In bed. I feel something there..i get a bad feeling.. Suddenly it flies up my back, breaths down my neck then goes in my ear.. I feel like im underwater.. The inside of my ears are boiling.. Im held down, cant move cant scream... I finally let out a scream.. Im able to move.. I cry.. My senses are heightened, everything seems so loud.. Everytime i doze it breaths down my neck... Its still there, its gonna get me... Lisa alexie

WANNA KNOW WHAT GRINDS MY GEARS? NON-DRIVIN ASS PEOPLE. IVE BEEN BACK TO N.O. FOR LIKE A MONTH NOW, MY ROAD RAGE IS OFF THE CHARTS, LOOK AT ME IM A SKINNY ASS WHITE GIRL, AND IM AFRAID IM GONNA RIP SOMEONE OUT THERE CAR SOON!  AND I ONLY GET LIKE THIS IN THE CAR. OK, SO A FEW WEEKS AGO THE TRAFFIC WAS SO BAD, EVERYONE WAS TRYIN TO MERGE OVER INTO THE WESTBANK LANE, INCLUDIN ME. THERE WAS A LADY IN HER BENZ RIGHT ACROSS FROM ME, I WAVED MY HAND(NICE N CALM) TO SEE IF SHE WOULD LET ME N, NO LUCK, SO I BUMPED MY HORN...(CALMLY)..SHE WOULDNT EVEN LOOK. SO I DID IT AGAIN (CALMLY)..STILL DIDNT LOOK...THEN I CLICKED OUT. MY FINGERS SOMEHOW GOT GLUED TO THE HORN...THAT BITCH STILL DIDNT LOOK! SO THE NICE MAN BEHIND HER LET ME IN.....THIS MEANT WAR.......... I GOT BEHIND HER, I COULD SEE HER BEADY ASS EYES LOOKIN RIGHT AT ME N HER MIRROR....I WAS LIKE  "BITCH"! OH I ALSO USED SIGN LANGUAGE, I WOULD POINT AT HER AND AT ME. SO I WAS LIKE "BITCH, U COULDNT LET ME OVER!!? SHE KEPT LOOKIN. I WAS LIKE, WTF!? U IN A BENZ, SO U TOO GOOD TO LET ME OVER?! IM KINDA EMBARASSED TO EVEN SAY WHAT ELSE I SAID..WELL IT WAS A COUPLE MORE FUCKS, AND A COUPLE MORE WHORES....I SNAPPED OUT OF IT AND REALIZED I HAD THE KIDS WITH ME...AND CHRIS WAS LOVIN EVERY MINUTE OF IT! THEN THE OTHER DAY, IN THE LAKEVIEW AREA I WAS IN A TURNIN LANE, THE LIGHT WAS RED. THIS OLD LADY BEHIND ME LAYED ON HER HORN, THEN THE LIGHT TURNED GREEN, BITCH I CANT HELP IT IF IM NOT PSYCHIC LIKE U!!! I WANTED TO GET OUT THE CAR AND PIMP SLAP HER ASS!  THEN THERES THE ASSHOLES THAT ARE LOOKIN FOR TROUBLE... SO I HAD MY BLINKER ON TO GET IN THE TURNIN LANE., THERE WAS A DUDE BEHIND ME, AS SOON AS I GOT OVER HE GOT ON THE SIDE OF ME N SAID, "WHAT THE FUCKS UR PROBLEM?!" I SAID I DONT HAVE A FUCKEN PROBLEM!! THEN KEVIN WAS LIKE , "HOLD UP, WHAT?!"  THEN THE DUDE WAS LIKE "U LOOKIN AT ME LIKE U HAVE A FUCKEN PROBLEM!!!" SO THEY HAD WORDS...BUT ITS A DAMN SHAME CUZ KEVIN DIDNT EVEN KNOW THE DUDE WAS BEHIND ME. THEN THERES THE ASSHOLES THAT MAKE SUDDEN TURNS WITHOUT A BLINKER, AND THE ONES WHO R SO MUCH ON UR ASS THAT U CANT TURN EVEN WITH UR BLINKER....I CAN GO ON N ON...SO IN THE WORDS OF PETER GRIFFIN...."THAT AMERICA,,, IS WHAT REALLY GRINDS MY GEARS"

LISA ALEXIE

I HEAR THE GRIM REAPER KNOCKING, ONLY ITS SOMEONE MUCH WORSE.
IT SEEMS LIKE MY SOUL IS BEING RIPPED FROM MY SKIN.
I GUESS I HAVE ENOUGH STRENGTH TO KEEP IT IN. THE PAIN IS HELL.
MY BRAIN CONSTANTLY ROTATES ON ITS AXIS.
MY MINDS ON PERMANANT SPEED. MY THOUGHTS ARE ABSTRACT AND TWISTED,
BUT THEY REMAIN CENSORED IN ME. IF THEY KNEW,
THEY WOULD PUT ME AWAY AND LOSE THE KEY. AM I INSANE?
SOMEONES CHOKING ME. I FEEL HANDS AROUND MY THROAT.
WHEN MY HEARTS NOT RUNNING A MARATHON, ITS STUCK IN A VICE.
MY STOMACHS IN KNOTS.
ON A GOOD DAY, IM LIKE A GHOST, MY BODY FLOATS,
MY MIND IS LIKE FUZZ, MY EYESIGHT IS SPECKLED AND GREY.
THAT DARK CLOUD IS ABOVE ME.
I RUN BUT IT CATCHES UP.
THEY SAY NOTHINGS WRONG.
JUST PUMP ME WITH DRUGS AND SEND ME AWAY.
ITS SUPOSE TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.
IT JUST MADE ME HALLUCINATE.
AFTER ALL THIS I MANAGE TO KEEP A SMILE.
SOME DAYS I LOOK UP AND SEE RAYS OF LIGHT SHINING THROUGH MY DARK CLOUD.
THATS WHEN I KNOW THERES HOPE.
MY EYESIGHT BECOMES CLEAR, EVEN IF ITS JUST FOR A MOMENT.
ITS THE BEST FEELING EVER.
THEN I LOSE IT.
MY DARK CLOUD GETS THICK.
I JUST WANNA HIDE, BUT I LIVE DAY TO DAY AND KEEP IT INSIDE.
WHEN PEOPLE LOOK AT ME THEY CANT TELL,
I WOULDNT WISH THESE FELLINGS ON ANYONE
BECAUSE ITS HELL........... LISAP

IM IN A DOWNWARD SPIRAL. I FEEL LIKE IM FIGHTING FOR SURVIVAL.
I DRIFT INTO A SCAREY PLACE.THEN MY MIND BEGINS TO RACE. IM IN THE FUCKEN TWILIGHT ZONE,TRYING TO FIND MY WAY BACK HOME. MY BODY IS THERE
BUT MY SOUL STARTS TO ROAM. IM IN ANOTHER DEMISION,
SCARED AS HELL AND FULL OF SUSPICION. I START TO
LOOK BACK, BUT I GET A BAD INTUTION. THERES A DEMON LURKING,
AND HES GONNA CATCH UP. HE DOES. NOW IM FUCKED.
HE MUTILATES MY SOUL AND TAKES MY POWER. MY HEARTS RACING
A HUNDRED MILES AN HOUR. SUDDENLY HE STOPS,
HE LOOKS CONFUSED AND SHOCKED.
HE SCURRIES OFF INTO HIS ZONE, I OPEN MY EYES,
I BACK HOME............ LISAP

THE WORLD IS TWISTED AND CRAZED. I LIVE EACH DAY IN A DAZE.
ITS LIKE ONE BIG MAZE. THERES SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS.
YOU GOTTA FIND YOUR PATH, IT WONT ALWAYS BE IN PLAIN SIGHT.
YOULL LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES, AND MAKE THEM RIGHT.
ALONG THE WAY YOULL RISE, AND BECOME WISE.
YOULL HAVE YOUR LOWS, AND YOUR HIGHS.
THEYLL BE PEOPLE YOU DESPISE.
PEOPLE WILL ADVISE, SOME WILL TELL LIES, AND EVEN CRITICIZE.
THE OLDER YOU GET THE MORE YOULL REALIZE.
IF YOURE NAIVE, THEYLL DECEIVE, CUZ THEY KNOW YOULL BELIEVE.
YOULL TRUST PEOPLE ONLY TO GET LET DOWN.
NOW YOU WONT LET ANYONE IN.
ITS A VICIOUS CYCLE THATS GOES ROUND N ROUND.
YOU TRY AND TRY, BUT YOU CANT WIN.
TIMES WILL GET ROUGH, YOULL LOSE PEOPLE YOU LOVE.
YOU GOTTA BE TOUGH, YOU GOTTA STAY ABOVE.
THE CHOICES YOU MAKE ARE ALL ON YOU, KEEP YOUR HEAD UP HIGH,
ITLL ALL COME THROUGH. LISAP