i will float above
i will carry my bags of smiles
i will fade till my light is out
i will scratch the surface of what they call "earth"
i will watch the sun from rise till fall
i will laugh at the ones that fail
i will hunger for what i envy
i will walk on two but be dragged the rest of the way
i will notice the stain that reeks of sweetness
i will wish upon a star that never exist
i will walk on water tainted with red
i will burn to ashes when my wings spread wide
i will collect whats left of the things forgotten
i will stutter the first syllable of your name
i will hug the person with no holy hands
i will cry myself to coma
i will rest upon a shoulder that now lays cold
i will close my eyes till miracles are reborn
i will sleep when the beauty awakes
i will end when the finale takes its last bow
i . i . i . i . i .....................

[2009-2010]

+Fashion Line+
 -Macabre Industrial Grunge
 -1st Fashion show
 -Graphic tees & tanks
 -Hoodies, Jackets, womens wear
 -pants?
 -Jewerly
 -scarfs, beanies
 -hats?
 -bags
 -website?

+Macabre Art+
 -Photo manipulations
 -Graphics
 -Fetish, Goth, Futuristic, Dark
 -new camera
 -new models

+Life+
 -Studio
 -Classes
 -Projects
 -2nd Job

{10.09.10 DEADLINE}

i walk the path that no one knows
where all is dead
no wind blows
hallowed and dark
all just a disturbing lark
brighten with fallen memories
my soul has sinned
we bow, now all on bended knees
crippled corpse, pus filled joints
i crawl this path alone
lead my way, eyes covered with coins
my privilege to weep
to hide from the world
let me die as the blood just seeps
for the end is near
so the beginning shall start
this new life im about to take part
take whole and drown them in fury
let them breathe
all lies with scurvy

Beneath it all i lay with darkness
and let it all evaporate before my eyes
Beneath it all i lay with faith
false and addiction of pain
Beneath it all i lay with her
lips stained red of glory
Beneath it all i lay with him
skin pale and cold decayed love
Beneath it all i lay with it all
everything that bleeds renunciation of life
Beneath it all i lay with notthing
but the epiphany that the faded will ascend.

 

You said he loves you
Promises been made
Yet you lie alone every night
Shed no tears and wake up from this nightmare
Take my hand and let us go
Far far up up to the stars
Gasp of air before we kiss
and fall ever so gently
Forever and ever
Ill never let your body shiver
He lied You cried Lets all decide
That the worlds not perfect
In fact its all an illusion
My love for you is always so true
Just remember that...
Just Remember That.
 

"Living life in the flashes of the strobe light"
Dropping into an Epileptic dream
The thought of hope
Darkness with glitches of light
With the rise of adrenalin
Comes the slowness of time

I slit my wrist
Hear me sigh
I just did

I hope i die

Love me now

Love me forever

In secrecy and never sober

Hold me here

For no one should stare

We hide our love

For no one to share

Ill always love you

Even so

Ill give you all

And all that i could afford

Run me dry

My love for you will never die

You know i have feelings for you

Ill always do, its always true

We can't be together thats what you think

Please don't let my love ever sink

To very bottom of no return

Ill always love you thats what you'll learn

In the end there ill be

Hold my hand

We shall see

Well update is that i turn 21 in 3 days....

gosh years fly by so fast,

Halloween just around the corner too so thats another night to celebrate

thats about it... and

i just went out this past friday havent been out for 2 dam months but anyhoo

theres sooooooo many new people that just popped into the scene

i was pretty amazed how people come and people go .... :]

well my happiness is back... cupcakes WITH SPRINKLES! hahaha :]

i havent felt this good for quite some while

no dramas, no dumbshit,

nothing negative to ruin this positve energy ive surounded myself with...

maybe not everything i expected to happen has happened yet...

just living life day by day.... 

reading my Dreamers Dictionary and Horoscope everyday... 

who knows what will happen tomorrow...

so far its like being in the dark with a flashlight hahahaha :]