im so confused. i believe in God. i even believe in heaven and hell. but i dont believe in the need for "salvation" or so called sin. let me explain. i think there is good and bad in the world and there are consequences for a person's good or bad actions.  i dont think we need to be "saved" to get into heaven. just because we're "unsaved" doesnt mean we're going right to hell. good karma, for lack of a differnet term, leads to good consequences. putting out bad karma leads to bad consequences. if i do good and put good into the world i will get good back i.e. heaven. in theory you dont even have to believe in a god for this to be true. I DO BELIEVE IN GOD however. just not the christian version. by that i mean i dont believe in the trinity, or that Jesus came down from heaven just to save us. Jesus may have come to earth to teach us but not for our salvation. plz keep in mind this is my opinion! im not setting out to offend ne one.

I am so frustrated with my life!!! I hate not having a job and doing nothing with myself. I'm tired of having to b wat every1 else wants. I don't want to date dave, be an apostolic, or have a bf! I just want to b me. Is that too much to ask? My granddad gave me a religious lecture in front of the whole family today. I was highly embarrassed. I hate that he's trying to force his beliefs on me. I'm also confused about some of my feelings. I feel asexual but I find certain women attractive. I want to b left the hell alone but then I want to b around some1 in the evenings. When I say that I mean I want to c my mom after she gets home from work. I like to txt and IM but I would prefer to not socialize in person for the most part. I just really want an job and to go back to school so I can make something of my life. I want my life to have meaning and purpose none of which it has now. I want to say I'm tired of b n alone but that's not really true. As far as relationships go, friends and otherwise I'm fine. I wish some1 could help me.

im the laziest person alive and i have no motivation. BUT i've decided to give all i have to my school work and show how intellegent i am. im going to study hard and make A's. i can do if i set my mind to it. i will do it! i will!

so i've decided to stop worrying about what i am. im not going to strass about faith or sexuality. i've given up on figuring myself out. im tired of trying. i will be what i will be and am what i am. i dont like religion and i dont what to have sex right now, or mayb ever. that's who i am. i dont need a label cuz there isn't one.