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Natalie Patterson


Last Updated: 11/17/2009

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Gender: Female
Age: 26
Sign: Scorpio

State: California

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Wednesday, March 18, 2009 
CSUN Vocab

Friday, January 16, 2009 

Current mood:  contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry
You will not victim me with ambiguity
Will not photograph me beautiful when anxiety bubbles under the surface of my smile
You will not be the reason to idealize the past
Forget details and disregard others
I like you more than that
I asked you to stutter the Earth’s revolutions for me
Steady the speed
So I could breathe soft
Easy
Dance flirty in the rain
Jump buildings
And lay naked in tree rooms
With no need for approval
I don’t want to force or fear anything
Don’t want to remind myself of the perfection
For once
It just is
Without the necessity to find it
I see Jesus in your smile
I’m in the Now so much
I forget how practical I tend not to be
A poem never edited
You remind me
How complete I am
How capable I am
There is a commitment in me willing to give
Willing to stand in faith
Without reasons
I’ve got no justifications
Just promise me
That when you go
You will not “favorite jeans” me
Lost forever
Promise me
That I will not search for you
In the face..conversation..lens..poem
Of every man I will love
Because
I want to live this moment fully
I don’t want to regret a single thing
So do me--
Do me the honor of being HERE
Steady the wind
For me
Hold my hand sometimes and remind me how perfect it is to BE.

Thursday, December 11, 2008 

Current mood:  inspired
I wanted to share this video- It was highly inspiring to me as a poet..activist. Enjoy!


Welcome To The Terrordome from W.A.R. Media on Vimeo.
Thursday, October 09, 2008 

Current mood:  blissful
Saturday, May 10, 2008 

Current mood:  adventurous
Category: News and Politics

And it goes a little something like this…

 I had a early morning show, a woman's empowerment brunch on skid row. Which I didn't exactly know was gonna be in the heart of skid row I just thought "downtown" which in the day light hours is not so bad.  Either way, I get there and unsure of where to park, I see a spot in a 1 hour parking zone so I pull in.  I step out of my car greeted by a few hundred of what might be described as sketchy folks.  The early morning air smells of pee and streets that have never seen clean hot water, bleach or any cleaning solution.   The men compliment me, the woman extend smiles noticing I am not from around there.  I get to the first of many open doors with lines forming for medication and food- pull out my cell to call my contact.  He refers me to the parking lot around the corner for more secure parking, under my breath I thank god I was a bit worried.  Not that my car is in any way "nice" just I remember having our family car broken into as a child around this area for nothing more then some cassette tapes.  As I take the 15-20 steps back to my car I notice a crowd of skid row residents forming near my car.  As I approach I see a Latino guy, late 20's being handcuffed with those plastic cuffs and being searched leaned up against the back of my car.  There is a bike lying in the middle of the street and a old blue Honda civic like car with dark tinted windows.  All the doors are flung open and traffic is beginning to back up seeing as how the civic is stopped diagonal in the street.  I open my car door and make eye contact with the undercover cops who are dressed in USC t-shirts and jeans.  I figure they will move the undercover cop car which was clearly blocking me in.

BUT no, these muthafuckas look at me and then one has the nerve to say "you like this don't you ma"

to which I replied " no, its actually quite alarming and makes me real uncomfortable"

Still leaned against my trunk the "suspect" is being asked if he swallowed the drugs. They open his mouth and look, search his pockets then begin to search under and around my car in the event that he threw the drugs.  I ask the more normal of the two cops if he would move the car I needed to go. He politely says it will just be a second and then he loads the "suspect" into the back of the civic and drives away.  By this point two other undercover cars drive up, one which the bike is loaded into and the other asks if everything is cool. 

As quickly as the man was jerked off his bike it was over and San Pedro st was back to speeding cars, addicts and the recovering.  I was off to Inspire!

 

*The Drama was real.  One of the other speakers said as she walked in, she noticed the man on the bike but thought he was just getting a ride from one of his friends.

 

My contact also told a story about a man several weeks ago who decided he was gonna kill himself: he climbed in a tree, disrobed and used his clothing to set fire to the tree he was in.  The fire department was called but the man refused to come down.  They put the blow up mattress thing on the ground to catch him and threatened to shoot him with a rubber bullet if he would not jump.  So he did, and the man broke his leg. I mean damn… he tried to set himself and a tree on fire and ended up with only a broken leg.  Some people cant do anything right! 
Thursday, May 08, 2008 
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 

Current mood:  happy
Category: Life

During a phone conversation with a friend

Me: Wear something cute
Her: i feel like i always do, Its really weird that you would even say that
Me: Oh, I'm sorry beyonce!
Her: i mean damn
Me: ok Bye Beyonce

Phone call ends.

Friends are so amazing thank you for the classic moments!

Sunday, February 24, 2008 

Thanks DamnYo....

Write 10 random things about yourself, then list ten friends and why you chose them, and then leave them a comment to let them know that you tagged them....

 

  1. I love Febreze
  2. I sing in the car full out.  Like I'm getting paid- I'm sure people wonder what's wrong with me
  3. When I was a kid I wanted to be a singer
  4. Cherry pie is the best
  5. I look for furniture people have thrown away and fix it. Current project: an old beat up desk for my office.
  6. My house is filled with nude pictures of beautiful ladies
  7. I never wash my car
  8. I have really small ears
  9. When I was 9 I was skating and a pine cone got caught in the wheel of my skate, I had a coke bottle in my hand (when bottles were still glass) and I fell, the bottle broke and went into my wrist. I got the scar to prove it! 
  10. I never lose things

 

 

Def sound- 5th grade best friend

Pharoahe monch- great mind

Thea- I need more stories

Crystal- South Carolina…..

GaKnew- Is one of  the funniest people I know (low key)

Mayda- One of the best story tellers she does random well

Tony B- just cause

Judah 1- cuz he uses old school words  

Javon- hes crazier then a soup sandwich

Emily- She always has amazing random shit going on.

Honorary person: AJ cuz I adore her crazy ass

 

Monday, February 04, 2008 

Current mood:  blessed
Category: Writing and Poetry

* inspired by Michelle Obama and Oprah


There was a silence in the air I have not lived long enough to have previously experience

The kind that only falls on 12,000 people the way only inspiration can

Feet and back ached

Eyes burn from tears

Bursting firework like

Uncontrollable but free

Proud to have something to burst for besides heart break

I have heard of days like today

Of movements that made walking to work easy

That made sit-ins the obvious choice

And made being propelled down streets from the force of fire hoses worth it

Seen possibility grow into human form

But today I have seen what the work was done for

I felt a people rise

Felt a people purge and morph

From broken to whole

Often thought being a woman was too difficult

Growing into an unbalanced adulthood made womanhood and childbirth undesirable

Couldn't imagine all I would face without grace could imagine the fall

I finally understand what the fight was for

Finally felt the reason God created me a girl with big dreams and a heart that only accepts the possibility

I cried strong today

Proudly

Wanted the cameras to see me healing

Felt the room transform around me

I believe

Publicly in the possibility

Fear doesn't live here anymore

And neither does doubt

Can't convince me now

My heart has decided once and for all

Every cell in my body lined up

Waited patiently and now

I'm FREE

Saturday, February 02, 2008