I got so many problems (I got so many problems)
And they weigh on my mind (And they weigh on my mind, now)
I don't solve 'em, no, I just cause them (I don't solve 'em I just cause 'em)
And they weigh on my mind (And they weigh on my mind now)

Tell me, where do you go when your money's all gone?
When your friends are all gone? When your love is all gone?
No right turns, always seem to be wrong.
All goes bad, it's so hard to be strong.
It's an uphill battle I don't think I can win...
I try to do right but I'm surrounded by sin.
Say, he's a better man, don't compare me to him...
I've climbed the highest tree, now I'm stuck on a limb.

I got so many problems (I got so many problems)
And they weigh on my mind (And they weigh on my mind, now)
I don't solve 'em, no, I just cause them (I don't solve 'em I just cause 'em)
And they weigh on my mind (And they weigh on my mind now)

I look for guiding light, but the bulbs they all burned out.
Got up to the door and the lights they all turned out.
Said they couldn't teach me so I guess I'm all learned out.
Saw my soul die, didn't fly, it just squirmed out.
In the blink of an eye I turned my home to a house.
I know what to say but no words will come out...
My time's almost up, I don't have any doubts.
I said my time is almost up and I don't have any doubts.

I'm gonna hold on as long as I can here
And my American dream, I have some doubts there
I'm gonna hold on as long as I can here
And my American dream, I have some doubts there
And I don't wanna fight here

I got so many problems (I got so many problems)
And they weigh on my mind (And they weigh on my mind, now)
I don't solve 'em, no, I just cause them (I don't solve 'em I just cause 'em)
And they weigh on my mind (And they weigh on my mind now)

I think everyone should read this and give me their input. I'll probably delete it after a week or so since I didn't write it myself.

This was written by Larken Rose...
July 4th, 2007


Today is Independence Day.Today Americans across the country will
show great reverence for an empty symbol, while showing disdain for

a worthwhile principle.We celebrate with great fervor the signing
of the Declaration of Independence, while showing absolute contempt
for the ideas expressed therein.


What is it we are celebrating? Independence? Independence from
what? We rejoice at having thrown off a tyrant who taxed us at an
average of two to three percent, in order to establish new tyrants

who tax us at over fifty percent.Having been thoroughly
indoctrinated into the insane notion that "our" government supports
liberty and justice for all, we schizophrenically condemn the
actions of King George III, while remaining silent about the far
more intrusive, oppressive, unjust actions of the current tyrants

we mislabel as "representatives."

Let us set aside our picnics and parades for a moment, and think
back to this nation's birth, and see what it is we should be

celebrating.In his famous "Give Me Liberty Or Give Me Death"
speech, Patrick Henry stated that "it is natural to man to indulge
in the illusions of hope," and that "We are apt to shut our eyes
against a painful truth, and listen to the song of that siren till

she transforms us into beasts." How many eyes are shut in this
country today? How many Americans today "having eyes, see not, and,
having ears, hear not, the things which so nearly concern their
temporal salvation?" On the other hand, how many Americans have
this attitude?: "For my part, whatever anguish of spirit it may
cost, I am willing to know the whole truth; to know the worst, and

to provide for it."


Few. Very few.And who could say the following today, and not be
condemned by the masses as an extremist lunatic?: "Is life so dear,
or peace so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of chains and
slavery? Forbid it, Almighty God! I know not what course others may

take; but as for me, give me liberty or give me death."

And what of the Declaration itself? How many Americans who pledge
allegiance to a flag today can even remotely relate to the message
of that document? The Declaration has become a revered relic, whose

words have lost all meaning to most of those who worship it.We
repeat the words, but the spirit of the message is long since dead.

Let us revive it, put it into the modern vernacular, and assess
just what the modern American response to the sentiments expressed
therein might be: When a government infringes upon the rights of
the individual, instead of protecting those rights, the people have
the right and duty to throw off that government, violently and

illegally if necessary.How many flag-wavers believe that? One
percent? Probably less.


History shows that people will tolerate injustice they are
accustomed to, rather than doing what it takes to get rid of a

familiar system which oppresses them. Amen.And so it is with the

dim, fading shadow of this formerly great nation.As long as we
have our couches and our TVs, we will do nothing about tyranny in
this land. So long as we are enslaved in comfort, we do not resist.


Much of the Declaration is a list of oppressions and injustices,

"injuries and usurpations," committed by King George III.The
Declaration proclaimed such wrong-doing to a "candid world," to
justify their illegal, treasonous (and righteous) rejection of the

government they were under.In short, the complaints of the
Founders against King George III pale in comparison to the
complaints modern Americans should have against the far more

oppressive regime they now call "their" government.As one example,
the Founders complained that the British Crown had "erected a
multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to

harass our people and eat out their substance." In contrast to

modern America, that complaint seems laughable.Today almost three
million people are employed by the federal government alone: a

full one percent of the population.State and local governments

employ even more.The level of micromanaging and regulation is far

beyond what King George ever would have dreamed of.One look at the
Code of Federal Regulations, which takes up an entire book shelf,
will tell you that.


Desperate to hallucinate something superior about this country,
people now resort to saying that, though we're not actually free,
we're more free than other countries. In reality, however, the U.S.

does not have the most freedom, either economically or socially,

anymore. In fact, the U.S.has the highest per capita incarceration
rate in the world.


So what is it we should celebrate about this country, and its

independence? There is no substantive reason to celebrate.All that
is left is unthinking pack mentality: we "love" it simply because
we're here, the same way the people in every other country "love"
what they are familiar with--the same empty herd mentality which
enables tyrants to perpetually play the game of war.


How many this "Independence Day" will say the following words?: "I
pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and

to the republic for which it stands." Only the familiarity of those
words, and our unthinking repeating of them, hide from us the evil

insanity underlying such so-called "patriotism." Blind allegiance

to a flag and a government is nothing to be proud of.(The
reference at the end to "liberty and justice for all" is now

nothing but a sad Orwellian lie.)

The ideals which drove the American Revolution are stone dead in
the hearts and minds of the American people, who have been trained

to view subservience and obedience as virtues.The following are
the words of a current leading contender for the Presidency:
"Freedom is about the willingness of every single human being to
cede to lawful authority a great deal of discretion about what you
do" (Rudy Giuliani). And millions would vote for him.


To wave the American flag in public, to carry it in parades, either
demonstrates profound psychological denial, or profound historical

and philosophical ignorance.If the flag represents what this
country and its government has become, it deserves to be burned in

contempt and disgust.If it represents the ideals from which this
country was born, it deserves to be burned out of respect and
sorrow, rather than desecrated by flying it atop the giant shrines
of tyranny in a land where freedom has died.


Sincerely,

Larken Rose

01. Learn to get more freelance work.
02. Learn and switch to the DVORAK keyboard layout.
03. Decide on a starting major.
04. Get a laptop.
05. Practice for the ACT in October.
>06. Work on my car when I get it, and learn a lot more while doing it.>
07. Start using the 13-month moon calendar.
>08. Decide who to vote for.> (Constitutionalist Party)
>09. Register to vote.>
10. Get a better secondary/safety job.
11. Get my ear pierced.
12. Get my lip pierced.
13. Secret - Cebzvfr Evat sbe Uvccl
14. Design Sulfur or whatever Cover
15. Design Tattoo
16. Write about everything.
17. Write more poems/raps.
18. Practice ^ a lot.
19. Improve my vocabulary.
20. Organize MySpace.
>21. Cricket > Virgin Mobile.> < U.S. Cellular
>22. Give up soda? Possible?> Only soda without high-fructose corn-syrup or caffeine.
>23. Sell Corsica.>
24. Plan out freelance skill time-frame, business branches, nocturnalism, etc.
25. 2002 Pontiac Firebird Trans-AM WS-6?
26. Plan out Veg*n Menu Business Cards
27. Read something everyday.
28. Organize life.
29. Vegan Vet?
30. Teddy + Hunter ->> Vet.

This is what I've been working toward and where I am at now.

I at one point supported Bush but was unsure of anything. I hadn't looked into stuff myself. I've since developed my own ideas.

My mom used to work for the police department in Clovis, New Mexico where I lived until my fifth grade year. I used to like cops, but I don't trust them anymore... They have no helped me once even though we've called on them for help. I've been verbally harassed by cops more than a few times.

I believe anarchy is possible if planned carefully. I don't have an opinion on rather it would work better than democracy or any other form of government, but I would be willing to experiment with it if a volunteer peaceful anarchist civilization was to be started on a uninhabited island or something.

I'm interested in almost any topic you can hand me. My primary means of income is freelance work on the Internet. I like this because it gives me complete freedom. I work when I want, how much I want to, as much room for advancement as I want... Doing what jobs I want. I have always thought it would be nice not to have to follow man-made time... As I don't believe in follows my natural sleep schedule. No alarm clocks.

I want to learn as many skills as I can, perhaps get my associates degree in every subject they offer at the community college... I want to be able to make anything out of anything. I have a lot to learn when it comes to that... Sowing, wood carving, welding, electronics, pottery, etc.

As far as current skills go... I can rap fast and clear (but lack confidence), and type 153 WPM... There should be more skills, it's pathetic.

I have loved motor vehicles all my life, especially cars... My grandpa on my mom's side owned a custom car shop... My grandpa on my dad's side owned a car repair shop. I got a four-wheeler when I was 7, but it was traded in because it was old and unsafe. So, I got a dirtbike when I was 8, traded in for a bigger four-wheeler when I was 12. The first time I drove a car by myself was a 5-speed manual S-10 Pickup truck when I was 10. I prefer manual transmission cars and automatic recreational vehicles.

I don't do drugs or drink, I prefer not to alter my mind in any way. I rarely drink caffeine and am attempting to give up High-Fructose Corn Syrup, then carbonated beverages... But that last one might be next to impossible for me.

I am a vegetarian. I've always wanted to be but thought it was too hard... My girlfriend is one now though and I didn't see it as fair to her... And beyond the moral/ethical aspects of it, there is hygiene, social, environmental, health, food safety, religious, and economical reasons to it.
Update March ??, 2009: I've been a vegetarian for a year now... Recently visited a place called VegaDeli in Chesterfield (100% vegan food) alongside swinging back into my political-side... I couldn't help but go all the way and become vegan. Hippy has started with me also.

I don't associate with an organized religion because I have not found one that suits me (besides Flying Spaghetti Monster, rAmen!). Instead, I prefer to pull ideas from whatever I find and keep it relatively simple. I believe in karma, I believe in one main God, I believe in lesser gods, or perhaps the Saints of Christianity... I believe in past lives, spirit guides, telepathy, evolution, the Akashic Records (in the Astral Plane), and Jesus. I also believe in a balance of the world, in the fashion of a yin-yang... Which means there should be a female version of Jesus also.

I believe strongly in personal freedoms as long as it doesn't hurt others directly. Drunk driving kills others, second hand smoke kills others. Smoking privately in your home with other smokers, then dying of lung cancer is the risk you took. I consider people mourning over your death as indirect.

I like to think I stay calm in most situations but can be a little too quiet-spoken at the same time. I've been working on it.

I don't consider myself a pessimist. I'm a realist and what you would call a "futurist". If I'm ever looking back, it's to make the future better. I have a lot of big dreams for the future, rather it's my personal life or being a part of the movement that turns this country/world back in the right direction. I think technology, when used correctly, will solve most of the world's problems.

I like art, especially symbolic and abstract art. I like reading but don't do it nearly enough. I am open-minded when it comes to music but highly prefer faster/dynamic music and the vocals must be clear if there are any.

I like seeing creativity and try to stretch mine as much as possible. I like dyed hair and tattoos. I think largely gauged ears look weird.

I hope to one day soon change my whole style, before college. I want to wear clothes that actually show a part of me, more than just something I bought from a store with a gift card, or something somebody else bought for me.

I don't like having long hair or short hair. At the bottom of ears/right above my eyes is probably perfect. I want red streaks in my hair. I want to pierce my left ear, and gauge it to 14 (13 if possible). I also want to get my lip pierced, on the bottome, on the side. I want to get one full sleeve tattoo, dissipitating/fading out slowly when it reaches my back/chest. I also want to tattoo three rings on my fingers.

I want to follow a new calendar. I thought of it on my own one day and I've come to find out there's a movement to switch to it. It will have 13 months instead of 12. 28 days a month. It follows the moon perfectly and makes much more sense for many reasons. I plan to start following it when the New Year happens for it in what the normal calendar calls July.

I regret not dropping out of high school as soon as possible, at 15 with parent permission, 16 without. My current situation is this: I graduate high school with a ~1.5 GPA, good for nothing besides the diploma. I go to community college for two years, where I get A's. This is because I wouldn't get accepted into a university and so I can get the first few general classes out of the way for cheaper. With that, I move on to a university and graduate from there. If I would of dropped out, my situation would of been this: Drop out, ged GED, get better paying job... From there either concentrate on work to raise money for the future/college, or move onto college as soon as possible. In this way, I would be years ahead of the socially correct path I am finishing now.
Update: I finished and I could still say I regret it but I'm going to attempt to not regret anything.

I hope to one day know more languages, be a part of something bigger, live in New Town with Hippy and our Pomeranian, Teddy... Have the car I want, and run my own business from home with plenty of time to enjoy life and learn what I can. I hope to retire around 35-40 years old because of smart investing. I'm not out to be hugely rich, I'm out to live life to the fullest, learn as much as I can, and leave a positive mark behind.
Update: I don't think I want to live in New Town anymore... There have been more cops there and the symbolism frightens me. We also now have two Pomeranian's, Teddy and her daughter Sound. Sound is fixed, Teddy still needs it. We also have a cat (half-rescued, ha) named Hunter (he wears a pink collar and always looks angry no matter what.)

Favorites List:
Author: Kurt Vonnegut
Artist: Banksy
Band: (Hed) P.E./Flobots
DJ: Dangermouse
Guitarist: Buckethead
Instrument: Keyboard
Number: 13
Rapper: Tech N9ne
Singer: Cee-Lo Green (Gnarls Barkley)
Sport: Parkour/Freerunning

I have a lot to learn, and not enough time in this lifetime to do it.

I'm going to make this as short as possible...

Today (Thursday, December 6th, 2007):
1. Got my braces removed! Had them on since Sept. '07.
2. Went to Starbucks afterwards, said I had to wait for mom because I had no money on me, they said it was on them today... Got a small decaf White Chocolate Mocha (deliciousness).
3. Then they gave me a free sample of some strawberry lemonade slushy-like thing, which was delicious also.
4. Then I asked about a job... They seemed interested in highering me even though I said I don't turn 18 until January... And took my application anyway... To put in for multiple Starbuck's...
5. Spencer Medley and Mike Womer described this as the special treatment people without braces get and welcomed me into their world.
6. I only had to go to 4th, 5th, and 6th hours today... + Lunch.
7. 4th Hour we made Pizza Bagels in... Which were amazingly delicious also... My group consists of Mike Womer, Spencer Medley and David Smith so it's pretty sweet.
8. 5th Hour we finished watching The Muppets version of A Christmas Carol, movies are always good.
9. Today at the library I decided I was going to be reading A Clockwork Orange as my next novel for my Reading & Writing Workshop class... The main deciding factor was the reviews saying it was a philosophical book, which is what I was looking for.
10. My mom and I went grocery shopping today... I'm making Spaghetti on my own, the sauce from scratch tomorrow in my 4th hour class (free cooking day)...
I'm also bringing in Sparkling Apple Cider, which I love...
11. At the grocery store I found these SimplyAsia microwaveable meals, they look delicious and I love the detail in the packaging...
12. I also got Gingerbread Poptarts, Chocolate Soy Milk and the soy version of EggNog... Which is an improvement (I had my doubts.) + 3 boxes of Hot Chocolate... I'm going to try combining the chocolate soy milk with hot chocolate and eggnog with hot chocolate...
13. Friday (tomorrow) I'm going to go see The Golden Compass hopefully... Most likely a later show if I go... I really want to because it's one of my favorite book series (read it when I was in 5th grade though...)... If anybody can/wants to come, call my cell please (314) 368-4208. My car is being fixed BTW, something with the battery/alternator most likely.