It's weird, since I haven't been on the computer constantly and wanting to chuck myself off of stuff, I've been feeling sort of out of place around real, proper people. You know, the sort who aren't pixels.

I mean, it's definitely not a bad thing, at ALL, it's just a strange feeling.

I do still hate real people, probably just as much, if not more, than ever. I see the shit they do and it makes me think of how... worthless they are. Just... Worthless. It's like they're all following some completely ridiculous pattern only those who have been repeatedly fucked over can seem to figure out, but we all still know what it is. Does that make any sense? Prolly not.


...You know, I forget where I was going with this. Despite how pissy I prolly sound, I'm actually in a really grood mood. I was just thinking about stuff and decided to post this? I don't know.

What I do know, is I think this is the first time I've been happy in... Well, since sometime in the earlier bits of highschool. I mean like, happy for a long period of time.

I dunnoooooo.



...Where was I going with this again? I'm so tired...

I feel like such epic win, now.

And a little bit of fail because I realize that I am probably creepy.

But I'm too happy to care all the way.

I AM STILL HAPPY. THIS IS A RARE THING, GUYS.

Especially since I'm so used to like, spending all of my time staring at my computer, drawing people with bad anatomy, and wondering why I can't just rot already.

BUT NOT TODAY. Today (well, yesterday, shut up, today is awesome too, just because I'm thinking about yesterday.) is fucking amazing and nothing's been able to upset me, not even Travis's random heart problems and some turtle malfunctions (which is normally enough to make me chuck cups and chairs across the room in rage).

If you don't know what this is about (trust me, you don't.) you shouldn't bother asking because I won't give you a straight answer 8D

All you need to know is that I'm creepy, other people are fucking amazing, and I've never been as nervous in my life as I was this morning.



...I'm gonna go now and stop talking about stuff in ways that make no sense to anyone. Unless of course this does make sense to you, in which case please don't think I'm a loon for being so thrilled about this I'm not a creeper I swear! ;___; I just act like one sometimes on accident. You should hit me with something when I do that, it's abnormal.


Right. Walking away now. FOR SRS THIS TIME.

I'm ashamed of myself. I can't even make a simple phonecall without making myself sick from nerves.

God damnit. I'm pathetic.

I was gonna say it to your face (or whatever the fuck), too, but I was too mad to concentrate and hit send anyways.


...I'm not going anywhere with you. Stay the fuck away from me, stay the fuck out of my town, and god fucking damnit if you MUST come here don't even fucking tell me about it.

I'm tired of being lied to and ditched.



I don't care WHY you couldn't make it, you could have fucking tried. Why the fuck did I ever spend so long talking to your sorry mangy ass?!

I could have been doing something that would have had more benefit for ME. Like fucking sleeping. Or ripping all of my eyelashes out.






I hope it snows on you.

...I took an IQ test and found out I was stupid. I'm sad now... I mean, I knew I wasn't epic smart, but augh...





I hate me, for srs this time.

...I've been stalking Jasper around the house for like 4 hours now. This is a new record for me, and that /almost/ makes me a megacreeper. I think somehow he's starting to notice, because he keeps bumping me. >8I

Awesome.

YOU SEE... My parents moved my videogames and my compy into my room, and now I has sparetime like no other.



...Also, the bracelet I have looks like the one from this thing, but it seems thicker for some reason, maybe it's because my arm is smaller... But not by alot.


....Long story, don't ask lool. AM CRAZY, OK.

I've come to the conclusion that I hate anyone who will "settle down" for a man/woman. 8I

Where the fuck is your spirit, and were you ever the person I thought you were in the first place? If you loved what you did, why would you stop for someone who doesn't love you enough to let you be yourself? I've got so many friends who "settled down", now plus one more, I think it's ridiculous.






The day I settle down is the day I die.

I... Got dumped. Again.


Just so like, everyone knows.

Because if you mention him in front of me in the wrong manner I will beat the shit out of you, friend or not.


Thankyou and good night.

No, really. I'm a fucking genious.

This time I've fucked up big time. Yaaaaay me!



I'm so good at fucking important things up. I should win a prize.

A prize for life ruining. Go me. I'm awesome.





Actually, no. No I'm not. I'm fucking SHIT. Just so you all know.

I just messed up worse than I've ever messed up before. Because I'm that stupid.

And now my life is gonna suck forever.



...Yeah. That's about it. Just needed that out of my system.




Puck is 51, 34, 26. Celebes.


(I'm able to move now)

Wazzock says:
you has a good time stealing cheese, you thieving bastard.

Beau says:
im not going to do it

Beau says:
do you realize how much cheeze 40 pounds is?

Wazzock says:
as much as two cats 8D

Beau says:
more like 3 1/2 cats


...I love how we think this is normal.

My body is trying to die. Fuckin' OW.

I caught some weird flu thing, and I can't move. My head hurts D8

So I was smart enough to try and go places yesterday. Awful idea. Even though I got ECR finally. Is a good book.

Also, Deathsnake is really pretty.


...I'm going back to bed now.

I don't mind being alone.

I used to be bored by myself all the time at home, but now... I kinda enjoy it. No one can fuck with me here, and I can choose who I have to talk to. Although sometimes manners prevent me from telling the ones I hate to piss off... But that's a different story.




I don't... Think I miss him anymore, actually. I think I'm over it.

...That was fast.






I made a sammich in my underwear today. I think I scared the neighbors, but that's ok.


I wonder how often old people get to see a near-bald, half naked chick making food. Awkward 8D


I think I have a lack of personal respectywhatsit right now. S'ok though. Cus I wouldn't normally let old people see my ass, it's just right now I don't care.



That was a really weird blog.







I wish I was eating cookie dough right now. No, not the ice cream. Fuck your ice cream.

Ok, well you know how I said I was sick, right? Well it's been pretty bad...

For those of you who do not know me in real life, I cannot breath out my mouth, unless my nose is available for me too. It makes me feel like I'm not breathing at all, and I freak out.

My nose was plugged last night, and because of this, I could not sleep. Instead I layed on the couch in a half dead state, while taking frequent showers/baths (about 5 in all) throughout the night. When at 5 in the morning, I took another shower, but in this one I fainted from being sick and not sleeping.

I woke up at 6 to a bunch of freezing cold water spraying up my nose. Apparently I not only fell asleep, but I fell over.

So when mom got up I got on msn and wrote to Trav to tell him I was sick and is he wanted he could come over and have some tea with me.

Spent another couple hours on the couch, half dead.

Received a free dvd player in the mail XD

At about 3, Trav got here. We didn't have tea, but we did eat alot of grapes. He gave me a back rub too. That made me feel alot better. After that thoug, I started drooling. Seriously. Drooling. And then I fell asleep on him.

At 4 he left, but for some reason I was still drooling. In fact, I still am a bit droly now. I wonder if it's the lack of sleep...

I layed back down on the couch, but got bored and took ANOTHER bath. I must be the cleanest person in the world right now.

When I got out of that bath, I went and layed in my bed and read the magazine my mom got me.

Tryed to fall asleep again, but couldn't. Nose stuffiness returns... God dammit.

Got up and went to lay on the couch again.

Watched Starwars for some unknown and probably stupid reason. I don't really care for Starwars.

Ate chicken soup mom made for me... God that was nice of her.

And that was pretty much my whole day.

 

Yes.