I wonder what you think about as you look me in the eye.

There seems to be a message deep inside your mind.

I believe you are hiding something,

Something I shall not see...

I just wish I knew what you honestly think of me...

When we talk, you look so out of place.

I just don't understand it...

That calm look I Imagined...

That feeling of warmth and comfort you felt...

That seems so distant once I enter the school.

You look like you are afraid, possibly even nervous...

I cannot place my finger on it,

But I have seen these looks before...

When i talk to you at school,

for a short time it may be,

I stumble across my words,

And I start to feel uneasy.

When I get a text from you I feel releived.

It just that i really care about you...

I try to be there.

Then I text you back an I get no reply.

The last time this happened i almost cried...

Thinking about what may have happened to you.

I couldn't sleep, I couldnt think.

It all had me worried...

I figured you were mad at me.

Jordin Sparks - One Step At A Time

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time
 
You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]

Secondhand Serenade- Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

I wish people would stick up for me sometimes, I try my best to stick up for them and yet I become betrayed and lonely, Looking back, I realize the reason of me being such a loner. I was to avoid the tragedies of loosing a loved one, heartbreak and betrayal. I know nobody will read this but I am about to close the hole in my heart that has allowed so many people to enter it...

The hole that I am referring to was opened the day my mother died....I needed somebody to fill that void, only somebody I could  love and cherish could fill that void....first I tried friends and that didn't work so I resorted to a loved one, now that I have one the only thing friends can do is make my life harder!

I don't know why people care about me, I am a dark, and disturbing person run on self-punishment, self-regret, anger and sadness, people say that I am a caring and happy person.....but they don't know a MOTHER FUCKING THING ABOUT ME!

NOTE: I am only leaving that hole in my heart open for certain people....

*Fat: Yes

*Ugly/hideous: Yes

*Dumb: I think not

*Wierd: Yup

*Hott: Not at all

*Funnny: sorta

*Emotional: yup (majorly)

*Hatefully: 50% of the time

*Loner: Yup

*Loving: 50% Of the time

*Smart: Most of the time

*Loving someone: Yup

*(If yes to the last one)Are you thinking of that person at this moment in time:Yes

*Do you hug, hold/hands with that person: Hug-sometimes; holds hands-not really because I am too afraid that she will feel uncomfortable.