Relax, she is a puppy not a child!    No plans for that for a while yet!

We brought Kaylee home a week ago, and she seems to be doing well.  She is a Doberman/Labrador mix and just the sweetest little thing!

We are crate training her, and it is progressing just fine.  She will still pitch a fit sometimes when we put her in there, but on the whole she is responding well.  Housetraining her has been really easy because of the crate, so that makes me very happy.

I just wanted to share.  I posted more pics of her in a new album, so go check them out!

My cat, Secret, died a few hours ago.

I heard her mewling and she was panting and drooling and trying to breath and maybe gag at the same time.  My husband watched her while I called our vet and then the emergency vet and within those few minutes she started convulsing because she couldn't breath and she had blood sputum coming out of her mouth.  I hung up the phone and rushed the few feet to her and my husband and she was limp, suffocating.  I tried to adminster CPR but she had so much sputum in her that it was to no avail and she died right there in my hands.  It took only moments.  Foam was coming from her nose and her mouth.  We rushed to the car but even if the vet had been next door it wouldn't have helped.  As it was, the nearest emergency vet was over 15 minutes away.  I just held her limp body, wrapped in a blanked, in my arms until we got to the vet.

All we could do was get her cremated.  We wanted a necropsy, but it was 500 dollars and how could we afford that?  Why did she die?  She wasn't a cat to get into anything.  We don't have anything for the cats to get into.  She never opened cabinets, she barely even liked anything except cat food and treats.  She wouldn't even touch any human food unless it was poultry.  There was nothing around for her to get into!!!  I can't find anything!!  She wasn't a chewer.  Out of all the cats, she never fucked with ANYTHING.  There was NOTHING.  There was nothing in her throat that we could see or feel.  Her pupils were dilated so I don't know if that was because it was a chemical reaction or if it was because she had something in her lungs and her brain wasn't getting enough oxygen. 

But because we didn't have the money we will never know why my little girl, who was only about 4 pounds, the littlest most amazing cat, suddenly died.  She was 2 and a half years old.  She was my little girl, my little Secret.  I feel so guilty because I know she was upstairs getting sick while we were downstairs laughing at sitcoms and playing a board game instead of upstairs watching a movie or reading. 

All I can think is that we could have saved her but we were too fucking busy watching TV.  How can I forgive myself for that?  How can I ever ask her to forgive me for that?

Hahahaha!  Ok, I'm not actually whoring myself out.  Sorry, guys.  But I am selling a bunch of stuff to try to make money so I can actually pay bills and fix the car!  It is so bad right now that I am freakin' out.  Especially since the car just quit on top of everything else.  How can I go to a place to make money when I can't drive the car to get there?  And yes, I actually have to have a car because what I do requires me to lug promotional material all over (including a table).

And yes, I know I already posted this in a bulletin, but there are many people out there who never read bulletins, and I wanted to cover both angles.

Anyways, I have brand new, never used clothing and jewelry up on eBay right now (and I'll be adding lots more once I get more pictures of the items).  So, PLEASE, if you can and want to, go look over my stuff and see if there is anything you want to buy.

My eBay Store

I really appreciate it, everyone!!

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Whoever said money can't buy happiness was obviously never broke.

A word to the wise: If you have to get up very early in the morning, do NOT start carving your pumpkins at midnight the night before.  This will lead to you not going to bed till past 4am.  Thank you, that is all.

Ok, I am back online!  Cross your fingers that my laptop does freak out any more!

I hate our car.  HATE it with a passion.  It is a lemon and POS.  We have to pay out 700 bucks to fix the brakes and wheel casings and calipers and such.  And where the hell are we supposed to get an extra 700 bucks to fritter away on a silly thing like a car?  Sheesh.  Unfortunately my money tree died a long time ago.  This sucks.

Grrrr.......

R-U-Ready for the Queen of Classy's new show?

Something for everyone! Featuring lingerie and sleepwear for men and women of all sizes!

Adults 23 and over. Doors open at 7pm. Show begins at 8pm.

Tickets: $20 per person or $30 per couple

So, on June 30th I will be modeling in a lingerie fashion show at the Ramada Inn Denver Tech Center for K's Lingerie!  There will be guys and girls and all different sizes (there may even be a couple SuicideGirls modeling--I'm working on it!).  It's gonna be fun!  Doors open at 7pm and the show starts at 8pm.  There will be the show, several vendors and a cash bar.

Tickets are $20 per person or $30 per couple.  If you would like to come out and see me model and meet me, you can buy tickets through me.  And yes, if you bring your copy of BODacious with me in it, I will autograph it for you.  And yes, I will take a picture with you if you so desire.

So, if you are in the Denver area, I'd love to meet you!  Thanks in advance for your support!

RAMADA INN DENVER TECH CENTER
5150 S QUEBEC ST
Englewood CO 80111

Today is my 6th year wedding anniversary!!  On June 12, 2001, I married this amazing and wonderful man:

I love him so much and I still can't believe, to this day, that I was lucky enough to find my true love.  It really does it exist out there, people.  You just have to find it.

I am listening to Jason Michael Carroll's "Livin' Our Love Song" right now.  It is our song.  I am going to post the lyrics for you.  If you read them, you'll know exactly how wonderful our love is.

Baby, when I look at you
With your hair falling down and your baby blues
Standing there across the room
I get so lost in the way you move
It makes me reminisce, back to years ago
On a night like this
Teary-eyed, as you took my hand
And I told you that I'd be your man
So many thing have come, so many things have gone
One thing that's stayed the same is
Our love's still going strong

[Chorus:]
Baby just look at us, all this time and we're still in love
Something like this just doesn't exist between a
Backwoods boy and a fairytale princess
People said it would never work out
But living our dreams, we shattered all doubts
Feels good to prove 'em wrong
Livin' our love song

Darling, when you look at me
With my heart beatin' fast, and my shaky knees
It's pretty hard to believe
After all these years, I still need you this badly
You're dancing in my arms
With a spotlight moon and a sea of stars
Oh girl we've come so far
Everything I want is everything you are
Just wanna lay you down,
say I love you without a sound
I think you know what I'm talkin' about

Baby just look at us, all this time and we're still in love
Something like this just doesn't exist between a
Backwoods boy and a fairytale princess
People said it would never work out
But living dreams, we shattered all doubts
Feels good to prove 'em wrong
Livin' our love song

Baby just look at us, all this time and we're still in love
Something like this just doesn't exist between a
Backwoods boy and a fairytale princess
People said it would never work out
But living dreams, we shattered all doubts
Feels good to prove 'em wrong
Livin' our love song

Feels good to prove 'em wrong
Just living our love song

And that is exactly what John and I are doing: living our love song.

I will be going to both showings on the 23rd.  I'd love to meet some new Browncoats!

Denver Screening of Serenity on Joss Whedon's birthday for Joss' favorite charity, Equality Now!

Go to the website and purchase tickets!

CAN'T STOP THE SERENITY

June 23, 2007 at 5:00PM & 8:00 PM
Starz FilmCenter at the Tivoli
900 Auraria Parkway
Denver, CO 80204

The MileHigh Browncoats are proud to host a charity screening of Serenity to benefit Equality Now. Celebrate Mr. Whedon's birthday, June 23rd, with your fellow Browncoats and donate to his favorite charity as well.

Admission is only $10 per person, all proceeds after cost will go to Equality Now. For every donation of $1.00, you will receive a raffle ticket and be entered into our drawing for shiny prizes. Each admission also includes 1 (one) raffle ticket. You must be present to win.

Within 24 hours of purchasing your admission(s) you will receive a e-mail with your confirmation number. Please bring this with you to The Starz FilmCenter at the Tivoli the night of the screening to get in. You will also receive any donation raffle tickets at the door as well.

If you can not attend but would still like to donate to Equality Now through this site, please feel free.

Doors open at 4:00 PM and the first screening of Serenity begins promptly at 5:00 PM. The drawing will be held at 7:15pm. The second screening will begin at 8:00pm. Seats are limited so order your tickets early.

Raffle tickets will also be available at the door.

To find out if a screening will be held in your city, please visit:

Can't Stop The Serenity

So, on Friday I auditioned for the lead female vocal position for a band.  I am pretty sure I bombed it big time.

This was the first time I have ever auditioned for a band. 

Oh sure, I've auditioned for and performed musical theatre, done karaoke, sang in choir, etc.  I have not, however, done what was basically a cold sing with a new band in the basement of a house.  I was very nervous.

First off:  I only got the song list a day or two before the audition.  And yes, I admit I could have spent every hour trying to learn the songs, but hey, I do have other things in my life to do.  I committed as much time as I could to finding these weird ass songs and learning them.  So, needless to say, I didn't have the vocals down pat and I totally screwed them up.  I did well on the parts I knew, but there were a lot of "I'm sorry, I don't know this part" moments.  Grrrr.....

Second: Their music room is the basement of a house.  Which is cool.  I think it's awesome if you have space like that for practicing.  However, when said room is cluttered with furniture, bare cement walls and no sound proofing anywhere (hell, put some damn foam egg crate on the walls) it's very hard to get a good feedback on the music.

Third:  Who the hell plays songs like "Feelin' Love" in public?  Right after you play "She Bop" by Cyndi Lauper?  Or "These Boots Are Made For Walking" by--no, not the original version by Nancy Sinatra, but the horrendous, ear-scratching, vomit-inducing cover by Jessica Simpson!  Do most of you Myspacers actually know the lyrics to "Feelin' Love"?  Now, I like sexy, sultry, take-me-right-now songs.  Like "Smooth Operator" by Sade.  I do NOT feel comfortable, after doing "Game of Love" by Michelle Branch/Santana, with singing "I'd be all wet with my tits soaking through this tiny felt t-shirt."  When I asked about this I was told that no one really knows the lyrics anyway but that the song is sexy so people like it.  You can't find ONE other song that is sexy--but that doesn't contain the word "tits"?  Oh yeah, can't wait to do that one at a formal wedding, boys.

Fourth and last: On the casting call that they posted, they claimed that Modern Country was one of their main genres.  Great, I thought, since I prefer to sing power country.  Martina McBride is my idol.  I can also do Faith, Gretchen, Mindy, and so many other great artists.  So when I get the list of songs the band mainly performs, imagine my surprise when I notice that there is not ONE fucking country song on there.  And I brought this up to them after the audition when we were all outside and the guys were smoking.  Three of the members looked at me like I just said I love having sex with Martians.  The main guy said, "Well, we did a couple country songs last year or something."  Last year or something?  Are you fucking kidding me?

Anyways, I know I am ranting on and on about this.  The thing is that I actually wanted to get this job, and I am pissed at myself for screwing up.

Oh well.  Lessons learned.  And hey, ya gotta pop your cherry at everything once, right?  Hopefully next time at whatever audition will go much better.

*sigh*

One of the most beautiful and unique SuicideGirls, SG Benni, has been lost to us forever.

Goodbye, dearheart.

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

Benni, I hope that you are free and happy, where ever you may now be.  You are loved and missed.

Ok, don't have much time, but I wanted to hype this book:

It is the newest book in the Joe Grey murder mysteries.  This is my favorite series in the world, written by my favorite auther, Shirley Rousseau Murphy.  If you have ever enjoyed books by Rita Mae & Sneaky Pie Brown (the Mrs. Murphy mysteries) or Lilian Jackson Braun (the Cat Who...books) just to name a few, then you will LOVE these books.  What could be better than murder mysteries solved by 3 amazing and wonderous sentient cats?

Here is the Myspace profile:

Joe Grey, Feline P.I.

Also, you can check out the Joe Grey webpage for information on the previous books in the series.  I highly recommend at least reading the first book, Cat on the Edge, first, so you can understand how it came to be that the cats can talk.  Otherwise, read ALL the books in order, ending with Cat Pay the Devil.

These books are wonderfully written, witty, colorful, intense, funny...and they create a fantastic world that most cat lovers only dream of and yearn to experience.......well, aside from all the murders and stuff.  But the talking cats are really cool!

If you read them, let me know what you think!

Hey everyone,

I posted a few weeks ago in a bulletin that I was in the middle of moving and sorry for not replying to messages, comments, friend requests, etc.

We still haven't gotten internet connected yet, but I swear upon my honor that it will be up next week.  I have been going nutso not having internet and not being able to get online.  I miss everyone!!  I have serious cabin fever.  Plus, on Wednesday it snowed like 4 fucking feet here in ONE DAY.  Gah, I seriously hate the snow......

Anyways, I just wanted to apologize again for being so absent.  Hope you all are doing wonderful.  Happy Holidays to you all.  May whatever holiday you celebrate be great.

--Tiger