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Jerica Garcia

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Libra

City: LOS ANGELES
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/21/2004

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Sunday, July 29, 2007

i hate it but i have to do it
Current mood:

cold

i have had enough.

u always tell me u don't want me.

u don't like me.

u don't need me.

u hate me & u would like it better if i'm gone.

do u know how much it hurts that u'd rather have anyone with u but me, i help everyone, but you won't let me help you.

i'm that one stupid idiot who's always worrying about u, caring for you...the one who wants to be there for u.

but u won't let me.

i'm the one who always takes the heat for u, the one who's always wanted to give u everything.

but still, u always hated me.

u get mad at me all the time, yell at me & hurt me.

still, i'm the one who runs after u & says sorry.

because of u, i have lost my pride.

i allowed u to walk all over me for so long.

i spoiled u & gave u as much as i can.

and now, this is what u do to me.

i don't like this but i have to do it.

especially since u asked me for it last night.

this is what u've always wanted.

i have suffered enough.

beneath each smile of mine lies sorrow.

from now on, i won't allow u to hurt me anymore.

i won't be the one to run after u.

for once in my life, i want u to be the one to say sorry.

i'm tired of loving u & giving u my all.

u always think bad about everything i say or do.

i know what i'm doing is going to make u very happy.

since it's what u've always wanted.

have a happy life.

the next time u call me, i won't be there anymore.

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

clarifications regarding Saturday night 071407
Current mood:

sad

sorry for taking so long to post this bulletin.

thanks for believing me guys &hearts; i guess u really know me well enough to know that i would never do such a thing.

anyway, i'm really thankful that i was with my eagle rock friends that night & also for one of my barkada's dropping by that day....if not i would have been in serious big trouble.

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I had work saturday & a week earlier i had already made plans with my eagle rock friends to go to Ate April's house at Tujunga that night.

I was supposed to get off work at 7pm but i was still working on some stuff so i got off around 8pm. i was having a headache that day so i asked Kuya Abba who works at the cart next to mine for some Tylenol.

Once i got off work, we couldn't leave & go to Ate April's house yet cause Ate Liza needed help closing her cart. Her keys were left at Ayie's drawer on the other cart which was already closed. So Ayie had to come back & get the keys & stuff. We didn't leave Eagle Rock plaza till like 9:30pm i think.

Pau-pau drove us there...me, jessica & nikki...we went to Ate April's house & had fun. we did karaoke, watched movies...etc.

Anyways, I DIDN'T GET DRUNK & PAU-PAU TOOK US HOME AROUND 3AM.

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It isn't true that i went out with THEM on Saturday night because like i said, i was out with my eagle rock barkada.

it isn't true that i got drunk & said shit about other people.

It isn't true that my sis & i were so wasted & we didn't want to go home because we still wanted to drink. (seriously, has anyone ever seen me drunk? i barely drink!)

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my message to those 2 friends of mine who did this is simple.

i still care & love u guys...i want to fix it.

i know that u don't know that i know already.

i already knew that u were betraying me from way back but i was still always on ur side whenever u needed someone to be there.

just be honest about it...i'm still open to the possibilities.

i'm not even asking the two of u to apologize. just drop ur act already...be real...and let's all be friends all over again. i don't want to lose those 5 years we were together. i still love u guys always &hearts;

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Saturday, July 14, 2007

Can't Sleep
Current mood:

contemplative

2:56am and i'm still up, it isn't really surprising considering the fact that i am a crazy insomniac who sleeps around 5 or 6am.

i had 2 very well missed people contact me today, my bestfriend Medz & this one person who made such an astounding presence in my life. sadly, i won't drop names...those who know me well enough already know this person anyway ^_____^

with my best, it's the usual chika. we talked for probably 3 hours, and as always...it was fantastic. i really miss her gravely & i do wish always to see her...

the "other person" contacted me through YM though. i don't even know why the hell we don't have each other on our friend list when we do talk always when were both on & we did get pretty close back then. maybe it's because of all those silly stupid things we did then. both young & foolish...we both believed we were mature enough, that we were smart enough...turns out that we really weren't. hahahaha!!!! it took us about 3 years to figure that much out.

ugh! things were so..."odd" back then.i say odd because of all those things that happened between us...aren't they indeed "odd", it was fun anyhow, so i guess it all works out. and to think people were saying those moronic things about us. seriously, most of them thought we were in bad terms with each other after all that...hahahaha!!! that's impossible though, after all the things we've been through.

i don't exactly know what i wanted but somehow u always know what it is that i need. u know that ice cream saves me from my bad days, u know that i'm weak when it comes to anything cute. i like how u hug me when i blush & whenever i call u a "stupid idiot" u always say "yeah...but your stupid idiot!" and u'd have that mesmerizing smile upon ur lips once more. i like how u leave me notes all the time..post it notes, writing secretly on my notebook, etc. It was so funny that one time that i went to ur place & my friends picked me up...remember i left a post it note on ur car & ur dad was the one who found it. we were so caught up! i still carry post it notes around...but sometimes i tell myself not to anymore so i leave them behind. after all, i have no one to write those notes for that u love so much.

i remember that one time we were out with ur friends, having coffee & simple conversations. we were sitting together on this huge recliner & ur friends were teasing u. u looked so adorable with that innocent smile playing on ur lips. it was mesmerizing.i recalled whispering in ur ear that & how u laughed & whispered back to me that it was one of the best things i have ever said. i didn't reply then but now that i have the chance too...i always thought so too....it was absolutely one of the best things i ever said in my whole life...

remember that time u took me to the park after school. u went to my place to pick me up, then u drove us there & u bought ice cream from the ice cream truck. we played on the swings & on the slide...u got a splinter pa nga on ur finger & we stood in front of the drinking fountain trying to get it out. u kept telling me it hurts but u kept laughing &i was getting so worried too...u evil evil u. in the end of the day we were both sitting under some huge tree & u started to get sappy. i was laughing my ass off & u just blurt out something then that really pissed me off. u said..."someday u will forget" i recalled being silent...we both were. after 15 minutes of silence...i broke the silence by calling u a "Stupid Idiot"

remember the very first time i baked some stuff for u, u just had to go & take pix of it...text people about it & call them up. hahahaah!!! u just had to go & make a big fuss over it. it was totally u. u always make a big fuss when it comes to me.

anyway, we never did figure out what we were in the end. i used to question myself but after 5 years i don't think it even matters to me anymore. i don't know what we were, i don't know what we are now, i don't know what we will be but there is one thing i'm certain off; and that's the fact that...i don't regret it. i don't think i ever would.

somedays i'd think that we could have done better but in the end of the day i realize that we didn't have to because it was the best thing ever.

it's about 5 years already...we seriously should get on with our lives. i wish u well..and seriously, u shouldn't talk about me too much when ur in front of the ladies. ur getting me in loads of trouble. u haven't seen me in 5 years...i gained a lot of weight na! i'm not the old me anymore, u seriously should stop looking at all our old photographs. i should go tell on u...ur mom's gonna be on my side again, as always...i'm someting new...i don't know if it's better but i like it.

u seriously should get over me, para naman i can get over u na. let's both be happy & let's never ever forget.

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Monday, March 12, 2007

Late Night Rambles
Current mood:

blank

It's late at night and people have fallen into deep slumber only to awaken in the land of dreams. I sit in front of my computer staring at the blinking cursor as it creates the letters to form the sentences buried in the depths of my mind. These past few days I have done nothing great. All of my time were spent on my job and only at night when silence surrounds me do I go and dream of things that were or will be. It is then that I realize certain simple things that I failed to notice then. As a smile gently plays on my lips and I hum a little melody. It is then that I dream and see the things my eyes yearn to see. Each thought passes by as if clouds drifting in the vast blue sky. There are memories from my past, they seem to have come to remind me of the me then. Then there are those thoughts that contain my wishes and fantasies. They are surreal and incredulous and only in my dreams can I reach them and pretend that they are real.

This solitude I'm graced with tonight pushes forward thoughts and spins them around at great speed. They pass by so fast and only flashes of them remain in my mind. I'm staring out the window to my right and I am greeted with the sight of my neighbors huge tree. A closer look reveals to me the vast heavens. So dark and calm. As little stars twinkle and do a simple dance for me, I feel my heart overflow. Not with joy nor sorrow but simply the overwhelming thought of the things out there that await me. Pieces of me that I have somehow lost along the way, pieces that will make me more than the me now.

I wanna feel complete, accomplished....I wanna fulfill those little things in the back of my mind and in the depths of my heart. I wanna pull those thoughts out and make them into something beautiful for everyone to see. I guess I just need to have more faith in myself and in my capabilities. The passion within me had flickered and almost died and yet here I am reclaiming it once more and hoping to make it blaze and fuel me to greater heights. Somehow that thought makes me wanna laugh out loud and throw that particular thought out the window but I couldn't and I definitely shouldn't. I don't have much pride in myself. I sound conceited and a bit arrogant. I don't sound like me. It's not perfection that I'm after nor am I jealous or envious. Simply put, I wanna be more than the person I am now. I want people to see me in a brighter light. I want them to see the burning desire I have in my heart to share all theses things. To make them understand, to make them see, to make them feel all of these raw emotions I hide beneath the simple smile that graces my lips.

And as the fire within me burns brighter more than ever I only wish that those shadows that hide in the darkness that had enveloped me be touched by the light that I have somehow managed to find along the way. I've come so far and now is not the time for me to stop. I will keep going and I will keep trying. The faith I have in myself and the dreams I've worked so hard to create will soon be a reality.

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Monday, March 12, 2007

random ramblings
Current mood:

bored

and so here i am again, sitting in front of the computer while the darkness of the room hides away my shadow. seriously, did i just write that?! it's almost 2 in the morning...1:27 to be exact. i'm bored to death and an annoying guy keeps sending me perverted IM's. seriously, can my night get any worst?

lately i've been busy with work...luckily, i'm still able to go out with friends. I started working at ERP just last year, the people are fabulous and are very very wonderful.

i was out with friends a few weeks ago and discussions were made. in a way it kinda made me think about my life. it made me want to re-evaluate everything over again. to analyze it and really see what i've missed out on.

so i did take a better look and i realize that there are so many things out there that i never really paid much attention to that i should have then. it sounds a bit silly and maybe eve pathetic but i feel like it's about time that i see more of what's out there. i've always been open-minded, optimistic and opinionated and yet i failed to distinguish certain things in life that i should have. i lack so many things in so may ways. it somehow makes me wonder where all my time has gone and it makes me question myself for reasons why i didn't think about something as simple as theses then...why just now?

i'm 20 turning 21 and i don't feel like i have accomplished what i should have but it's not too late. i still have some time. i'll cut it short for now. love u guys, mwah!

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Monday, January 15, 2007

FASHION SKETCHES 2004 (check back for updates)
Current mood:

crazy
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

Life is...
Current mood:

worried

            Looking back at my past…I remember each and every moment. Each moment fills a space and each moment is a picture. A picture to a very intricate, vast, and complicated world. A universe waiting to be discovered.

            Reliving and savoring each moment once more, brings about the old times. It brings back the memories, the feelings, the thoughts, the desires…everything seems to have awakened from a long deep slumber. As if a vivid dream forever remembered and never forgotten.

            They say a person must be contented…how ridiculous!!! If everyone will be content …that would make a perfect world. We all are fools…never perfect and never will be…believing we are indeed perfect…yet we have flaws. People are never content…we all are and we always will be. Everyone dreams to possess more of what they have and don't have. A pointless world evaded by reality…as if a ship fighting a disturbed sea…not of water but of the line between the truth and the lies forever kept in the deep blue sea of misery and joy.

            Every now and then, a certain someone wishes to turn back the hands of time and recreate their past…to alter it, to make it better, to enjoy it, and to change the present and their awaiting future. I'd be a liar if I'd state that I never regretted anything in my entire life. That would make my life a huge lie. I mean, no matter how hard I try, I will never be able to turn back time. I cannot forevermore dwell in my past, the only thing I can do is to make the best out of my present and pave my nearing future.

            No one is perfect…true, I suppose…however, some people tend to be smart idiots…believing that man is never created to fail, but always to succeed. Mistakes aren't such of a bad thing; you make some and eventually learn from them. Learn all you can from the mistakes of others. You don't have plenty of time to make them all yourself. Once we all realize that imperfect understanding is the human condition, there is no shame in being wrong, only in failing to correct our silly mistakes. As we all continue our journey through life, we all learn that experience is a hard teacher because she gives us the test first, the lesson afterwards. Life is too short to be wasted…Live and Learn…I can sum up life in three simple words…it goes on….

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

nikki and her Lumpy humps
Current mood:

annoyed
Category: Life

hehehe....crazy ass subject

heLLo everyone

darn Nikki! my day is ruined beacuse she freaking didn't come to schooL so now my day is ruined because she's here breathing down my neck

nikki if ur reading this......imma freakin' poke ur eyes out!

serves u right for not dragging ur Lazy buns to schooL.....hehehe!!!

anyways, i gotta cut it short guys......i need to bitin nikki patiwarik for now.....mwah!

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Friday, March 25, 2005

happy GOOD FRIDAY!!!
Current mood:

cheerful

happy GOOD FRIDAY!!!

hello my chums.....what da crap, nobody freaking reads this trash i waste my time writing on!!!! oh well, guys check out my other blog at xanga.com/kwuintessence17 anyways, i'm chatting with the very beautiful WAYNE ROSE FRANCISCO. geez!!! i sure as hell miss my dearest homies in Pinas....sana i can see them ryt now....just like before. oh well, that's life.....were still gonna see each other pa naman eh....before i forget, yesterday i went to the mall with my sis NIKKI, my cuz DANIEL, and my drez friend MEREDITH....we also watched THE RING 2. the movie wasn't even scary so it was sorta disappointing......the last part where naomi watts was climbing up the well to get out withSamara following her was really hilarious!!! oh well, i wanna watch the amytiville horror.......ooooh!!!! got to go guys...take care!!!! mwaah!

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Friday, March 18, 2005

HELP PLEASE!!!

we need your help...
IRENE de BORJA is looking for a kidney donor with an O blood type. If you need more information and have questions, please call us at
(213) 388-5407 or (213)925-6450

thank you.

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Friday, February 18, 2005

b0RinG...
Current mood:

bored

Hello…..he he!!! Nothing new….....my life is still as boring as ever. Once again I'm doing school work that seems unending.... I work on it everyday but it doesn't seem to lessen the work load..... .............wwwwaaaaahhhh!!!! poor me....

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

wanna be my valentine?
Current mood:

artistic

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Monday, February 14, 2005

L0nELy BuT gReAt.....
Current mood:

calm

iT's vALeNtinEs...
hello everyone.....Valentine's is here again......waah!!! i'm dateless and broken hearted....but it's okey iL just stay home with my comfy istant dates.....the couch, the remote, the chocolates, the chips....and the Tv and a movie of course, better that than none. Till my next post guys....take care......mwwaaaah!!!

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Wednesday, February 09, 2005

join me...
Current mood:

blank

hello.....join me @ sms.ac...........my username is kwuintessence

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Monday, February 07, 2005

ha ha.......nasisiraan na talaga ako ng uL0.....
Current mood:

crazy

ha ha ha.....naloloka na talga ako.....nothing much to say....just a simple HI and a request to please kindly visit my site (still underconstruction....but it works) and sign my guestbook....and read my journal (if u like)......ha ha ha....thanks and mmwwwaaaaaaaaahhhh

visit my site and sign my guestbook......or else.....

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