The other day I was rummaging though my parents books, and found a Christian book called 'The glorious journey' by Charles Stanley. While flipping though to see what words of insight and motivation it offered to the Christian follower, I found a section all to it's own titled 'New Age Movement'.
Now, knowing that i should probably just put away the book and keep in mind that it would sow words of ignorance, I read it's section anyway.
I was totally disgusted by what I read.
Not, only it just try to set my religion on fire, but it added gasoline and oil to just make it burn that much harder.
In the first paragraph, it says "Whatever works for the particular person involved is usually the bottom line"
By saying this, the author is trying to imply that our system of religon and ethics has no basis of repercussion for deeds and actions. Paganism and Wicca teaches an umbrella of several different notions that would enable one to lead a healthy life. Karma, the law of three, "What you send out will come back three fold" and the notion of "what comes around goes around" and the most prominent basis, spiritual advancement are all tools for keeping one grounded and ethically sound. We as humans can never really decide what is truly sin in God's or the Goddesses eyes. The 10 commandments say strictly 'Thou shall not kill' but humans butcher animals everyday in grotesques horror movie ways in the name of fast food chains. We forgive the woman who guts her rapist.

Paganism and Wicca teaches, "Your life might be hard, you will face challenges, how you deal with these will determine if this lifetime you chose was the best possible way you could have handled it, and if this lifetime you suffered on earth was worth your time away from God and the Goddess. Was it? Or did you fail? Do you need to repeat these same situations, life styles and habits again until you can conquer?"

Another Disturbing sentence I encountered in this book was "To those who hold firmly to the New Age beliefs, God is a force rather than a personal being." This really blew me away. So who is this man, this physic, to tell me how I feel my relationship with deity?

In Paganism and Wicca, God and the Goddess are very personal beings, we call them, bow to them, send offerings, speak, chant, dance in their names, invoke their presence into our sacred space of worship.
I spent 12 years as a Christian, and never truly felt the presence of deity, the jubilation of being loved by God and the Goddess until I was a pagan.

While the main point and constant reminder the author points out is this quote "The New Age thinker quickly points out the belief in a system that allows a person to go though this life without too much worry because of getting another chance!"

Well, lets not fret then, Hindu and Buddhists are just as ignorant as us New Agers, for believing in multiple lives. Just dispel the tireless devotion these religions have shown no matter the time, day, hour or moment. Reincarnation has many different aspects under its religions who profess it. In the Wiccan, Pagan belief, we adhere to a challenging life we overcome by meeting the obstacles while spiritually advancing our souls, furthering our personal relationship with God and the Goddess. When our life ends we enter the great perfection that is afterlife, in the Pagan , Wiccan belief system, although we are diverse in this, many believe this is a place where all souls reside, this is the true life. While now, the "living" are the walking dead. In the afterlife, we chose our appearance, our souls "gender" and whom we chose to communicate with rather it be souls from this lifetime or times before. We are in "heaven" here. But here we are not further advancing our souls development, we cannot "learn" because there are no challenges. To take on a lifetime on earth would be the greatest challenge, and the greatest accomplishment.

Take this into consideration;

Christians believe abortion is a sin because the soul is already residing in the fetus.

Consider, how many thousands of abortions are done every single day.

Consider then, how many souls have just wasted their "life" and have none.

Then, if you may say "this world is cruel, they are better off in heaven".

Consider, then what was the point in the souls creation, if not to have gained personal spiritual advancement.
Then you might say they need a second chance, if that is so, God and the Goddess are ultimate in their knowledge and supreme perfect circle of the cosmos. They always make a "fair". If that is so, and a daughter or son who died when they were one, twelve or even twenty, can have another ability to further their spiritual advancement on earth, where is the "sin" and ignorance in this belief? Would it not seem like God has made a mistake or "glitch in the system" if there was none?

For anyone that has been mildly curious as to my whereabouts, I figured I would explain what has been going on...
Once In every great while there are those who are not very good at makeing major choises at a sudden moment, This is where the power of the great Goddess comes into play, and she allows a message to be sent as what should be done.
Sometime it comes in a very subtle way, quitly as a flower falling before your feet, or sometimes it comes rolling out like thunder about to strike you in the ass!
For me, she let me know loud and clear. Those who worship her know, one thing about the Goddess is, 'She always provides, when most in need' and she will let you know. This is what she did for me.
While in Georgia i went down many wrong side paths, dabbleing off into a woods with emptyness, carrying a burden of a life that made me feel emotionless and careless. Negitivity resides in a place for a long while, once you enter one such place, you could carry it's memories , thoughts, and emotions around you for weeks or months. This is what danceing made me feel- nothing.
Here are a few quotes that explain how I felt during this time:

"It's so curious:  one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief.  But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses."

"Sorrow makes us all children again - destroys all differences of intellect.  The wisest know nothing."

"Grief is a species of idleness"

Spiritual advancement is the reason of life.
Agree or Disagree. - Disagree and tell me what it is...?
To raise children? To complete a rewarding career? To Love? I think my statement can not be contended.
Therefore, if one is not working toward this, they only live half a life. The physcial half- that rots and dies.
The soul is idle and unfulfilled.
I was liveing half a life, I was the walking dead. In my stagnant moment, my soul was crying in its sleep.
I decided then I could not live this life, the only way to un-do the damage, to live again, was to move somewhere else, move to the source of where the Goddess want's to take me.
And she decided that place was my home town in Texas.
Thankfully to her, and Luis' father we will have someplace to start fresh. So we are completeing the cycle.
Before Yule/Christmas season we will have left Georgia entirely and moved to Humble, TX.
That stated, most likely we will not ever go back to reside in Georgia. There were many chances in Georgia to make money, to make a name for yourself, but in that place i was a shell.
This week I have been more excited about our new found life than any, I remember the first day I took my cross off and put on a pentacle. I was just born, my soul woke up. I again, am a 'born again' Pagan/Goddess worshipper. Not only will I speak her name-
But I will Live it.

"Little dreams in my brain,
where do you go when I'm away
Follow me when I'm awake,
Dont be scared, enlighten me
during the day.
Frustration and toxin dance around me,
Infested like roaches and abound here.
Turn away queens of fools,
you are never anything special or new.
Thinking grow and ripe of know,
simply lost without hope.
Dont invade my little home
let your words drift away like your memories
of the night.
I will stay burning and bright.
Able to sheild my loves from temtation
Remembering every beautiful sensation.
Little me always here,
holding my hope for you in my hands near.
The midnight sky will carry my soul abound,
Say your explainations and let the wind disolve
them away.
These my words is what i say. "

(please none of my christian friends get offended by this, i just think its funny because in most cases its true, and growing up around a totally christian community i really know what they are talking about here lol)

TOP 10 SIGNS YOU'RE A CHRISTIAN

10- You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of your god.

9- You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from lesser life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt

8- You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Trinity god

7- Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" -- including women, children, and trees!

6- You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.

5- You are willing to spend your life looking for little loop-holes in the scientifically established age of the Earth (4.55 billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by pre-historic tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that the Earth is a couple of generations old.

4- You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefs -- though excluding those in all rival sects -- will spend Eternity in an infinite Hell of Suffering. And yet you consider your religion the most "tolerant" and "loving".

3- While modern science, history, geology, biology, and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in "tongues" may be all the evidence you need to prove Christianity.

2- You define 0.01% as a "high success rate" when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think that the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of God.

1- You actually know a lot less than many Atheists do about the Bible, Christianity, and church history -- but still call yourself a Christian

To my sister Christina!


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Happy Seventeenth!