THEY SEND ME AN EMAIL ADVERTISING A PRICE FOR A FLIGHT. YOU GO TO THEIR WEBSITE TO BOOK IT AND THEIR SITE IS DOWN FOR MAINTANANCE THEN AGAIN YOU ONLY HAVE 8 HRS TO BOOK YOU SPECIALS. THEN YOU CALL AND THEY PLACE YOU ON HOLD FOR EXCACTLY 57 MINUTES AND THEY TELL YOU THAT SORRY THAT ITS NOT AVAILABLE . 10 MINUTES LATER I GET ANOTHER EMAIL ADVERTISING THE SAME PRICE . THEIR CUSTOMER SERVICE IS HORRIBLE, THEY TELL YOU A PRICE AND THEN TRIPPLE IT , THEY CHARGE YOU FOR WATER , FOR SODA , EVEN IF YOU GET A SEAT UPGRADE. YOU HAVE TO PAY TO TAKE ANY LUGGAGE WHATSOVER 20 DOLLARS PER LUGGAGE, EVEN YOUR CARRY ON. THEIR PLANES ARE DISGUSTING, THEIR CALL CENTERS ARE IN INDIA AND THESE PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW ENGLISH. THEY ARE THE BIGGEST PEICE OF SHIT EVER .. DO NOT FLY SPIRIT AIR THEY SUCK HAIRY BALLS.. TO READ MORE REVIEWS ABOUT THEM SIMPLY GO HERE.. MY3CENTS.COM AND TYPE IN SPIRIT AIR COMPLAINTS.

SO YEA THERE GOES MY FUCKING TRIP TO NY

so yea i know i havent written on this in a while.. but i was wondering, why everything in my life is going so slow... or maybe my brain functions to fast .. either or sometimes i wonder why things happen or sometimes i just worry too much when maybe i shouldnt worry at all. Im a bit confused on what i feel , so many things going on thru my mind. I have been waiting for my husband to take the stupid test and go to the navy but apparently hes taking forever, so i was thinking maybe i shouldve stayed in school and gotten more credits instead of sitting here not doing shit. Something else that ive been thinking about is how fake people tend to be.. so a few weeks or so or maybe a month , there was this incident at my house , someone whom i thought was my friend was badmouthing someone else, and a few minutes later theyre hugging and saying that they love each other, again the person leaves and there goes the bad mouthing.. i decided to keep this anonymous which i could care less if everyone knew whom im reffering to. But yea thats the reason i no longer speak to them. The hypocracy disgusts me seriously . If you dislike that person let them know because you cant cover the smell of shit with perfume. That actually made me wonder how many friends do i have? lol i can count that with half of my hand or maybe even  with one finger. So if i havent talked to you lately and you are not involved with my life any longer. Then there must be a reason for it ;]. So yea fuck everyone and fuck their bull shit im simply doing me . Which is who ive been doing since day one. As for everyone else god bless your miserable little soul and instead of hopelessly sleeping around for attention i hope you do something with your life .. 

so right now i am sitting in bank of america .. cuz i decided to wait till the next gas station to put gas.. i was on 57 ave and my car turned off on me .. so my cellphone is dead and all i have is my laptop.. which i might add thank god i have otherwise id be stuck here oo yea nad to the creators of wifi i love u.. so i connected to the network of a car dealer and i imed my cousin to call my mom which is the way that i got in contact with her... but the atm at the bank is broken and so is the atm at the gas station.. now i find myself sitting here waiting for my mom to arrive.. and every one is looking at me like im crazy cuz im stealing the signal of the internet.. the cops even came and asked me if im just here for the signal but i had to explain my situation..

so yea i came to the conclusion that every1 keeps tryna to change me trying to control me and telling me to calm down... Im not a calm person ... i get easily bored so im always planning what im gonna do next .. im never satisfied i always want more .. i like tattoos i like piercings .. i like going out .. i like weapons .. i like guns i like paintball .. i like the outdoors.. i like to be happy .. and guess what by trying to change me not only are u not making me try to be someone else .. but your keeping me from living .. this is the way i live i love adrenaline ... i want everything.. so if you dont like it deal with it ... BECAUSE IM ME .. and im NEVER gonna change... thnx thought id clear that out

ok .. well to start this off Happy New Year everyone.. last night i didnt party or go out because i was working .. and when i got home i was too pensive .. i didnt see my family or spend it with anyone.. but yea..

i was thinking about my goals for this yr..

i know that the past yr i havent really done anything but partied... but this yr im up for a change ..

im determined to go back to school and do everything for me now

im going back to the gym..

i wanna get a good career in doing something that i love..

a relationship is the last thing on my list.. for a change this year im coming first .. and im doing everything for myself

The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.

The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried
your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.

Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going.

The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend,
one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you.


We deserve something, and this is our tribute.
Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while.

We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again.

We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.


Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so
desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early.

We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.


We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today.

The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if".

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.

This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."

The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a crap about them.

Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

Here's for us girls who finally realized that we
deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it
took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think
of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

This is for those girls, who fell back in love with their ex, only to
get hurt all over again.

sunday - phoenix arizona

monday - long beach california

tuesday - laguna beach california

wednesday-los angeles california

thursday -  NYC

saturday - ft lauderdale florida

sunday - Naples Florida

i rebelled against the feelings

i isolated myself

i picked up all the peices

imended them back

i tried to fill in the cracks

andfully repair my heart

but then i saw you again

and once again it fell apart

once again here i am

broken my hearts bruised

my mind confused

and all thats left in my heart

is the hurt and pain as it slowly difuse

its like im abusing my self

because even tho it hurts

the only thoughts running thru my head

are me and you

although the love is dead

im not on myspace as a dating site .. im actually using it to keep in contact with old friends and to get to know new ones .. first off i dont care what car u drive .. how much money is in your bank account .. how famous your long lost cousin 50 cent is .. Im also on myspace for networking .. im a make up artist and cosmetologist .. so this is a good way for me to know whats going on.. im not on here to hook up with anyone ; ALSO id like to make it clear.. Im not looking for a boyfriend , fuck friend , scam , ect.. ect.. nor do i want one.. If i do meet someone that i like .. its not just to have casual sex and never talk 2 them again lol .. No things dont work like that... If i do get into anything it has to be a relationship and i will have to make sure the guy plays no games .. so plz guys dont message me asking if i suck dick or if i want to have sex dont message me asking me for nudes or telling me how good youll fuck me .. simply message me saying hi and becoming my friend dont try anything else cuz its deff not happening kk lates ;]