where does the love go?
my heart it dies so slow
down my wrist the crimson flows
this is where the love goes...

The following are things Matt has said to me either verbally or written in e-mails and texts:


lisa (lee-sah). noun, proper - 1. a jerk off. 2. one who finds joy in the pain of others. 3. an owner of a lot of shoes/bags/sadness. antonym: matt.


i often have to reconcile the facts that you're really great and completely lame.


yea, i like you. i don't know why. i can't think of one good reason.


are you useless? sure. are you a piece of crap? most likely.


you're sitting next to me right now and you're typing. i want to kick you in the head right now, but that would disturb you. so, consider this me doing that.


i don't know if you're so cute it's ridiculous, or you're so ridiculous it's cute.


it hurts my head, how ridiculous* you are.
*awesome**
**ridiculous


you feel like a child. i like to feel children. it all works out in the end. in the rear. what?


I like you unconscious more.


you're cooler than a unicorn drinking an english breakfast tea latte while listening to weezer. (ok, that one's actually kind of nice. weird. but nice. nicest i'll ever get out of him).

funniest thing ever! and if you don't find this amusing, we're not friends.

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RANDOM QUOTES:
Lord help my poor soul – Edgar Allan Poe's last dying words

It's better to be wanted for murder than not to be wanted at all – movie title

My heart has turned to wax; it has melted away within me – Psalms 22:14

I hope I'm not so small-souled as to take satisfaction in being missed – East of Eden (John Steinbeck)

Who has deceived thee more oft than thyself? – Benjamin Franklin

Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day – 2 Corinthians 4:16b

For stronger than death is love, tenacious like the grave is jealousy – Song of Songs 8:6

Oh, how we are evil – Matt's profound misinterpretation of a less profound quote


SONG QUOTES:
My broken heart makes me smile – In the End (Sublime)

I joke when I say I'm the best, but a lot of truth is said in jest – Say What You Say (Eminem)

Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, Romeo – Sharpest Lives (My Chemical Romance)

Nothing really seems to matter when you've gone this far – Gathered (Tonedeff)

Hollywood glamorized my wrath; I'm the young urban psychopath – Slow Motion (Third Eye Blind)

I try to think about rainbows when it gets bad. You got to think about something to keep from going mad. – In My Head (No Doubt)

Love is watching someone die – What Sarah Said (Deathcab for Cutie)

And I'm just about to drop it down that manhole of memories, when I realize it doesn't bother me, and heartache not so dire. 'Cuz I looked up to see integrity finally won over desire – Mahole (Ani DiFranco)

Let the poets pipe of love in their childish ways – Love for Sale (Cole Porter)

The devil's water it ain't so sweet, you don't have to drink right now. But you can dip your feet every once in a little while – When You Were Young (The Killers)

So they say you're a troubled boy just because you like to destroy all the things that bring the idiots joy. Well, what's wrong with a little destruction? – The Fallen (Franz Ferdinand)

So I got selected for jury duty. I neither tried to get on the case nor tried to get out of it. I figured it was good experience and it seemed like an interesting case. I guess i'm not supposed to talk about it...but whatever. The case is attempted murder in the first degree, gang related. Anyway, they brought out the weapon today, it was a revolver, and all I could think about was, "man, I want a gun!!" (I don't listen to the case really because I've already made my decision on the verdict. Yup, they made a GREAT decision in picking me as a juror).

Anyway, I then thought about all the reasons why I should get a gun. One salient reason is because LA drivers are crazy and I want to be able to threaten them whenever necessary. When people cut in front of me, I'd like to wave a gun around just to scare them. Don't worry, I most likely wouldn't load the gun. Another reason is because LA pedestrians are crazy. This girl ran in front of my car as I started going, then flipped out on me as if it was my fault. I literally saw a switch go off in her head and she went completely PSYCHOTIC and starts yelling at me, then proceeds to come to the driver's side and KICKS MY CAR! of course leaving a dent. WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?! I guess theories such as "don't run in front of a moving vehicle" are too complicated for some people to grasp. I hate myself for not having actually ran her over. Again, this is precisely why I need a gun.

After being so motivated by jury duty to get a gun, I spent about 2 hours online researching gun licenses, gun dealers, and prices for guns. I've narrowed it down to two guns I want and WILL buy:

Colt King Cobra 6 inch barrel (revolver)
Beretta AL391 (shotgun)

this might have been stupid, but i just recently purchased a lot of 7 pairs of vintage gloves. where, you may ask, will i wear these gloves? nowhere. when? never. it seemed like a good idea at the time...sigh...