life goes on. wise people always tell me this when im feeling down, or just need some advise on making decisions even tho i always make the wrong one when i know whats right. idk why i do this, but its a habbit. i guess i like 2 keep life interesting an keep myself guessing, even tho my life or someone elses life may b on tha line. pretty much where im goin with this is how ive fucked up my life so far, but how its made me a stronger person.im not goin in any order kuz i cant really remember the order, an im just gonna name tha shit that means tha most 2 me without naming ppl.you all kno who u are just from reading this shit.ppl can claim wat they want, an sum ppl might not wanna hear it, but idc. 1. you were my bestfriend, my fam, tha only other nigga around that knew wat i was thinkin, an wat i was about 2 do. i stayed loyal 2 u, even tho u wernt as loyal 2 me. all i got in this world is my balls an word an i aint breakin it 4 no1. i got fucked in a bizznezz deal with u that i coulda made me an u a lot of cheeze off of, an we still could b on 2 this day. we still close an we still cool tho, an thats how ied rather it b. 2. this girl is serously tha girl version of me. we always get fucked up. u tha second person i kno besides me that numbs pain with drugs an liquor. i kno this persion will always b there 4 me kuz im always gonna b there 4 this person. we got a past, but its all fucked up because of me an my temper an i dont think i can fix this 1. i fucked shit up between us, but i didnt do it alone. i still love u, an i wanna b wit u, even tho i doubt there will b anything there 4 us anymore, but 2 just get fucked up 2gether an talk about our problems. ied rather have that then no relationship wit u. 3. your the only person who i owe everything 2. u took care of me when he pussied out on tha responsibility. tha only person in tha world who would give me tha last shirt on ur bak just so i could say i have something. ur tha only person who i look up 2 tha most, an ur tha most strongest person i kno on this earth. life been hard 4 us, but tha struggle only made us stronger. i just want u 2 kno how much u really mean 2 me. 4. my ride or fuckin die, on sum real. u tha only person who knows tha real me. im not sayin im fake around ppl, she just kno how i am. real talk, u are my best friend. ur tha only person who had my bak sense birth, best believe i got urs. were so close, i could tell u anything an u would help me even tho it put u in danger. anything u ever need, im just a call away an u kno that. 5. you were tha brother i never had, an tha father figure i never experienced. seriously u were my life bro. anything u wanted 2 do i was down with. i loved doing anything with u, even if it was walking in woods or doin stupid shit. u left me way 2 fuckin early, but i dont hold it against u. every1 has a time 2 go, some shorter then others. thats why we think so much of life, kuz u never kno when u go. just kno that i still love u an i still of u 2 this day an kno that i will never 4get u as long as i live. 6. damn bro, where do i start with u. we met when i used 2 live in tha royal mall an we played football 2gether. i remember tha halo 2 lan partys we had, an all tha fuckin beer pong an asshole we played. u were my drinking hero. always down 2 party an have a good time wit tha boyz. every1 loved u, as u were a caring an loyal person. nothing fake about u. i looked up 2 u bro, an i still do as a person. rip, hope 2 see u someday at tha crossroads bro.