Little Sweden, Pinecrest, & Pie in the Sky = Awesome day!

Some pics and videos below!











Notice that about 3/4 of the way down her tube pops and the rest of the trip is Mal vs. hard packed snow hill.



Mal gets a little cocky so I had to take her out.

We need to do this again soon but with better sledding equipment.

A nice night out dancing with friends. I managed to survive despite the fact that I was up until 5:30am working the night before. Thanks 5 Hour Energy!

Hey babe, I just wanted you to know how much I am thankful for you. You are doing so much more then just loving me you are taking a huge risk. You are putting your heart on the line and trusting that I will love you in return. You are fighting against the things in your head telling you that you can not trust because of what others have done to you in the past. You are risking the most important thing you have... for me. On top of that you are willing to trade everything you know and are comfortable with for me. You are trading a comfortable home to spend the rest of your life with me. You are walking away from a lot, that shows a huge amount of trust. You are in a since, going out on a line by trusting me with your heart. I am no where near perfect which I'm sure can make this even scarier. We both have a lot behind us but we have even more ahead of us. We have our whole lives. I just want you to know that I realize these things and how much they make want to hold on to you with everything I have. I love you.

jerad

You should totally check it out!! http://www.jerandmal.com

I have a personal Myspace. I get the nicest emails from people I don't even know on my photography myspace. Sometimes in the middle of work or after a bad day I will post a little bulletin about my day and on my photography myspace I get 20-30 emails from people wanting to cheer me up who don't even know me. On my personal myspace I'm lucky if I get one. Not that I expect random acts of kindness from my friends or anything. I know I don't email everybody or comment them all day, but I do when I think about them or read a bulletin that expresses anything pertinent to life outside of myspace. Plus I know that there are some people in my friends list I never see but that is not what I am really talking about. Myspace is becoming just like text messaging. You can send someone a message and if they are not to busy or don't have anything else better to do then they will message you back. I think I'm going to set my personal myspace back to private and do some spring cleaning.

Maybe people are just getting tired of the emptiness of conversation on myspace. Maybe people are over the idea of blogging and bulletin posting their sorrows and not getting any response. I know I am. I think the only friends I want online are the friends that actually stop and think about me for a second. I know that I that for my friends when I notice they are having a hard time.

Maybe I just need someone to read me a Kernighan and Ritchie bedtime story.

I digress...

jerad

And I love it... Wedding planning is stressful. It's much easier to get hired to be the photographer... None the less it is all worth it because I am going to marry an amazing woman. April 5th can't come soon enough...

Canal Street Grille opened up today in Ripon. I am working on a website for them, http://canalstreetgrille.com (still under construction but its partially up).

The food is awesome and for opening night they did really well. I took Mallory and her parents there. It is not a chain restaurant its owned locally, which I like. If you are into wine then you need to at least go check out their cellar, SO COOL!

Anyhow, the food is priced right and the atmosphere is good family fun. I highly suggest going to check it out. Tell them the website guy sent you. Not sure if that will get you anything but its always good to let people know how you heard about the place.

jerad

Ok so I want something so much, more then I have ever wanted something in my entire life and I know this because it's 2 years in the making. So much has gone on during this time and I feel so reassured that I am doing the right thing that I have zero doubt. I have never had zero doubt about anything before, ever... I always leave room for reason (aka. doubt), but not in this. There is no room for doubt because I am consumed with what I know is real. Yes it is scary because it is so real. It is also scary because I have to hold another's hand during it all and I can't put it on myself alone like I do with everything else. It's not a me only thing it's an us together thing. The idea of us together forever does not scare me at all it's the idea of loving so much that I would let that person go if it were her choice to and I truly believed that is what she wants. I guess I am just so helpless right now that I am willing to have any part in it that I can, even if I can only look from afar. I can not see myself venturing into this thing called life alone nor with anyone else. I have never been more sure about that then now. It's 2am right now and I would rather be sleeping outside her bedroom window then in my own home. I am not afraid to let everybody else know how pathetically in love I am. It's not even pathetic, it's a dependance. How I could not function with out her. Yes I have tried to mask it away in the past as has she but the masking never hides it for long. It's time to trust that God knows what he is doing. It's time to quite being scared of God's plan and submit to it. I can not and will not mask it anymore. My love has always been there all along. It never left and now I am able to see more clearly that the masking that was used to hold us apart was only the sin we allowed to enter. I know and trust that what I feel is 2 years in the making God stitched together before time began. She is the reason I am here. The only reason. I might have said it in the past but work has nothing to do with it. It's all her.

If you are reading this please pray for us and let me know how I can be praying for you.

to another late night. Last night I could not sleep so I ended up doing the photos below and then working on a clients website. I finished AgPollen.Com, which will go live in a few days. Their old website will be up until the new site launches. I just can not sleep. To many things on my mind and the fact that it has not been dropping below 80 degrees at night does not help. This house just does not cool off enough for me to be comfortable. So I am thinking about running down to AMPM to get some energy and baning out another website... I actually get such a rush from it because its nice to nail an entire project when you were not expecting to get to it for a few more days. Last night, well this morning I went to bed at 5:30am, woke up at 8am. I cant afford to accidentally sleep in to long tomorrow because I'm subbing for someone at a BNI meeting. So if you read this blog, leave me a comment, cause I'm probably still up.

jerad