From the minute you were born you became my best friend in the whole world. We grew up together and you were always there for me when I needed a hug or a kiss. You showed me what love is and you gave it to me without me even asking. I adore you. You make my face light up you make me laugh. You are such a special boy.

But now you are gone! You made a choice that has taken you away from me. A choice that cannot be changed or forgotten. I wish I could of thaught you better I wish I was there for you when you needed me. I blame myself Jordan! I lost my best friend that day. I lost the most important person in my life that day. I wish I could go back in time and take all of your pain and sorrow away from you. I lost my son that day! I will never have the same son again and I grieve you everyday! It kills me everyday! I want you home I want you safe. As your mother all I want to do is protect you and love you. Jordan I want you to know that I will always love you and I will always be your mother. You make me proud even though you had made such a bad decision. Why Jordan why? Why did you have to leave me I wasent done raising you! I wasent done being your mother. I thought everday would get easier but it dosent it gets harder and harder. I cant imagine my life without you! But I have to come to the reality that My Jordan is gone. I dont know who you will be but I hope you keep your sweet heart and your loving nature. I will always be here for you and will be waiting for you no matter how long! I love you Jordan forever and ever! Be safe my precious son!

     It beats the same but it does not feel the same. It pumps in my chest it keeps me alive but what happens when it loses its soul? Just as everything dies without hope so shall the spirit of the heart. Who has the power to get into someone elseses heart and rob it of  its soul? Do they take it piece by piece or do they feel they are intitled  to it all? Do they need it ? Do they posess it? Do they even know why they are taking it? Is it a trophy that they can put on a shelf  and show it off for all to see? Do they keep it hidden like a buried treseaure? Why can someone have such a need for the soul of a heart that they didn't even want? Beacuse we all know thats how they get the soul is by rejection of the person that posesses the heart. Why must our souls be so weak? Why do we allow the power of persuassion to lead us to the path of the soulless heart. If there was a way to protect it and defend it and  run away with it would it be safe? Or would it be to beaten down and  weak from the passing of the hands. Why does anyone need another soul? Do they dominate with it in there possesion. What can they do with a soulless heart? They can't mend it they can't revive it. Only the rightful owner can restore the soul of a dying heart. So they watch it slowly wilt away like a dying rose. It slips away more and more and as the end is in sight there is know more hope as we say the last rights.    

By: Stephanie