so there's some exciting stuff going on.
i recently sent my mom a video of kai saying "hey grandma!" in Japanese.
since i haven't gotten a reply from her i was thinking about her email address and wondering if i sent it to the right place.
while i was thinking about it i realized her email address is genki1989. then i started thinking about why in the hell she had the year 1989 (assuming that she meant the year) in her email, i was born in 1984.
and then...i remembered something. i have a memory...from when i was very young of me and my mom being in my dad's apartment in japan. from what i remember she was wearing a dress and she had a big stomach. then her stomach started hurting really badly and i had to run down the street and call the ambulance on the payphone. and that's all i remember.
i couldn't really remember if this was a real event that happened, or if i was just remembering a dream that i had. so i called jeffery and talked to him about it because it was just too interesting.
what i thought was...well....1989 i was 4 or 5....and if this really did happen, and she really did have a big belly...she was pregnant....and i'm thinking she had a kid and it died...or she gave it up for adoption. which I KNOW i'm jumping WAY ahead of myself...but i'm just giving out possibilities. it just seemed weird to me that i was thinking about the meaning behind the year...and then that memory came back to me after all this time. i've asked my dad about it before and i couldn't remember what he said, so i called him.
i talk to my dad for a second and he tells me that never happened. but he sounded like he was lying. he hesitated and his tone was just weird. so i called my grandma in japan to ask her.
i talked to her for a while and then i asked her about it and she said that really DID happen. BUT she said that my mom didn't have a big belly. the hospital never figured out what was wrong with her..but don't worry she's fine now. she kept telling me that everything is ok, don't worry, eveything is fine.
i asked her specifically about my mom's big belly and she said she didn't have that. before i said ANYTHING about a baby my grandma mentioned that it had nothing to do with a baby. but i kept asking her and asking her and she kept denying and denying.
but grandma hesitated and i think i caught both of them offguard. it seems extremely odd to me that my dad said that NEVER happened and my grandma said it DID. i would think my dad would remember something like that.
i really think that they're hiding something from me. and i want to know what it is. what IF I really did have a little brother or sister...they'd be 17 or 18...i could have nieces and nephews. i could be an AUNT!!! and kai would have cousins. todd could have an in law. oh man....i think that's so exciting..IF that's the case.
and i wonder why my dad would cover for my mom.....it's just all peculiar. i want to get to the bottom of this...now.