a good video with good lyrics by PORCUPINE TREE - TIME FLIES



I was born in '67
The year of Sgt. Pepper
And Are You Experienced?

Into a suburb of heaven
Yeah, it should've been forever
It all seems to make so much sense

But after a while
You realize time flies
And the best thing that you can do
Is take whatever comes to you
'Cause time flies

She said luck is all you make it
You just reach out and take it
Now let's dance a while

She said nothing ever happens
If you don't make it happen
And if you can't laugh then smile

But after a while
You realize time flies
And the best thing that you can do
Is take whatever comes to you
'Cause time flies

And laughing under summer showers
Is still the way I see you now

How does time break down
With no marker, things slow down.
A conference of the strange
And your family is deranged

I could tell you what I'm thinking
While we sit here drinking
But I'm not sure where to start

You see there's something wrong here
I'm sorry if I'm not clear,
Can you stop smoking your cigar?

But after a while
You realize time flies
And the best thing that you can do
Is take whatever comes to you
'Cause time flies

And the coat your wore to Alton Towers
It's still the way I see you now

What gets into you to write this mess? I hate that I made this decision but for fucks sake I had no other option. We are oil and water you an I. I loved a lot of things about you, but no doubt I feel karma will bite both of us in our asses and we will know what each other felt like. Next time, pick up a phone or text me directly to avoid unnecessary arguing.

Sleep deprivation. Up late.. Cant sleep. Wanted to say I have a new appreciation for science and cosmology and also appreciating our species a lot more. My corn crop gave and so did my snap beans though they need more time. My sunflowers died and so I am going to havest the heads to gain some seeds. I just gotta say though. Planting sure feels terrific. Somehow I feel like it ties together with the universe in some small but significant way. There are nights I wake up with a strong pull and tug in my head and for a split second I feel like the universe wants to pull me to the earth. Back into dirt and when I realize the strange pain has passed... I feel much further from the truth. I dont want to fear death or be paranoid about whats out there or when the time will come. I just want to make sure that I never take this life of mine for granted because I know life here must be just as beautiful as whatever exists out there in the everexpanding realm of the unknown truth. I cant live if I cant embrace.

Spend 2 months without the internet and you find you have more freetime than you think.

Thanks becca! Hands down, the funniest shit I've seen in a while.

Frozen Turkey Dinners are a reminder of every thanksgiving holiday I've spent away from my family. Reduced to this. Slabs of turkey before me. I devour. I cry. No, I'm kidding but I really miss having my parents around me.

You know... my dad showed me how to roll a joint when I was about five. That's what I call awesome parenting. I miss my father so much. He used my pinky once to pull a booger from his nose and as disturbing as it sounds to some of you... if you knew my dad, he was weird like me and it really made me laugh as a kid. Finding 'coconuts' meant looking for dandruff flakes in his hair. haha. You can see where I get my weird sense of humor from.

My mother let me chew a whole pack of Fruit Stripe gum before bedtime and told me not to fall asleep with them in my mouth.... and I did just that... and the next morning she tugged on my hair full of gum for more than an hour and drove me to school frustrated and yelling and as much as I was intimidated by her, she stood up for me when my cousins would pick on me and I never forgot about that. She always looked after me.

I think its not ever too late to reconcile your differences if you still have your folks living with you. It sure hurts a good deal even after years when that specific date comes around. And in my mind all I think about is how the heavens must be for a weird guy like my pop.

Dammit! Today I was short 3.89 at my register. Either I don't know how to count or I cannot trust in machines. It just keeps crossing my mind how I could've been short by that much. Not cents but dollars. Ay ay ay. In a way, I don't care what people think of me, but I do because I don't ever want to be seen as a thief. Woo. I mean 3 bucks right, but in my mind somewhere I feel I something so low as this puts me in the perception of a theif and I hate it. Tomorrow, yeah I will be more attentive because it just don't compute.

my worries. minuscule yet major.

This blog is for all of you wondering where I've been? I had been sick for a few days and slowly recuperating after much hydration. My kidneys are much better. Just trying to get in a good amount of work hours and taking care of my home and chores and the lovely little family I have. Last week while surfing around the net... I got one of those fake virus alerts trying to sell me something and me like a dumbass tried to esc and cancel out of it and it downloaded on to my computer so it started giving me all sorts of hell. Popups and slowing down my computer, etc. I installed several virus programs and then came to the conclusion that none of them were helping because they couldn't find the main source that was creating all that other crap.

A rootkit infection. A system infection. It messes with critical files in your computer system and trying to edit or delete them results in awful consequences so my brain farting ass decides to get the files I needed offline and replace those system files... and low and behold ... my computer wont start up anymore. So I am locked out of my computer, locked out of my digital art files, of some of my photos, and all of my software. If I can't get this fixed, it means I have to start over from new. Which blows major poppycock.

So, I will be forced to check my email on bobbys laptop. And as grateful that I am that I will be able to, I still cannot get used to the little nipple mouse in the center of the keyboard (sorry babe). I will check my myspace occasionally. But it will be a while before I get my PC up and running.

I am going back to a time when computers were hardly around. Imagine what other stuff I will get done with all my time!!!!

See you around my homeskillets!

Lorie or Nerdy Berdy or Paloma Nerda (thanks Dondi)

Eu entendo um pouco portuguese. Estou certa que minhas palavras são escritas mal. Mas eu tento ainda fazer-lo bem.

Eu gostaria ir a Brazil um dia na futuro. Descansar na praia muito bela. Beber cerveja fria e comer fruta tropical. Ouvir música maravilhosa e jogar futebol na areia. Isto me faria muito feliz.

Por agora tenho de estudar minhas frases básicas.

CHARLES BUKOWSKI

462-0614

I get many phonecalls now.
They are all alike.
"are you Charles Bukowski,
the writer?"
"yes," I tell them.
and they tell me
that they understand my
writing,
and some of them are writers
or want to be writers
and they have dull and
horrible jobs
and they can't face the room
the apartment
the walls
that night --
they want somebody to talk
to,
and they can't believe
that I can't help them
that I don't know the words.
they can't believe
that often now
I double up in my room
grab my gut
and say
"Jesus Jesus Jesus, not
again!"
they can't believe
that the loveless people
the streets
the loneliness
the walls
are mine too.
and when I hang up the phone
they think I have held back my
secret.

I don't write out of
knowledge.
when the phone rings
I too would like to hear words
that might ease
some of this.

that's why my number's
listed.

Chicken and Zucchini Squash Soup


This may or may not look appealing to you. But to me, this dish is holy like the never before found savior of my life. After two bowls, I felt like a fat ass because I still wanted more. More of that mouth-watering goodness. I can eat this forever.

You will need:
10 chicken tenderloin pieces, cooked and cut in small chunks
2 small zucchini squash cut in wedges
1 cup frozen or canned corn *pic shows white corn, either is good*
1 can tomato sauce
1 1/2 cups water
Garlic Salt and Pepper to taste


Preparing your chicken. I like frozen chicken tenderloins since they are more convenient. I spray PAM and cook them under medium heat until they are fully cooked.



Cut them in chunks.



Wash and cut your zucchini squash into wedges.



You will need 1 cup of corn.



Heat up your skillet on medium-high head and spray with Pam or oil if you aren't dieting. Get it nice and hot and stir fry your squash and corn until they brown all toasty and good like that!



Mix your chicken, stirfry in a pot and add 1 can of tomato sauce and 1 1/2 cups of water. Bring to a boil and add Garlic Salt, Salt and Pepper to taste. Reduce Heat to medium and let it simmer for about 5 minutes. Don't over do it, that way the squash will stay crisp yet tender.



Amor! Amor! Amor!

Okay, so maybe this isn't art related or interesting to some of you but I was reunited with the cleaning power of bleach and quite fascinated. For those of you who don't know... adding a little bleach to your soap water when you wash dishes helps to take ugly residual odors off dishes (e.g. scrambled eggs) and it can also clean residual stains left on plastic pitchers that are maybe used for sweet tea.




Here are some other things Bleach is good for:

Stop Smoking Aid
Put a drop or two of bleach on the palms of your hands. I dare you to light up. :)
The combination smell of smoke and bleach is enough to make you sick and discourages you from lighting up again.

Rejuvenate Your Wood Fence
Do you want your fence to look new again? To take that grey look away from your wooden fence, spray bleach with a spray bottle directly onto your wooden fence. Instantly it brings back the wood color.

Flower Vase  and Flower Preserver
Keep a flower vase free from slime and stagnant water by adding a few drops of bleach to the water — it won’t harm the flowers.

You can also try adding 1/4 teaspoon bleach to a vase of fresh cut flowers to extend the life of your flowers.

Disinfecting
Mix ¼ bleach and ¾ water to use for kitchen cleaning solution. It is great to kill germs on the counter top, and stove surface.

Cleaning Mildew and Mold
Mix ½ bleach and ½ water to make a cleaning solution for mildew, stain, tub-ring, shower curtain, shower door, and around the toilette.

Weed Killer
I'm talking about garden weeds, not your pot stash! ;) Use undiluted bleach to kill weeds, moss, and algae in your yard

Cure Poison Ivy
You must do this at the onset of the rash only. Wipe the bleach over the affected area, and it will dry up. Also, make sure you are not allergic to bleach.

Cure Smelly Feet
Mixing 1 part of bleach with 3 part of hot water, soak feet for 10 minutes.

Clean Plastic Lawn Furniture
Mixing ½ bleach and ½ water in a spraying bottle and spray them down, then rise.

Too much deceit in the world. Too much murder, rape, cruelty, scandalous shit going on everywhere and it leaves an ugly stink in our mind and conscious. What if we don't have a savior? What egos we must have to think that we are above everything in nature and that we are rulers of earth. I had a dream the earth opened and swallowed us up and we had no savior. We were just random acts of science as are the indefinite amounts of bacteria that thrive. Are we much more different? Are we not spreading? Perhaps there is a bacteria heaven? An organism heaven? A heaven for all things that thrive and live on this earth? We all want to survive and perhaps that is all we are. We have a purpose to spread and consume and destroy. purpose unknown.

... anyhow. I didn't mean to make this blog so fucking sad...

BUT!!! I would like to say that I am forever grateful for the good people I know and the good people EVERYWHERE that choose to embrace love no matter what this world harbors in its dark crevices. We choose to not be part of it and we choose to trust our hearts and spirits and I'll say it again. and again. I am damn happy to know a lot of great people. Never take it for granted.

What a beautiful planet.