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Last Updated: 10/18/2007

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Gender: Female
Age: 23
Sign: Gemini

City: ??
State: Beijing
Country: CN
Signup Date: 2/20/2007

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April 16, 2007 - Monday 


5:54 AM 
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April 12, 2007 - Thursday 

Current mood:  cynical

i can't normally browse my myspace site, either can afang. i don't know whether it's a problem nationally or internationally. besides i change my url to blog.myspace.com/xchen605. anyway, if no one knew i changed, no one would know unless i tell them. but i haven't told anyone yet....so i believe it is just me that still browse this place,,, on a irregular basis
i don't know, not in the mood i guess. not in the mood of talking nor chatting nor whatever, i need more sleep, i need more energy, i need more optimism.
i just started the GRE project today. 3 pages got me exhausted, turely. i don't know i would ever get through it. i'm not the kind of person who lasts his focuses. can i excuse myself by the fact that i'm a gemini? geminis change all the time, that's what they say. how am i supposed to sit for hours, for 3 months straight, just to blindly memorize the countless unfamiliar odd words which u probably would never ever encounter again? i'd rather believe it's just a joke.
i can't help feeling low, am i a loser or something? i really really want to get out of all this, quickly. what is life for anyway? pressures, disillusions, hatred, fall-outs, jealousy, unfulfillments..... oh god and i'm being cynical.

it's a good thing that nobody can see this rightnow. i need to get these things off my chest, while nobody necessarily needs to hear.

1:30 PM 
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April 9, 2007 - Monday 
2:43 PM 
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April 7, 2007 - Saturday 
bothering days
1:47 PM 
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April 7, 2007 - Saturday 
12:40 PM 
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April 4, 2007 - Wednesday 

fun talking, nice kid, he reminds me of wang tian yi.

i was just wondering, this afternoon, ye jia yu, will us be as close as before?

2:54 PM 
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April 1, 2007 - Sunday 
i miss mummy, i miss sammi, i miss nick, i miss nok
i miss us, i do 
11:13 AM 
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March 31, 2007 - Saturday 
christ, what have i done!!  shame on me..... chong's right about that remark i guess....  i should stop my irresponsible mad childness. time to grow up perhaps.
4:49 AM 
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March 30, 2007 - Friday 

i thought i've get over it, well, kinda
but i suddenly found all the effors made one so exhausted, that i myself couldn't believe the rushing end of this seemly never should have ended so abruptly story. they said that a memory's never finished as long as we are still alive. but if the painful reality that follows erases all the sweetness, doesn't it just feel sad that the supposed major part of one story actually only takes up what only counts for a preview? a supposingly happy happy fairy tale turns out to be a tragedy. maybe comedy's so so out out of the battle.

well, deal with it, that's the best we can do anyway.

3:00 PM 
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March 30, 2007 - Friday 
Others cannot easily see through your inscrutable mask now, so they won't know what's going on behind your clever wit. You may be hiding your negativity so others won't see your vulnerability. It's best, though, not to have too many secrets or you could inadvertently invite a minor emotional meltdown. Talking about your ailments is better than keeping them to yourself.

for comparison

(this is for libra)
This is an emotionally isolating few days, so don't worry if you just feel like keeping more things to yourself for now. But you'll still have strong reactions when you're caught off balance by something unexpected. Fate is working its magic on you; even the littlest event can turn into a significant catalyst. Keep a sharp eye tuned into whatever seems important so you don't miss what you need.

1:10 PM 
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March 28, 2007 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  pissed off
liang hui has been over for quite some time, why is that i still cannot browse xanga? god-damn policy
1:33 PM 
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March 28, 2007 - Wednesday 
6:22 AM 
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March 27, 2007 - Tuesday 
there are times when life calls out for a change, a transition
like seasons

spring was wonderful
but summer was over now
we missed out on autumn
and now, all of a sudden, it's cold
so cold, everything's freezing over

i love fell asleep
and the snow took it by surprise
but if u fall asleep in the snow
u will feel death coming

take care
12:04 PM 
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March 26, 2007 - Monday 
the beginning of the end
2:17 PM 
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March 25, 2007 - Sunday 
to u
2:18 PM 
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