Well it has been a REALLY long time since I have written a blog entry... life just gets so full and there simply isn't the time to stop and record it the way that I would probably like to.

In any event, I do enjoy my life and I do take time to reflect on where I have been and ponder where it is I am headed, and I have to say that I am happy with where I am at, and where I am headed now.

Where I have been, has taught me a lot about the importance of integrity and thoughtfulness as a goal towards your loved ones. I am trying to become a better person always, and to be better to those I hold dear... life's lessons are never without a sense of irony, but at least I know that my heart has always been in the right place, even when the execution of my intentions misses the mark... my aim sometimes has a tendency to pull to the left, so I often overcompensate to the right... in high winds, that is... how's that for abstract thought? Hey, it makes sense to me!

My son is happy and healthy and growing much TOO FAST for comfort's sake... but it is all as it should be. I am progressing as an artist, and I am surrounded by dear friends who genuinely care for me; who communicate their feelings, ideas and emotions openly and freely, and I feel very loved and cared for in a way that I haven't felt since I was very young.

I have come to a place where I can meet anyone half-way, but I will no longer try to bridge the gap for others, at the risk of my own needs, or sense of self... nor will I be judged unfairly by those who have no perspective of what I have been through or currently face... as a rule, I find that unconditional love is the goal, but in some cases that means I still have to distance myself from those same people I love, when they are incapable of being open, unbiassed or supportive in the face conflict or struggle.

I truly despise weakness, hypocrisy and cowardice.

I like the age that I am at now, I feel like I have a better view of the world, and a more realistic view of others than I had before... I am more accepting and forgiving than I used to be... of myself as well as of others.

I know what makes me happy, and I embrace those things with all my being... and I know that I will always follow my bliss, for no one else can do that for me.

I feel like I have come full circle. And now I can finally set some things straight; make some things right; pick up the pieces and move on; and pick up where some dreams left off long ago...

I wish only love, hope and happiness... for everyone involved.

Been working a TON lately... I have a book cover I'm doing, a children's online book that I am animating in Flash, and some other video game related freelance, and there are some design jobs on the horizon that may be coming in this week... on top of all that I'm still working on my film Blood of the Innocent and writing some new treatments for a couple scripts that I will be writing soon. Hey the Comic Con is here next week!!! Books I'm reading: The Masks of God by Joseph Campbell - The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav - Out of Control by Kevin Kelly and Raising a Son by Don & Jeanne Elium GOOD STUFF! -Lance

...like right when you get the hang of something, everything seems to change and you are back at square one? I guess that's called a "milestone" or a "crossroad" in life, but it never really happens without your knowledge... it usually comes about with some pain, stress or anxiety in tow. Being in my late 30's now, allows me to look back at my life's events and mentally mark them in succession to see what led up to each experience and what the "fallout" was... it makes me look at the present with a more analytical eye and try to anticipate the weaving of my current road. I feel it happening again, so I think I will be embarking on a new adventure soon. I'm looking ahead with optimism... =] If you have a story of a corner that you have turned in life, I'd like to hear about it! -Lance