m.
about my hopes..
pitiful

would not it be great
if a life plan appeared under your pillow
one night.
would not it be a splendor?
your life
simply applied
according to
some greater force

if God(s) is/are so
great.
why don't he/she/they do that?
if they care so
deeply
why don't
they plan the
"right'
life


you're whole future shown to you
your key qualities put to use
you lesser qualities out of the picture
you are the person that everyone wants to
be.
patronizing at it's best

more or less

it's too bad.
I'm miserable
all the time.
really,
what's the reason?
am I mad?
flustered all the time
curious as to why
it's too bad
I'm slowly fucking up my life
being miserable
all too often
it's 1:41 am
and I have nothing better to do
(sleep may come to mind to the average person)
but sit around
and listen to
Bukowski
read his
dirty realism
I am almost stupid enough
to try to figure out his
epitaph
"don't try".

we just witnessed history !
How beautiful was today??
No matter what your political views are, you must agree today was something special.
Soak it in people -