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Ashley Rogers


Last Updated: 12/20/2009

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City: Longwood
State: Florida
Signup Date: 6/29/2005

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Sunday, February 22, 2009 

Current mood:  tired
I want a cup that overflows with love

Although it's not enough to fill my heart

I want a barrel full of love

Although I know it's not enough to fill my heart



I want a river full of love

But then I know the holes will still remain

I need an ocean full of love
Although I know the holes will still remain



And this Swiss-cheese heart knows
Only kindness can fill its holes

And love can dry my tears

As pain disappears



I need a miracle and not someone's charity now

One drop of love from him

And my heart's in ecstasy

The high that is sending me

Is most likely ending me

I need a miracle and not someone's charity now



Fill up my heart with love

Oh, you'd be amazed at how little I need from him

to feel complete here and now

Stirring within me

are these feelings I can't ignore

I need a miracle and that's what I'm hoping for



I need a miracle and not someone's charity now

One drop of love from him

And my heart's in ecstasy

The high that is sending me

Is most likely ending me

I need a miracle and not someone's charity now

Oh, baby



Anybody's love but his will never fill this space within me
Now doctor, give me what I need to free my heart from misery




Sunday, February 22, 2009 

Current mood:  cold
The bold lines are ones I attach meanings behind..


Dancing alone again
again the rain falling
only the scent of you remains
to dance with me


Nobody showed me how to return the love you give to me
mom never holds me dad loves a stranger more than me

I never wanted to ever bring you down
all that I need are some simple loving words


You touched my body once
it burns me still softly
never forgets
never again will be
I cry

[Repeat the rest x2]

Out of my head and I don't know what I found
over and over I feel it break me down


On the sidewalk of the city
are my screams just a whisper
busy people going nowhere
see me soak in the rain
no compassion nothing matters
my resistance is waiting
like a flower in the basement
waiting for a lonely death




Currently listening:
Silent Hill 4: The Room - Original Soundtrack
Monday, May 22, 2006 

Current mood:  thoughtful
Category: Religion and Philosophy

The Book of Exmortis

 

WHAT WAS

 

Before the dawn of man and beast, the earth realm was ruled by the Ancients. Mystical beings transcending life, death, time and reality as most mere mortals know it. The days before life and light were ruled by darkness and chaos.

 

The Ancients roamed the plane of existence, and lived on the blood of conquest and rule over lesser entities. There were many of these ruling archaic spirits, however one-by-one over many millennia, their greed and arrogance saw them turn against each other.

 

They sought blood, destruction and dominance over their own kind and many immortal sentients met their demise as a result. The consolidation of the remaining power saw the Ancients rule divided amongst the remaining three.

 

Azrael, Kfafta, and Vlaew frequently exerted their wrath and cruelty through their ferocity towards each others dominion. The blood of many was spilt as the remaining three fought against his brother for the spoils and power that they each possessed.

 

Upon the battlefield, Azraels forces reduced the armies of Vlaew to dust, culminating in long awaited glorious victory. But his compassion towards his defeated brother saw Vlaew get a reprieve from the certain destruction he faced.

 

Knowing that defeating Kfaftas forces would require many more millennia of fighting, Azrael appointed Vlaew as his general knowing that the power of two Ancients was enough to win undisputed control.

 

In a final bloody battle in the crimson sky, the penultimate confrontation played out. Kfafta not realizing that Vlaew was still corporeal and leading Azraels armies, made the grave mistake of underestimating the strength of his opponent.

 

The losses took the Kfafta forces by surprise, and before they had time to regroup, Vlaew had plunged his sword deep in to the heart of his defenses. Azraels forces streamed in to the last stronghold of Kfafta, slaying every sentient entity that stood against them.

 

Kfaftas army was eventually defeated, leaving Vlaew triumphant in his victory. His Subordinates fought ferociously, and they were to be rewarded with a unified rule over the Earth realm.

 

Azrael, holding no compassion towards Kfafta as he had Vlaew, destroyed the life force of his nemesis and claimed the kingdom as his own. With his totalitarian control, he decided that Vlaew was no longer of use to him.

 

Unfortunate for him, he did not count his armies siding with the powerful Vlaew. In a furious realization of this challenge in the face of certain ascension, the earth realm shook with the power of Azraels anger towards his armys treachery.

 

Vlaew showed no mercy towards his brother, knowing that he could not make the same mistake that Azrael made. Without hesitation, Vlaew had Azrael slain by his own ethereal hand and he assumed total control of the consolidated kingdom of the Earth realm.

 

The tyrannical rule of Vlaew lasted for many millennia with no one to challenge him. But conspire certain forces did against the soul remaining Ancient. They bode their time, recruiting supporters of the overthrowing.

 

Vlaew was ambushed and over powered by his trusted advisors but knowing that only one of his own kind could destroy him, he had his corporeal presence removed to exist for eternity in the demonic spirit form.

 

The remaining worlds of the archaic lessers were dispersed and were governed under each individuals rule. It was true chaos with no joint agenda.

 

Vlaew without corporeal form and no longer able to physically alter the world, roamed the Earth realm for the rest of existence. Diminished in power, he still had many followers to which he would spiritually combine his life force with. Instead of existing as a single powerful entity, Vlaew becoming subversively indestructible by being many. He called his new legion of existence Exmortis.

 

 

WHAT IS

 

The appearance of soul bearing creatures of flesh and blood saw in new rule within the Earth realm. Over many thousands of years, man destroyed countless lesser entities some very powerful, even some who helped overthrow Vlaews previous rule.

 

While man was physically weak in comparison to the entities of dark times, their souls gave them many advantages. And it was due to these advantages that the Earth realm entities were reduced to minimal numbers.

 

A world once ruled with strength and might was now in the hands of the weak. The handful of ancient entities sought to influence and control humanity for mutual gain. Vlaews Exmortis prospered where other entities failed purely because of their strength in numbers and wisdom of the mighty Ancient himself.

 

Together as one, the Exmortis was worshipped widely in the world of man, but human nature led to conflict and the cult of Vlaew was tragically culled and almost forgotten.

 

With every passing human year, Vlaews influence and power in the Earth realm was diminished until all that remained was what was recorded in written form. After the death of the final disciple, Vlaew and the Exmortis slept until the day humanity was ready for the anointment of his hand.

 

 

WHAT WILL BE

 

Prophecy and the word of Vlaew speak of the coming of the hand of Repose. Anointed with the blood of five, a selected man will transcend humanity and evolve to become he link between the Earth realm and Vlaews Exmortis. Awakening the Ancient from his slumber, the hand will be charged with the power to bring about the uprising of the Cult of Exmortis once again.

 

Blood, wrath, and strength will once again rule the Earth realm, and Vlaew will walk tall and rule amongst mortals as it was meant to be in the time before light and life.

 

 

RITE OF CHARGING THE HAND

 

Translated from the Aramaic Cult of Exmortis scrolls, the rite of charging the hand reads as follows.

 

                 Devoured the crimson life of five

                 Marks of Vlaew given to thee

                 Mirrored below the soul survive

                 What was, what is, and what will be.

 

 

Xavier Rehayem

c. 1890

 

 

Vlaew

Corporeal Form