So I don't exactly like the way school has started out. Oh my gosh.
Since I feel like venting out about my classes, you can get bored by reading it... or just IM me- talking to the real me might be better...  =]

Marching Band:  Yeah, so the year has started out pretty slow, despite the fact that we started earlier... I'm a little worried, but I'm hoping for the best. Gah, I just wish that the field show ends up being amazing. PLEASE, PLEASE... I want the show to be good, mostly because it's EW&F. But of course, I'd always want things to be awesome.
Jazz Band:  For SURE, my favorite class. So many songs to play, FUN songs to play, not a whole crowd of people in the band room, awesome people in the class (there won't be any drama, for a few reasons), so YAY. It brightens up my day.
Algebra2H:  I wish I could transfer out because even if I get the right answers, I don't get credit on tests, unless my work is exactly shown step by step the exact way I was "taught" by her. Too bad I have no choice but to stay in this class because my choices in classes are limited. I only have 3-6 open. I need 6 for APHumanGeo. That leaves French 4th. And yeah.
French4:  Didn't like it at first, but it's okay now... I just hate how boring it gets... But moving on...
English2H:  Chalew scared me at first, especially since I was failing the Latin Root/Vocab. stuff, but I'm doing just as well as I always did in English. I love this class, and I love how we can eat. Yay, my favorite academic class is STILL enjoyable. (:
APHumanGeo:  Pretty much taking this because I wanted a history-type class instead of Chem. & I want the college credit... I probably won't have room next year or Senior year, so yeah. Fun, pretty fun... I don't care if Knox gets off-topic, it's part of why I'm able to listen to him. Teacher NOT being boring = a happy me that pays attention in class. Yay!

      I basically think my grades suck as of now, except for both band classes & French. But that's okay, I know my English grade is going up. HumanGeo should come up in the next few weeks. Alg2 BETTER get higher. Unless Tufenkjian keeps grading my tests like I have to be perfect. Agh, I don't have time for having perfect work, I have things to do other than math...

     School's been okay, but I'm waiting until the middle of the year... when everyone gets more comfortable with things. I hate beginnings, like starting a new game or starting a game you beat over again because it was just that much fun the first time you played it. But you've gotta start somewhere.

summer, so far, has had a lot of ups and downs- more downs than ups. but i think today was an "up" for me. well, not only me but for other people, too. it started and ended well. i had fun with hip-hop today, even though it was such a small class... at least i didn't feel intimidated, and i felt good about some things. then actually being able to go hang out with SMEECES & F4, which i didn't expect. it was fun.  :P   and i don't know... i haven't really gone through a long enough period of time without stress in a pretty long time. and i could finally just relax, thank goodness. laughing is always fun. forgetting crap that upsets me is always good. and so i'm getting my optimism back, and maybe i'll keep getting better to the point where i really find myself again. because i've felt lost for a while. but i'm glad. i'm content. and i just hope things get better from here on out. although, i do have a lot of things that can stress me out again. i have to prepare for DMA by tuesday, and since i have to go to school on tuesday, which i didn't think i had to, i think i have to work on the project we were assigned the other week. but i'll see. and i have to do freaking summer reading. i have to practice my saxophone for my performance at sheila's debut, plus get a teal dress, since i'm part of her 18 candles/roses or whatever. and uhm... i'm gonna be so busy because i'm pretty much gonna have a lot going on every week until school starts. and marching band season is coming up, which = most tuesdays, possibly wednesdays, fridays, and saturdays are off limits for any time with friends... first semester. freaking football games and competitions. but i love band, and i'm not quitting. jeeez, i'm busy. plus, basketball... eeeeck.  .___.

summer should be good, as long as i get to do most of the things i want. it would be AWESOME if i could do everything.

beach, possibly twice, next weekend.  (:   saturday w/ MEECE, sunday w/ cousins. yess, girls WEEKEND out. heck yess.

i want to have a sleepover, let's go bowling, i want to have a bonfire, we should go ice skating, maybe see a wholee lot of movies, have a picnic!, shopping for suree. etc, etc.

i like... totally hate the male species right now, so many of them are acting really immature or unreasonable. how many sincere, caring, empathetic guys out there? like 2% of the freaking population?

gosh, it's been so stressful lately. and i still need to start on summer reading... crap. oh well, only like 4 more weeks of summer school. i think? mhmm.

honestly, life pretty much sucks once in a while.

i'm still kind of sore from marching. i never knew marching band could do that to you. but hey, i've learned a lot of weird things this year.

and yesterday were both pretty good days.

i watched 'because i said so,' which has become one of my favorite movies and watched 'freedom writers' and some of 'can this be love?' then later, i'm gonna watch 'music and lyrics.'

movie night!

dude, the guy mandy moore ends up with in 'because i said so' is such a sweet, good-looking guy. why can't all guys be like him? GABRIEL MACHT. too bad he's 20 years older, so off-limits. OH and his son in the movie is so adorable. and funny. he's all "you have a 'gina!" to mandy when he sees her the first time. i'm just like O_O

oh, how i'd love to love and be loved. no, parents and friends don't count.  -.-

something needs to happen. i feel like going outside, wrapping myself up in a blanket, star-gazing, and talking to someone sweet on the phone. too bad there's really no one to talk to. sigh... plus, i'm "sick."

     so it's a saturday night, and i'm thinking that tonight, i'll have another all-nighter. i'm loving daphne loves derby in that semi-fan-girl way again. omg i love them. beautiful acoustic music. or other songs, like 'stranger, you and i.' those are cool, too. AND THE LYRICS ARE AWESOME. i really want to see them perform live. they should be the first band i see live. i've never been to a concert. take me, please? i want to see them. once they go to CA again!

     anyway, i think tonight will be filled with me eating in my room while watching shows all night and cleaning my room since i've left it way messy for the past few weeks. it's just been pretty hectic, and i haven't had the time or energy to clean. but since it's a 3-day weekend, i'll go do what i have to. plus, i might have to read about 30 pages tonight since i have to read around 70 by tuesday. so much fun.

     ribbon! might go to a picnic with steph on monday; i'm not so sure. err... hmm... 2 more weeks... i need to go do my summer shopping and all that. i'm not in the mood to go to summer school. this'll be my first year of summer school in my entire life. for real. i would've taken it last year, but they didn't take my money because the tuition classes were filled. but i got priority this year for 2 reasons. 1. i need it to stay in pre-ib. 2. i'm in band, so music people, like in band or chorus or whatever, get priority since we sacrifice a class for that. aiyah... 5 hours... all i care about for now, school-wise, is getting work done for next year's field show. and making BC and SL. and making jazz band, although we all know that's not gonna happen.

i have a plan for the end of the year.  =]

and i realized that i'm gonna be broke by the end of the summer. if i make BC, that's $425 for DMA... band camp is already like $100... basketball camp is like $75+... i still have to pay the full fair share of $350... i wanted to do TKD, but i obviously can't afford all that. and i wanna go shopping because it's the SUMMER. i might do dance for just $45 for 6 weeks... at least i payed for summer school already. holy crap, i seriously need a job that pays.

i'm going to miss the seniors. i don't wanna talk about it yet. i'll only make myself sad...

so the play-offs are right now; that means it's that time of the year. when elyse takes every basketball game that concerns the phoenix suns to a level of seriousness she doesn't get to that often for a long amount of time. and yes, i'll talk in third person if i feel like it.

one day, i want to be an NBA official since those stupid refs have been this blind. i get so pissed about a lot of things when things like this happen, i might as well make a job out of trying to fix situations? i'm sure people get as mad as me about this, even though i don't currently know of any right now. those officials have made even more mistakes than this that i remember getting pissed over, but yeah. this was like HUGE. fine, suspend diaw and stoudemire since it's the rule. but if you're gonna enforce that rule, duncan and bowen should be suspended for practically the SAME thing. they left the bench and left the area they were supposed to stick to earlier in the game. the only reason they probably won't consider this is because this was overshadowed by what happened with horry.  and obviously it would be because what horry did caused such a huge scene, especially at the most important part of a close game = the last minute. technically, only 16 seconds were left after that incident. yeah, i remember!

and now, for my personal view. what horry did was low, really freaking low. raja bell did it last year, and yes, i still think it's wrong in that case, too. but couldn't he learn from that? he's been in way more play-off games than bell; i'm sure of it. he knows how it gets when things get frustrating and yet he can't control that anger after all the times he's gone through games like that? sorry if you can't do anything to help your fucking team win. sorry you have to sink SO low by doing the one sure thing you could to help your team:  sacrificing yourself for 2 games to try to get some Suns people suspended. and you did it, you got one of the best players suspended. and his usual replacement on the court, too. that just means barbosa, nash, thomas, and marion have to step it up. as well as whoever replaces stoudemire and diaw. and if the spurs win that game... i'll be REAL pissed. which is possible because it's not like they lost someone who made a hugeee difference. if they lose duncan, that's different. which they should because he broke the rule, too. sigh. i used to like horry. but i just lost respect for him. i lost respect for bell last year, too. but it's worse in horry's case. he should know better, a lot better.

     let's get one thing straight. i'm going to get mean because it's going to get, way, way personal. i'm going to get emotional. and i'm probably going to end up bitching at whoever tries to go go picking a fight [NOT physical] with me about this like last year. it's like an annual thing. every year during the play-offs, i get more and more irriated. [i'll probably be really harsh by the end of the post]

     for now, i'm okay because i haven't had much conversation about this with anyone. plus, there wasn't as much intensity in Game 1 today. so i'm calm. the play-offs just started yesterday, but i already have so much to say about things, especially after what i heard today. mike d'antoni had a book out around october? with rather mean things to say about the lakers. i know i love the suns and therefore, it would make sense for me to "hate" the lakers, but i'm not that kind of person. i don't just go hating other teams because they're my team's enemies. and for that same sort of reason, i don't just favor a team because it's the "home" team. you may just so happen to favor the team that is the home team, that's fine if you really do genuinely like them. but i'm not going to be fake. i love the way the suns play, the way they communicate on the court, the way the players are. and if you're going to hate me for liking a team for those reason, fine.

    i don't want a freaking repeat of last year where that random guy added me on myspace and ended up saying how much better the lakers were. yeah, see, if you're going to do that, you should at least have reasons to back up what you have to say. otherwise, don't bother, because all you are is being annoying and loud.

here's my more biased side saying... the suns are going to win the first round.
actually, it's not that biased. i'd think so even if i liked another team.  =]

     yeah, i have a lot to say, but i'll say it when i feel like. i take my opinions too seriously sometimes. i'm a freaking huge fan. and i know what i'm talking about. don't underestimate how personal i'd take this. it's the play-offs, what can i say? it's intense.  (: