Okay, so there's a guy I really like (let's call him m円). m円 is sweet, sexy, smart and sarcastic (all the things I like). The problem is, I feel bad about entering into anything again so soon after the bitter end of my last relationship. I don't want to bring baggage with me that could damage things. I would rather just be friends with m円 then risk hurting him or myself because of my inability to move on.

That said, I don't think about dean any more, I don't lament for him, and I've stopped trying to figure out what went wrong. Put simply, I don't care anymore.

I really, really like m円 (Although we have only been on one date), I just want to minimize the risk of hurt.

I'm sick of "projects". Why do I undertake projects that I know i'll never finish?

* Have half a computer in the spare room...
* Halfway through the composition of my new EP, and stalled
* Haven't finished putting the barbecue together, 14 days after purchase
* The list goes on, but i'm bored with the writing of it

I don't think it's laziness.... It's just my exceptionally short attention span.

Can you retrain yourself to be more persistent and patient?

I'm just going to try REALLLY hard...

*Concentrates*

pfft

My laptop is overloaded with music - last count, 7413 songs.... I could listen to my music for 21.2 days without hearing a song twice. Cool, but impractical.

Thousands of these songs will never be played again, but I just can't bring myself to delete them. I keep thinking "I might need that one day".... and then seize up. OCD.

My best option right now: get a bigger hard drive. I suck.

So why is it so much harder to trust someone when you're in a relationship with them? Do you often feel that the more serious a relationship gets the more mistrustful you become?

This complex could stem from a fear of failure, a fear of everything going wrong (it may also seem inevitable that something will), but if we are constantly afraid of the worst, can we really enjoy all of the best?