Remember that one guy who made your heart skip
a beat and made it break all in the same second?
Remember how he made you stop breathing but as
you breathed out the pain of reality settled itself back in?
Remember how the thought of him made you giggle to
yourself, but when you hadn't seen him in days, it saddened you? 
Remember how you would get ready in the morning with
him in mind, and on that day, he didn't come in?
Funny how things work.
Funny how you remember how you felt at that very second.
Funny how you fall for him each time he comes back.

Things aren't exactly as complex as they seem right now. haha.
I tend to think this way. Infatuation is something that isn't foreign
to any of us. It's definitely a feeling that we love to feel, but hate
when it's brought out in the light. It's a great feeling, but once you
realize it's "infatuation," it's not as fun. haha. I think we've all felt
this way about a person at a point in our lives.

But anyway, enough of that. Please don't think I'm completely heart
broken right now. haha. But jeebers, could the weather outside be
any more depressing? It's cloudy and cold. It was really sunny yesterday.
Go figure. haha. The Bay Area, if you don't like the weather, wait a couple
minutes, and it'll change for you.

Well ok, I'm going to get back to work. This damn loose filing isn't going
to put itself back. Although, I do  wish that this shit would go into
Beauty & The Beast mode and put itself into it's proper place. haha.

Till next time kids.
Laugh at yourself.
Play in the cold.
Fall in love.
The world is yours.

There's a lot that's going to happen in the next few weeks. My dad & little broha are going to the Philippines for three weeks. My grandparents are coming from the Philippines. My mom's biopsy to see if the lump in her left breast is dangerous, is scheduled for next week. I can't even wrap my head around what's in stored. I've got my fingers crossed, and my prayers in heart&mind for the lump to be nothing. And that everyone has a safe trip.

I'm not even going to lie. I've been stressing. It's all been really hard to take in. I'm scared, but I know I've got to put on the brave front for everyone. And for the sake of my brother, I'd better not let him see me crying. I'd hate for him to worry. I try to make it seem like it's not on my mind. But to be perfectly honest, it's there every second. I'm worried and filled with guilt. I've got to keep my faith in the Lord. My faith is the only thing keeping me sane.

Everything has definitely been put into perspective.