This song is for you haters, pervs, losers, stalkers.. people who have hurt me, lied to me, cheated me, ever made me shed a tear or just generally screwed me over...

Here's to you babes!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Look at my profile and turn up your speakers.. especially if you're at work)

Ahoy Mates,
Well I will be doing a stickam chat/cam on Thursday 4:30 pm. Since that night I have me a date with some pirates at the theater. So I will have some time to kill before hand since I won't be working out that night.
So come join me in a chat for talk like a pirate night

Now I have my season 3 Charlie's Angels and PMS and cramps and I am going to bed.

Hope everyone had a lovely 4th and see ya all on Thursday July 6th at 4:30 pm PACIFIC time.

Hey All..  I am back from my aunt's. Thank you all so much for your emails and posts. It was all very sweet of you. The funeral was very quiet and small. Seems as life goes on our circle of family and friends gets smaller and smaller...even more so, since I'm the kind to let many in. Again, I have to wonder this time around why life takes the good ...and leaves the garbage behind. Oh well, at least he's not in anymore pain. I know its a small consolation but...  we got to say our goodbyes, it wasn't sudden and while death is always tragic, I guess we are left with the satisfaction that we said our peace. I was sitting around last night. The house had emptied out since everyone starting going back home. I sat there and thought that with the exception of some kid from here on Myspace that I seem to have "rejected" sometime last week or the week before... how its been so quiet FINALLY. Honestly the emails I get like the ones I post in the blogs of shame, don't really bug me. They are annoying YES.. but otherwise its some kid or perv who can't think straight apparently and sends them to all of us. Honestly since I started posting them, amazingly they've trickled off..hmmm imagine that? (For the people who said I shouldn't post them). Well of course today being today, the day I was coming back home. Everyone had their panties in a bunch from the kid in the Yahoo group and then of course as usual and clockwork I and my moderator get blamed for the whole entire thing. Its just one huge conspiracy against one person. yeah cool. Whatever. To add to that I get emails of course from other friends of mine being purposely sarcastic in them, only thing I can think of for this rash of lameness on their part is rejection again?? I don't know. It seems that's what makes the world go round. You know here's the deal. There are hella girls on myspace (not just the models and celebs and stuff) and there's even more guys chasing all the girls. You go to everyone's pages (and well a lot of women on here are guilty of this as well) and there are the same people going from page to page to page to page trying to hit on everyone. They get tired of "trying" with one and go off to another... and then they get themselves all bittered up because seemed to have "rejected" them. There aren't enough hours in the day to write everyone back. There isn't enough time or money to jet set around the world taking up everyone on their invitation. I get the but yeah but I'm a hot guy so don't lump me in with the rest... yeah well, that's a matter of taste. Here I am trying to get by. I have personal things to take care of daily. My life is far from perfect..and to top it off I have to worry about pissing off someone on the net that I don't even really know and getting fried because of it. I know all the girls go through it..but I just am so sick and tired of having to curb everything with the twisted. I deleted my Yahoo group AGAIN this afternoon... when I change my Myspace page again and redesign it, the comments are going too... because I am sick of people trolling the list for girls... or for drama...or info. I am also sick of people using it for advertising. After that the next to go will be my friends list. I'm going to have to hide it. You know I don't know how the other girls do it. Have a message board and all kinds of groups and boards up..for some lame brains to come in and constantly take shots at them. They can all say it doesn't bother them, but I know differently. The must have the patience of steel. Also just because something is moderated doesn't mean we don't see the posts.. it means you just don't. In the past I've tried to have others moderate my stuff, and although I have had co-moderators... I've never given the stuff totally to someone else. So, so much for peace. I was trying to read what the hell was going on and I was trying be updated at all the happenings here and of course, since I was simmering to a slow boil... and I can't listen and read at the same time and give my undivided attention. I blow up and snap at my friends. Friends who do me great favors, I am so glad it wasn't my parents again. It seems sometimes to me that the planets align just so that everyone loses their fucking composure ANY time I am around my family. So there I sit angry during the very little time I get to spend with my family. So lets see where I am at now. I can't really talk about my family or personal life because I have arm chair quarter backs making snide comments. I have to delete groups because of the kiddies and then the paranoid taking shots at me. I will have to pull down my comments because of the guys that think I am ooooooo sooo hot hitting on my friends and family. None of us can have any group or board that isn't moderated because of the freak parade coming through, insulting or being pervs. You ever noticed that the girls (and some guys who deal with this) starts pretty chipper on these things and boards and stuff and then slowly but surely their pages turn into: "if you don't like me leave.... don't send me crappy emails. I am not adding anymore people. don't do this or that or that or this". I should've knocked on wood last night. The "peace" didn't last very long. Although I was thinking just why exactly would I want a "comeback" .. I never liked taking pictures, I don't like getting lame emails about the site or me... I've always thought with all the problems in the world, its pretty sick to be just concerned on the goings on of an adult site. I've even maybe come to be at peace with maybe moving back to L.A. to be around my parents. Except for my mom bugging me that "I'm not the same anymore"..we got along pretty good. Anyway, I am pretty much sick of all this. I'm sorry if anyone got their feelings hurt or anyone feels rejected. It was not my intent. I more often then not feel rotten for not being able to write everyone back, but, besides the volume of emails. I know if I get into another pen pal situation... the time is gonna come up that I get an invitation or asked out and I honestly can't. So please stop the bitterness... its nothing personal... Have a good night

Well they up and vanished...hmmm, I guess we are still under a dictatorship. I guess they did have objectionable stuff in them as far as the nasty emails go... but they are friggin gone!

Oh well, I was through entertaining everyone anyway

I know this is useless and pointless, but if only one person listens that makes it worth it.

Like I've said a ZILLION times, no offense but I am not adding under age kids at all... if you look under age or if your profile looks fake in anyway I am not adding you either. Its nothing personal at ALL. Just a decision I made months ago. I am also sick of the fake girl profiles sent to me with add requests. Really obvious since I know most of the girls online, not personally, but I've seen them around and know that so and so isn't named Katie and lives in BFE and likes to have sex alot and only adds girls. Please... its lame.

Please save your time and energy asking me out, or asking me to parties. Right now I am honestly NOT looking for anyone. I also NEVER go to parties... so its useless. All I need are friends and friends that understand I can not be there on a whim to email them 40 times a day or even everyday. Constantly asking to meet or phone isn't gonna make it any better. It kinda puts me off...I wish everyone wouldn't get all bitter about it or ridiculous, its just how I choose to live MY life...like you choose to live yours your way. These past few months I've been recovering from an accident, and I've had a little time to email back and forth and such, but it can't continue the rate it has since I have to get back to my normal routine.

I don't want or need an "agent". REAL agents that do get work don't usually troll the net for clients, you have to go to them. Plus I won't accept most jobs since I am close to the end of doing this for a living. I can handle my own matters myself. I also really won't take most jobs, so please don't ask. Thats not where my head is at anymore.

I also wish everyone would quit the bickering and the nonsense. I am really not fueding with anyone... no models (and if I am...its news to me) or anyone else. If I choose to cut ties or whatever, it was of my choosing and nothing more sinister. I really think everyone should go on with their lives and worry about their own lives and I think they would be much happier. I am not competing against anyone for modeling work... or website stuff or anything, so stories of a fued or false and I have NO reason to fued with anyone. I think this whole site is a bit childish and ridiculous that it puts everyone's business out there for others to judge and pry into. People are actually breaking up relationships and marriages and romances because of the childish crap going on this damn site. I mean is it really worth it?I use it to make new friends and promo. The bitter babble I get on emails as to WHY I am here if I don't LOOK like I need to look for romance are stupid at best. This IS NOT a dating site alone.

Again, if you want to be my friend, cool, great. Don't do it with the ulterior motives that your thinking they'll be more because I can tell you up front there won't. If I were interested in dating someone right now, lets just say I already know who I would be with and not. My biggest pet peeve is people trying to chat you up and be your friend with other motives in mind. So if thats what anyone is going about, just go on your merry way. I've always said... I just want friends...if anything more happens then it happens, pressing the matter is only gonna put me off.

Hope everyone is having a good week

In a grouchy ass mood today...lol. So email at your own risk. Here's a few points that are just gonna go everyone's heads and the lameness will continue

?  To the people I've told to leave me alone, I mean it. I don't mean leave me alone for a day or week and then keep bugging me. Don't contact me. Simple as that. Please have some self respect for yourself. Also doesn't mean just don't contact me on myspace, it means AT ALL.

? Please people don't BEG for comments, it's kinda sad. I do it when I can and when I am in a mood to do so. It gets hard, you leave a comment for someone and then someone else is bitching you didn't leave them one. It's not fooling anyone if you have to beg for a comment, having someone you barely know leaving a pleasantry doesn't make you cool and by what I've seen most of the comments left by girls are advertising gimmicks anyway. I'll do what I can ..when I can.

? Again, I will NOT add minors, I guess the occasional one will slip through because they are faking their profile. They are usually deleted by me in the end though, since they have to call attention to themselves by leaving some nasty comment. Don't change your age... your pictures and your friends give you away. I have people trying to add me that look like baby finster in their pics and say they are 30.

? Don't email me on how you can get into porn, especially the guys. I am not in porn so I don't know. Alot of the ladies in adult have posted blogs about this, read them. As far as I've read its extremely difficult for guys to get into porn. Its women they want not guys. I am sure they have enough of those. Again, don't email me with that stuff.

? Lastly, yeah I realize the asshole quotient on here is high and yeah I deal with it. There are the few that just can't move the heck on. I appreciate the suggestions, But no I'm not going to make my profile "private" you have to set your age to 14 to do that and myspace are cracking down on adults who do that and deleting your profile. I use this for marketing too and I am not going to lose that because some jerks can't take no for an answer.

? I'm not giving out my number. I am not telling anyone where I live. I can not possibly meet EVERYONE that asks me to. It's insulting to get emails saying "I think your hot, lets meet"... I guess my opinion in the matter doesn't make a difference. If you don't hear from me right away or even after a couple of days, Chill. Don't be obsessively emailing me to ask when I am going to email you back. The best on going friendships I have on these things, is where its casual email from time to time with short messages. Its the obsessives that freak me out and make me not want to email. Because a girl is nice to ya, doesn't mean shes in love with you or even attracted. Maybe she really does want to be just friends. No you can't "model" with me if your a guy. I don't "model" with guys never have, and I don't do porn movies... so ummm whats the idea here?

Oh and I disabled HTML comments, so to the brain trusts trying to add HTML. It SAYS that I disabled it... so just added a regular text comment and quit trying. Please use your brain, god gave it to you to use for something other than to roll around inside your skull like  marble.

okay thats about it. I know all get some more off the wall emails. I always do.

Oh and go join here:

http://www.mycyberscene.com

It's small right now so you'll be able to find me pretty quick.