Baptise me in your fires

So far away still feel your heat

Your perfection always my desire 

Want you next to me

Love is blind

But you could always make it see

Never needed anyone before

But I need you to give it meaning

Hope my whispers still find your ears

Hope my words still touch your heart

Hope you feel my hands over you at night

Hope you remember that it felt so right

Always held me right

Always made love right

You always got me there

The place where falling in love felt right

(Need this with you)

J.Hart 11/20/09

Blood still flows 

No end in sight

Chambers close

With your eyes

Nothing fills this hole

Where a heart used to reside

Gave it all to you

Every piece of me

Science has no answers

For how one can go this long

Heartless

Still with you

Even if you don't see it

Always feel you

Even if you can't

Always need you

Even if you don't

(Only take pictures in hopes that you look)

Forever is what I meant

Every fucking syllable spoken with intent

Every breath spent to reach you

Every movement meant to touch you

J.Hart 11/18/09

What did I know of anything

Before I saw your beautiful face

What did I do

Before loving you

How did my heart beat

Before knowing it had to beat for you

Used to have premonitions of a dark haired angel

The warning was not to touch her

Didn't listen

Now haunted forever

(It was worth it)

J.Hart 11/10/09

*New material for Synical*

Hi. Welcome to the world. I'm sorry I brought you here so unprepared. I didn't plan it this way, but you're here so it doesn't matter now. If there's one thing you take from this, just know that I am always here for you. I love you so much even though I don't know you. I'm new to this, but I promise to give my best. I promise to never quit. I promise to never let harm fall upon you on my watch. I'll try my best to shield you from the darkness of this world while letting you enjoy the lighter parts of it. I promise to make you smile every chance I get. I promise to show you warmth every chance I get. I promise to spend every second I have to prepare you for what's out there. I promise that no matter where you are, I'm right there in your heart. I am your father, and I will always be your father. There will be times where you're angry at me, maybe even times where you hate me. But know that I love you unconditionally. I can't promise I'll know what to do at all times, but I'll be there regardless. If ever you should fall, don't ever hesitate to call for me. I'm sure you won't want to tell me everything, but know that I'm here for whatever you want to tell me. Don't ever be embarassed, as I've seen it and done it all. Remember, I love you,unconditionally. As you get older you will probably realize how crazy I am. Don't worry, it won't have any impact on my dedication to you. You are a part of me, I imagine the best parts. I know none of this makes any sense, but I just had to tell you how much I love you. And if you're ever not sure, you can always come back to this. This promise. The promise to give you my best, my all. I love you Lilianna Susanne Lyssa Hart.  

-Joshua (Daddy)

11/07/09 5 am

Memories come to say

You will never forget her name

I can look at your hands

And feel them in mine

Can sit across from you

Yet feel you against my chest

Going to bed now

But I go to sleep imagining you in my arms

Feel you breathing with my arms clasped around your chest

Hear your voice whispering "goodnight"

I miss you so much

The wind need not whisper such things

I already know I will never forget your name

J.Hart  11/07/09 4:45am

Drag the waters of the soul

Hoping for remnants of what was before

Hoping the pieces will come together

To once again be whole

Tattered nets catch nothing

Slip through the cracks

Insurrection against existence

Defecting to darkness

Will you be my witness?

Worthless words are worthless

Value placed upon nothing

Words are not toys

Sharp as knives 

Known to take lives

Used with precision

To bring tears to eyes

Manifestation of immolation

Oh how I burn

How dare you speak of destiny

As if free will was non-existent

No one is innocent

We all float down here

No where to turn

Oh how I burn

J.Hart 11/07/09 4am

*New material for Synical*

Walk into a room no need to size it up

We already own it your girl already knows it 

Panties dripping wet from the sight of  real man

Talking about all the girls you been with

While we sit in silent observation

No need for machismo cuz she knows whats next

Don't start fights 

We finish em

Don't talk shit

We deliver

Don't talk numbers 

We just make sure every woman remembers

That we were there (And it's never been the same since)

Ya'll talk quantity

While we deal in quality

She'll forget you by tomorrow

While she remembers how I made her feel forever

Treating women like a commodity

Fake ass pimps don't know shit about reality

She'll fuck you tonight

But she'll be wanting to scream my name the entire time

Alpha and Omega

Make sure she remembers this forever

Got a lot to learn while you fill your black book

While I take your girl with a look

You know

She knows

And I know

That what I say goes

Keep talking bout how many you been with

While the real alpha's know

All that matters is she rememers my name

Years from now

J.Hart  11/07/09 3AM