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Ok now that I have settled into the place that I am stayin at which I have I say is really nice place to stay in a quiet nieghborhood in alhambra which is in northeast LA. That is besides the point right anyway onto my trip to hollywood. The reason why why I had planned going to LA in the first place was to make a trip to hollywood when I got the change to do so and that day was today I will say that today could have been better as things didnt go as I thought they would have in the first place. I got a late start sleeping in which im not going to complain about as it was my first good night of sleep in a long time. I first decided to go to unverisal studios first as I had a year pass now to go there. To tell ya the truth it just aint worth the money to compare to something Io think that if I had gone to cali adventure I would had a better time. I liked the park itself but I think it has too many simaltion ride and not that many actually good ride as I think that jericcia park and the revenge of the mummy were the only rollercoasters in the whole park which to me if I had known that I wouldnt have gone to it in the first place other that the rest of the park was alot of fun and it was nice to get a behind the scenes look at things when it comes to making a movie. After then I got to hollywood and highland area on the subway and stopped over to holly wood area of fun and stuff.
I liked it walking up and down the street seeing all of the stars of fame on the walkway made me thinkin about alot of people that I used to see on tv or in movies over the years and that was a sight to see. The main event for the night was a rare treat for anyone that goes to hollywood. I went to see the new xmen movie in the main theater of the chinese theater and I was in awe of all the history of the theater seeing all of the hand food prints really amazed of how much history that place truly has there. I did see one set of prints from 1927 to give an example on how long they have been doing this over the years. there were alot of people dressed in characters outside the theater example would be superman spiderman bat girl in a leather suit yum yum haha and even jack sparrow made an apperience. I will say this about hollywood it has it own personaity and it makes it a place of it own when it comes to standing in the crowd of cities in the world. Any way I've a great time up here in LA LA land but im ready for orange county and going to knotts on sat and disneyland on sun should be alot of fun. until then I will say good night.
bye for now,
Curtis

So today I have set out for my trip to the LA area for the next two days and then another night in anahem for batdays as that was the plan to do so to kinda get a head on my bday in about two weeks from tonight which I am excited about. Tonight was the dodgers and padres game tonight from LA and I have to tell when you are from san diego it is a good idea not to show your true as the visiting team. I will say that tho if you want to be an attention whore for three sections of the stadium then that is the way of doing so that is what I gotta for such. I knew what it was I was walking into when I decided two months ago that this was something I needed to do so. now that I look back on it I wonder what was the thinking behind that thought. It is interesting to take insults from people the whole night and just blow off and enjoy the game and that is what I did because I knew it was wasnt me that they were mad at it was the jersey and hat that i was wearing to the game. I talked to some of the fans and some were nicer than others so the LA crowd aint so bad as it could have been. I gotta say tho I compare this crowd to the raiders crowd when they come to town to face the chargers I can see the rivility between both ball clubs and how the true haterst for one another goes with their fans as well. I love that factor in sports and maybe that is the true reason why I enjoy the game of baseball so much. it is just another way of people to make asses of themselves for really no reason at all. That to me is the real entertainment value in sports it isnt the teams of the field, it aint how the team is doing winning or losing wise. For me it has and also always will be the fans and the passion that is showned in their games that drawns me more to baseball and other sports in general as well. As for now im done with the sports part of the weekend I did get a dodger blanket so if anyone need something to help them keep warm than give me a hollar as I have a blanket I need to get rid of. Other than that I will be heading to bed in a little bit and getting ready for universal studios in the mornin.
bye for now,
Curtis

things have been changin over the months as you have seen I have gone back to my hidding mode and for some people i've become a harder person to track down when something has come up. The truth is that I've needed sometime to myself to clear the air on things they are going on in my life and get other things settled before moving on to the funniest time of the year my favoirte season of the year SPRING. First thing that needed to be settled was work and what I was going to do with it becuase frankly i've said for a few months now that I wanted to quit my job and find something else with my time and for a long time I was going to do that today and find new work but then something hit me I may not like the line of work that I do but workin in a huge company like target I knew I had one advange and that was I have able to go to the places that I have wanted to go too for the last couple like what I was doing when I was living in ohio and I missed that too much I guess. So i've decided to stick around till sept and ask myself again how I want to go about things when it came too my job, Second im going to be lookin to into career schools over the summer as im tired of going to grossmont and not having a clue about what it is im doing when that phase is over with and my goal is too be done with with school before the end of 2010 or sooner whichever comes first. I didnt tell ya but I started dating a lady since pres day and the truth is that this being the first time having a sweetie in my life.life has changed in many aspects for me as I have started to share my heart with someone other than myself which for me is one of the hardest things to do because i have such a wall around that I dont let anyone in except for a select few haha. The thing is that i dont know how it is all going to turn out in the next few weeks. The main thing for me is try to work on things like that in my life so that they can cont to be in my life even when such person needs space as it seems to be the case right now. im still here running around just working on a few projects. My dad and I going to altanta to see family and im excited. I still havent decided when in june we are going but I shall wait a little bit for the airlines to dip which happens as the flight gets closer to date that is for sure. im still going to columbus to see mom and sisters in july so this summer will be flying away pretty quickly that is for sure and it is that im looking forward too along with other events in the horizon that they get closer I shall tell ya all what is going on other than that im out of time and frankly out of here.
bye for now,
Curtis

greenwhistle83: i dont have any feelings for her.
greenwhistle83: i just want sex iwth her..
greenwhistle83: u know wut i mean?
greenwhistle83: yea
greenwhistle83: who cares about relationships anyways
greenwhistle83: its boring
greenwhistle83: relationshps are for sissys and sap guys
greenwhistle83: cuddling/talking all that bs
greenwhistle83: a real man wants to roll over and go to bed
greenwhistle83: after sex..
greenwhistle83: u mean their gold diggers?
greenwhistle83: that's a lot of women though.
greenwhistle83: when a woman says i want a man with a stable career
greenwhistle83: lol thats wut it means.
greenwhistle83: or a man that'S " GOING somewhere"
greenwhistle83: give m ea break
greenwhistle83: i hate average women who expect better for themselves give me a berak
greenwhistle83: those kinda bimbos will be single til their 30's then might get pregnant by some co-worker
greenwhistle83: fukin bs man
greenwhistle83: i hate women who like clubbing and dancing too
greenwhistle83: i hate that stuff
greenwhistle83: im sick of it
greenwhistle83: she's like " ugh do u dance? do u wanna dance?"
greenwhistle83: wtf..
greenwhistle83: i dont like dancing and i dont wanan dance
greenwhistle83: but listen..
greenwhistle83: dude thats the thing
greenwhistle83: the women who are independent have their own problems
greenwhistle83: listen..
greenwhistle83: the women who are too independent always have g/f's
greenwhistle83: who give htem opinions
greenwhistle83: i hate that bs.
greenwhistle83: i hate women who are firends with like 100 people
greenwhistle83: and they wanna keep up with u at the same time
greenwhistle83: hate it
greenwhistle83: yea man..
greenwhistle83: thsoe women are so corny.
greenwhistle83: all of it.
greenwhistle83: cat..dog.
greenwhistle83: its high maintenence and corny
greenwhistle83: im sick of it..
greenwhistle83: i don't understand why average women...who have average things to offer ( looks, their job, skills etc,) want extraordinary men...doesn't make sense
greenwhistle83: i might as well hit on the really extremely hot women...if that's the case...get it?
greenwhistle83: i'll give u an example..
greenwhistle83: why does a woman who's like 5'3 want a guy whos 6'1? lol wtf...how can u want a tall man when u're short urself?
greenwhistle83: it's stupid..
greenwhistle83: A CHICK WHOS 5'3 NEEDS TO DATE MEN WHO ARE LIKE 5'7
greenwhistle83: when a woman tells me..she has a few guys who like her..i mean.why are u telling me? to show off? prove u're " worthy"?
greenwhistle83: " a lot of guys like me but eh...im just picky."
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This is the way that I used to be with women and I used to truly think that this was the way that all women in the world truly acted in the women. The truth is that while most of this is truth and rings bells in most males eyes out there. It is for me just piece of the overall pie that makes women up as a whole and you have to understand that if you truly think like this guy. It is truly going to be impossable to try to find the one who is want to put up with you when it comes to a life time in terms of marriage and such. I dont think like that anymore becuase in my own life I have seen it not to be the true way of doing things and such anymore. im trying to be more confient in my life and have that side of me shown out more in to the world and I have been amazed on how much it has changed my look on life and now im getting closer to truly ending the mess that my life had been over the few years and making it seem more normal than what it has been that is for sure. I am getting closer to bring in the one I want to be with right now hopefully on a full time basis and that is still a work in proguess and like as I am in school it is somethin that I will see it happen to the end no matter what the result of it being happening in the true end of things. I love that path im going into right now ans it is something that I will cont to go in no matter what cause it is going to be my way which is the right now and no longer the highway anymore. thats about it for now.
bye for now,
Curtis

when is there is something that that passes away another new life is about to begin all over again and that is what is going on the other side right now for my friends. For most people if things were so crazy to have happened to my friends as it have then you might have gotten crazy over it but they didnt let me explain about it. It started about two years ago when I was living in el cajon with my ex roomie and such. Things were going good for the both of us. I decided to invite my friend from across the street to hang with us. Back then I had a crush on her and wanted to be with her since the time that I had meeting with her but in the end because of certain factors that I couldnt control it wasnt ment which after all that happened i got a wonderful friend out of it and so that eneded that topic there. In the meantime I decided to put things in action to be in matchmaker mode for my roomie because I could see there was something there for both my friend my and my ex roomie and watching nature taking its course they surely hooked up and I was happy to see it happened because at the time it was what both people needed in both of their lives. As time went on there were things that happened to both people that changed themselves forever and finally got them both on the path that needed to be taken. There were jealious exes crazy bitches from NC and CA that were trying to get a piece of that action and it just didnt work out in their way. There was also a some other crazy people out here in san diego that started to make up lies and tried be the worse people in the world to both my friends. In the mist of it all they both gotten seperated from each other because of the false rumors that were spread all around. Finally after a time of getting away from each other there. Something just got ahold of both of them and they surely hooked up again for a short period and something happened that will forever link both together forever.  A new life was created on that one night that no one will ever forget. All that has to be done is look at their child's eyes to remember what happened on that night. Nine months after it happened she was born to the world that she is currently living something changed in both parents that was caused because of what happened that night. The thing that happened was both of the parents unknown to them at the time had grown up  and started to acted  in the right manners of how life is supposed to lived in and stop the pattern of making bad choises that had plaugue both parents in the years before leading up to the event that will foever to change them into the great parents that they both have become. Life in this experence I think has changed them for the better in my opinion and im proud to have a hand in making it happen that though all the darkness that followed them all these years something great something to both parents. I think that sometimes that life has to do these type of things to you because everyone in the world has to have someone to anchored to the ground and have reaity that life has to truly bring to your life. If some of former friends and assoicates ever learned that lession that both amanda and daniel has had to learn over the last year which is that everything that you do in life will catch with sometime in the future. Then I think the crap that happened and all of the rumors and other bs that was started wouldnt have ended happening as it did. In the end im glad to see how things worked  out for daniel and amanda because sometimes life is going to deal a good hand in a game of life and you gotta put it all in the pot so too speak and just got for it. You only have one life and you might as well live it to the fullest and be as happy as you can while your life is going on. Evertthing else will fall in place after that.
bye 4 now,
Curtis

I say this to my friend I know we havent talked in a long time but you were a friend that taught me so many things in the short time that we knew each other . You helped me to grow up from some things that I had been going on in my life and I showed what it was like to have someone to be a friend too when things would be going wropng as it seemed to be like that all the time. Tho all of the darkness that was always was around you were a true friend to me and always give me the right advice that I needed at that time in my life. I will miss the times that we would go to the bars in north county to see ya play with your band. it was one oif the most fun times in my life. You were such a loving person  and I known for a fact that you have effected the lives of many on here that is for sure. You were an awesome friend and one that I will never forget and you taught me one important thing that good things do come in small packages. Thanks to you for a great person in my life and everyone else around you I will miss you and that You have an awesome time in heaven playing in the greatest band among all of the angels there.
take care my friend,
Curtis

Ps to help with dealing with death I have something I wrote a while about it.


The Sadness of Death

Death
is a part of everyone’s life. When it happens to you, you know that,
you will be going to a better place. A better place that will make you
and your soul happier than they were while they were living on the
planet Earth. For people that were part of your life, it is the time of
their lives that will be a sad and emotionally draining time for
people. They will need to know that they will have to stop whatever is
it that they are doing in their lives and they will need to come down
from wherever they live at to go to the place where your body’s final
resting place is at. Then they need to go through the process of saying
goodbye to you for the final time while in the same time thank you for
everything that you have done for them while you were alive. This
things that you have done in their included the following: the
enriching their lives with positive memories of you and they can use
those good memories, that you helped gave to them, as a way to remember
who you were and what you did doing the living process of your life.



The other part of the whole sadness of death process is once people
have been through the process of saying goodbye to you for the final
time. The process following that event will be a very slow and long
process of accepting the fact that that you will not be part of their
life anymore. The thing is that, when you love that person, the one you
have just lost, it can and will be a hard thing to understand what has
happened and it will be a hard thing to let go because of all of the
love and memories you guys shared together and also that you know your
life will never be the same again. In addition to that, you will miss
what is it like to have that person in your life once again.


When you go that part of the process of death, you need to have
other people around you who are going through the same thing as you.
They will understand what you are going through and you can use each
other to help in the start of the mourning process that death brings
into everyone’s lives. When you suffer the same sadness as everyone
else in a group, you can help each other to counsel one another and
become a stronger unit. Soon even everyone in the group will feel
better and everyone will be able to breathe once again.

happy new years I had a good new years eve altho I think I went to sleep right after the new year I guess that is what happens when u have too much to drink around the house that is for sure. I look at the new year and I finally see a ray of light that is coming up here soon enough. Im excited to see what is going to be happening next and im cant wait to see what events are going to be unfolding in the world as 2009 unfolds and the curtain is finally unviewed from the public's eye that is for sure. As for me Im staying on to my job for at least another two months just because I love my job right now and as I have looked over the jjob market trying to find a new job right now during the wintertime isnt the right time to do it right now and so im planning on to wait until after the coldness of the winter has gone away and maybe when it decides to warm up around here than maybe I will look again to the jobs that would be out there during that period of time. As which while everyone else is not spending money im the one right now who finally has some money to do something with it and so after thinking about it for a long time i have decided to go on vacation next month to las vegas nevada next month in feb I feel like im burned out from alot of things and it would just be a little easier just to take a small break from it all then to have to go tho the troulbe of tryin to find new work for myself that is for sure. im also getting a new phone for myself as I have had last phone for over two years now and the truth is that im tired of paying for prepay and I need to get on the future when it comes to that and other things like that that is for sureon that one there. along with that im getting ready to head back to class in a few weeks and im just going to take some time off and enjoy while I have the change to do so. thats about for now.

bye 4 now,

Curtis

This is I truly feel about people in my life right now it just seems like that if you try to tell people the real truth about things that happened in their past. They dont know how to take it and they when you try to warn people about things like that I think that people take out of context and try to form another other opinion based on some of the things that are said between other people. To respond from all of that one has to ask one;s self mind if it is all there at times. To me at least from my point of view some of the people in my life just dont dont truly understand the things that are truly going on and could be under some spell just becuase not everything is there if you know what I mean and the truth is that that has to be answered is that why would I waste my time trying to help people if I knew in the back of my mind that i might be wasting my time and could be something else instead. that is the thought that comes with me all the time when I deal with certain people in my life. I guess the final decison is that instead of getting together with those people like I was going to be doing for xmas I have to take a pair of sissors and cut them out of my life for good becuase at the end of the day if the kindness that you show to people goes than you know that the people arent worth anything to ya anymore and it is time to move on with life as with most people can do I guess so that is the current plan in my life.
bye for now,

Curtis