I'm thinking about going on a super road trip. To see the only person I've ever felt strongly enough about to drive very far to see. Christen. That girl, means more to me than she knows I believe. She's gotten me through quite a few things, even without being with me at that time. I don't know really. It's something else though. I've never met a better person I don't think. No, I'm positive. I can't really even begin to describe what I'm trying to say. People talk about soul mates and such, and that's what I think of. And it's pretty neat. I already know her. And she's my best friend. I consider myself very lucky to be able to say such a thing. I figured this would be a lot longer. There's a lot more that I could say. But, there's no need. Hah. I love you christen, i really do. I'm not sure really what I'd do if you weren't a part of my life. Not in a creepy stalker way, but you know what I mean, you usually do. <3 you loser.

Sorry everybody, it ended up being kind of a dedication blog. Except for the first part.

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"It's gonna have two ice-makers in both the 'frigerators; a silent, but violent generator to run the sub-woofers and the disco ball and the escalator up to the dance hall on the second floor with a giant skylight; driving range and jacuzzi just right for skinny dippin right after the show, at 80 miles an hour it's worth all the dough."

Update from yesterday morning guys. I didn't mean to sound depressing in the blog yesterday. After much Keller, and revision of the thought process and mind frame that i had, I believe I may have misworded a few things. Yes, girls are crazy, and hurtful, well, some. But I'm in no way depressed or upset by any of this. More-so hurt and quite frankly shocked by all of it really. This has happened quite a few times, only not so suddenly. This was instant. It does suck, and I do thank you guys for worrying about me, but I'm fine. I promise.

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I can't win, i had half a blog written and it deleted it on me. Downer. Anyway, this is just an update on my life. Sick as of yesterday. Spent the night throwing up and sleeping in a bath tub. Anyway, girls suck, pretty much. I don't think there are any out there that don't live on drama, lies, and just the thought of making the male race miserable.Ok, ok, that may have been a little drastic. but really, i haven't done anything to you guys. So please stop shafting me, k? I mean it's not hard to just be honest. Bought Pineapple Express. Thought I may have found a decent girl. I was mistaken. Biggest waste of time I've ever encountered. Money and gas too. Stupid. I should have a sensor that will just go ahead and tell me where the ones with a heart are. But I think I'm gonna go hang out in my vehicle and watch the sun come up. Too bad it'll be all by muhself.. Oh well, i'll survive. I am also gonna restring my guitar today. I haven't played in a while, it's time. So yeah, later guys.


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My god...I haven't done this in some time. I'm not sure what all I've been through since I last felt like doing this. But damn, I've had a few adventures since the last time we spoke. We'll start with me going to see Keller Williams in Asheville. It was amazing. And cold. But mostly amazing. Let's see, me and jeremy went down there because we saw it on the interweb the night before. We'd have missed it. And it was free. So there was absolutely no way in hell I'd be stupid enough to not go. Yeah, I had to work the next day. It was definitely worth it. That was I think about 2 or 3 weeks ago maybe? Wasn't too long ago. Next in the series of events that have befallen me, I got arrested the week of STS9. If it wasn't for a pretty awesome girl named Danielle then I wouldn't have been able to make it to the show. So, thank you again Danielle, not that you read my blogs. You stalker. All of you. Stalkers. Anyway, lets see, this past weekend was the STS9 show actually. I've been trying to upload pictures onto the space. But this god damned BlackBerry is quite complicated and the software weirded out my computer. We're wooden shoes...all of out lives. Um, but soundtribe was fucking amazing. It's the best single show I've ever been to. I loved the light show. Knoxville is a pretty cool city. Hard as shit to get out of for someone who'd never driven there before and has ndecent directions. But pretty neat nonetheless. I've been hanging out with savanah a lot this past week and a half to two. I like it. I believe I may have missed that girl a little bit. Good times. Kings cup. True Blood. So, with all the shows and reuniting I'm pretty sure that the past couple months of my life have pretty much kicked ass. And it's a good thing. I needed it. Stress is shitty. But I'm awesome now. Nothing really seems to be revealing itself as a damper so far. Well, except for court. But what can ya do? I voted for Obama. Should've voted for Nader, but god damnit, I souldn't let Sarah Palin become Vice President. I think she has a couple things she needs to work out before she should be let anywhere near a high position of government. I felt it was my civic duty as an american citizen to do everything in my power to make sure she was not elected. SUCCESS! Fuck right. Not saying obama is any better that Mccain but I mean, Palin was a decider. Stupid. Anyway, let's see...I'm almost positive that we're pretty much up to date. Now if you'll excuse me I believe I need to use my facilities. Good day to you all and thank you for your time.

I've had a good past couple days. I discovered a little bit of new music, which is always nice. Actually got to talk to christen, I'm pretty sure I miss her a lot. And work wasn't miserable due to the new music. Anyone who has not listened to Ugly Casanova should do so immediately. I don't understand the decision making of people sometimes. I guess I'm glad that I have decent important decision making skills. I haven't fucked up too bad yet anyway. I do wish there was more to do around here though. More to see, experience, etc. That's probably why I've been giving the Air Force a little bit more thought lately. I mean, maybe if I had a job that payed okay, but I don't. I'd also like to get into college this spring. I really need to e-mail the financial aid lady at highlands sometime in the near future. I've also run out of things to look up on these here internets. I lied. I'm nowhere near running out of things. Now that I think about it, that may be physically impossible. Anyway, all things considered, I'm not doing too bad I don't guess. It really is all about the way you take things. I think that's about it. See, that wasn't so bad now was it?

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Thus far, at my current place of employment, it's been shitty. I can't stand seeing most of thepeople that work there. Some of them are okay I guess, but most are extremely, severely depressing and I don't see how they go through life being such douche bags, or better yet how they have friends. We have a lot of new people starting, most of them don't care to learn how to do things, and above all are there specifically, I think, to make my work life hell. I ran out of gas as I was leaving work today. All I wanted was to come home and sleep, But no, my car had to die at the red light leaving the parking lot. Of course, why would taking a nap be that easy. I had to sit there and tell people to go around me until my mother arrived and saved me with a gas can. I'm not sure how all these things happen to me, it can't be bad karma, I don't think. I haven't done anything deserving of such awfulness. I've been think a lot this weekend too. About why I can't seem to find at least one girl that's attracted to me. I think I've mentioned this once or twice in other blogs. I actually tried once, and of course, bam, disappointment. It's okay though. I guess, but I could've sworn it at least be a little better than what it was. But what can ya do I guess... I've been listening to a lot of the new Kings of Leon. It's amazing. The lyrics are magnificent. Cold Desert is magical. Definitely the favorite off the whole album. It's made me think about a lot of the relationships that I've been in, the two or three actual ones. I wonder how I got there, and ended up letting things get so bad, and how I barely talk to any of them anymore. I don't think it's necessarily because things ended badly, I think it's just that I don't know what to say to them. It's been so long since I've really made any real interactions with a girl that it's almost awkward every time I'm around an attractive one, or one that I think I may have a possible chance with. Maybe I'm too picky. I have standards. I really do. I can't just sleep wth a random person, and damnit that's not a bad thing. I don't really know what to do anymore. I'd just like a girl to hold my hand or something, ya know? It'd be nice. It's not like I'm just looking for a girl that I can have sex with and then never talk to again. I think that shit's kinda fucked up. I don't know how people live with themselves. I think i've been drinking too much as of late as well. I have nothnig else to really occupy my time, as horrible as that is to say. Nobody ever wants to really do anything but drink. It's been getting old kinda. I cut all my hair off too, maybe that'll help. But if that's all it was then that's stupid. That's not even what matters. I'm awesome. And that's all I need. Or it should be anyway. I'd really like that one chance that modest mouse is always talkin about. I don't think I'd screw it up. I think in the past year or so I've learned more about myself than I'd really have liked to find out. It's weird, sometimes too much free time isn't good.I'm still processing a lot of it, nothing bad so far though, so that's cool I guess. Haha, if anyone makes it to the end of this then my friend, give yourself a pat on the back and some oreos.

"It takes a long time but God dies too, but not before he'll stick it to you. I don't know but I've been told, you'll never die and you'll never grow old."

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This is disappointing. I think I've made it a habit to write in this thing. I may as well give up, it's going to happen either way. I'm not sure I quite fully understand why. Another thing I'm not sure of is whether or not I'm okay with that fact. Anyway, I went to rhythm and roots tonight, it was fun, I guess. I saw someone I used to work with. She's alright I guess...? I actually may miss high school a little. I miss seeing people everyday, having people to actually talk to about things. I don't really have that anymore. I've lost touch with a lot  of my friends and it sucks.
 I think I may possibly be starting to get lonely. Only took like...a year and a half. Here lately,  I've found myself in numerous situations that I wouldn't normally even be anywhere near, and it makes me wonder what the hell i'm doing wrong. I'm almost positive I'm not unattractive. At least that's what I think. I need to leave this town for a couple weeks. Girl are blah. I'm pretty sure I've narrowed it down to the fact that I'm unable to speak to girls in pretty much any manner. I get nervous and don't know what to say. I'm the single most horrible person at starting any type of conversation with the opposite sex in any form whatsoever. I hate it. Wtf is going on lately. Maybe it's just stress. Haha, how long am I gonna pretend that's actually plausible? Well, it isn't. Work does suck, the people there are almost retarded. Sometimes I'll overhear their conversations and wonder to myself how in the hell they ever even got considered for a possible job interview, let alone get hired. Oh well, I guess I'll have to tough it out. It's money, and I need it. I hate not having any, that's another problem. Adding ever-so-sweet irritation to my life is the ever lasting feeling of having absolutely no money at all. That's a godawful feeling to have all the time. I wonder if any of this will ever work itself out. Probably not, but I can always hope right? I feel sick, I'm going to sleep. Goodbye.
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Lets see...Last time I posted anything I explained to you that I had court. Well, I'm happy to announce that I now have a lawyer and am hopefully going to have this whole thing sorted and thrown out. I don't wanna be on probation. Then I don't believe I'll be able to go to arizona. And I really wanna go. I miss Christen. I give up on getting pissed at work. Nobody likes a job. So, I just go in everyday knowing that I'll be leaving soon enough. I'm pretty sure I'm not really friends with anyone that works there, besides jeremy. It's not worth it, lol. All of them are wayyy too awkward. I wonder if anyone reads these damn blogs. probably not, but that's cool too. I don't think I'll worry about it anymore. I wish there was more to do here, or more people to do things with that didn't suck. Not enough of those people...that I'm aware of. So...if you're reading this, going "Hey! I totally don't suck." then send me something, lol. We may possibly do something. And I've just discovered that I can now tell you what I'm listening to whenever the song changes, that's kinda neat. I know you probably don't care, but I thought it was neat. Anyway, I think I'm done with this one.

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