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Tasha Angelia


Last Updated: 11/17/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 19
Sign: Taurus

City: Alliance
State: Nebraska
Country: US
Signup Date: 6/30/2005

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Monday, June 29, 2009 
It's been a while, none of these are mine this time though.

It's sad when people you know
become people you knew.
When you can
walk
right past someone like they were
never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to
talk for hours.
And how now, you can barely even look at them.

In [three] words i could sum up
Everything I learned about life:
it goes on.
Everything I learned about love:
it doesnt last.
and
Everything I learned about people:
they change fast.

People say damn those girls
are never apart. We say no shit
bitch
, we share the same  h e a r t .

She's just a silly girl. who keeps her hopes too high & her jeans too low. who lives by quotes & can..t ever seem to say the right thing at the right time. she's just another pretty girl looking for herself in a big world. who just wants someone to love her, & then everything would be alright.

here's to the girls & silly cries;
here's to the boys & telling lies.
sneaking out & getting caught;;
all the things that we've been taught.
laughing, parties, crazy nights;
searching for our mr. right's.
holding it down to the very end;
sisters by heart &
forever friends.

When you tell your friend that you
think you are ugly, they..ll tell you
that you are gorgeous. But, when
you tell your best friend that you are
ugly, they..ll tell you to shut up &
go put on some more make-up. =)

I want a guy that doesnt care
about what I wear or how I do my hair,
who loves my smile and my dorky laugh
and how I get hyper when I'm tired
who would never want to see me cry
-- at least not tears of sadness
&& who would do those small things
that make my day just because
he knows it would make me
happy.

if you want me, then fight for me.
because i..m fighting like hell for you.

being a [ strong person ] means knowing
that in the end, everything is going to be okay.

that..s the trick; you can't care too much. it's good
to have guys like you, but always keep them at  a
distance. never give them a chance to hurt you. <3
kiss them. flirt with them. keep them on a striing.
but never, ever, fall for one.

you don..t just "fall in love." there's a lot more to it.
first you get distracted. second, you begin to stumble.
third, you try to catch balance. & then you fall and hit
the ground. and finally, you realize there's no-one there
to help you up. so you wipe it off, fake a grin, & stand.

Your life is a Flashback...
A question, a photograph, a statement, a story,
a struggle, a chance to laugh. because if you if
you don't laugh, you cry. a last cresendo when
you die. so hit the rewind button and listen, it's
the playback; the
soundtrack to your life

okay, honestly...
i have no idea what you just said..
but you looked so cute saying it.
my life has gone in 3 directions:
up side
down

yes, a heart can hallucinate
if it's completely starved for love
it can even make monsters seem like
angels from above

i hate the fact that you say you miss me,
but you dont do anything about it


I have the kind of  friends
where if my house was on fire
they'd be standing there and
hitting on the firemen.

I’m weird with relationships
I think I know what I want then
I run. I think I run because I’m scared
I’m scared that I might get hurt
or maybe I just haven’t found someone
who I know is worth being hurt again for.

 
just when you least expect it
you start to think about how
he makes you laugh & how you
feel when you're around him
& you realize after all this
time you care about him more
then you ever thought you did

she's addicted to the song lyrics
that spill her heart out
for her

to be honest, i've never
wanted anyone as much as i want you.

I'm at a point in my life
that if I were underwater,
I doubt I'd kick to come to the top

so, make her laugh alittle and
help her get through. she used to cry
no one knew. help her out and treat her right.
it's been awhile since she's smiled so bright.
show her that not all guys lie,
and be the one that keeps her tears dry.

bad luck is my middle name.
& i have hurt me written on my forehead.

theres something different about me.
i have popular friends & some that
arent so popular. lots of people say im
pretty, but i dont try to be. i dont
wanna be the popular person with friends
who are backstabbers to them. i want
to be the person with great friends
who will never hurt me. i dont wanna be
the popular girl that every guy wants
to get with because shes sexy. i wanna
be the girl only one guys wants to get with
because he thinks im beautiful, inside & out.
i dont wanna be the girl everyone else
wants to be. i wanna be me, the person
no one else can be. im the girl thats not so
popular & proud to be me. <

I want someone to fall in love with
the way i laugh & flick my hair
.
i want someone to listen to me ramble
when i..m mad. Someone who touches
my face and kisses the back of my neck.
I want someone who loves me or atleast
holds me like they do. But I only want that..
if it's with you
.

A friend would lend you an umbrella
in the rain, but a true friend would
take yours & scream
"RUN, BITCH, RUN!!"

I think I'm afraid to be happy because
whenever you do get too happy,
I always do something to make me unhappy.

I wish it could just be simple, like a retro pop song.  "I want you to want me," boom....end of story. We  all live happily ever after. But it is never really like that, is it?
John Tucker Must Die

"Yesterday at the market I saw a couple holding hands, and I realised we would never do that. Never anything like it. No picnics or unguarded smiles. No rings. Just stolen moments that leave too quickly."
    Tristan + Isolde

I bet you didn..t know that I..m terrified of the dark, & everytime I think of you, I smile. I bet you don..t know that I hate thunderstorms, but love dancing in the rain. or how much I laugh with my friends & how much I truly enjoy being happy. I bet you don..t know how many tears I..ve cried just for you, or how much I doubt myself every day. I bet you don..t know how ticklish I am or how I can..t make decsisions & how it drives me crazy when you look into my eyes. I bet you didn..t know that I would do anything to be with you. But mostly I bet you didn..t know how much I love you.

Baby, let's slow dance
&& be the couple everyone wishes they could be.

this girl, music is her LIFE.
it was there with her through all the
drama, the breakups, the fights with
her friends. ask her to name her favorite
song, she'll name ten. when she..s been put down,
kicked around, all she has to do is put on
her headphones and walk away from it all.

i need a guy who looks at my face,
not my body. i need a guy who
accepts
the fact that my legs are always scratched
up because i play too rough. i need a
guy that puts up with my "weeks" & doesn't
start a fight about them. i need a guy who
will shoot baskets with me & won't cut
me any slack. i need a guy who takes me
to McDonald's because he doesn't have
enough money. i need a guy who is my
best friend, someone i can tell anything.
i need a guy who will treat me right

a friend asks for a ride home
a best friend hops into car saying
"HEY MOM!"

&& we're the kind of girls who happen to...
laugh for absolutely no reason at all ; attempt to dance and
sing like they do in the music videos ; make fun of eachother when
we walk into stuff ; && no matter what happens we're always
there for one another thats why were called Best Friends.

i wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
i wanna take back all the shit that i have done
but i guess you were better off without me.

they looked so happy, & i wondered,
why cant i be like that?
* The Pursuit of Happiness *

I make mistakes. I have regrets. I hate being alone. I'm always late. I can't go a day without spilling something on me. I hate school. I never call anyone back. I don't like being wrong. I'm a huge procrastinator. I act like I'm a lot smarter than I actually am. I hate being ignored. I cry. I'm shy. I can't start a conversation with anyone. I have enemies. I can't sing. I have horrible balance. I laugh way too loud. I can't look anyone in the eye. Many things just seem to get to me.
I'm not perfect.

He’s right, I’m afraid. There’s a part of me that wants to let him in but then I feel myself pull up this wall & I don’t understand why. Maybe that’s what strikes me most about him, that despite everything he's suffered, he can still look at life in the most uncomplicated way. I’ve never known that kind of faith. It makes me so sad that people who have lost everything can still be open to love, while I, who’s lost nothing,
can not
* Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants *

i like that you ramble when you're nervous.
i like that i know that you do.

Friendship for example, is a real gift. It's given with no expectations
and no gratitude is needed, not between real friends
– Mr. Feeny :: Boy Meets World

When someone tells you you're not good enough
thats when you know you're better
.

All girls are suspicious of girls that are just friends
because we know the guys we've had that were
just friends we once though of as more than a friend


Tuesday, June 02, 2009 
She cuts herself to forget him
And every time her wounds get deeper
Tonights the night she's gonna shed her skin
Cause she's thinkin that he doesn't need her
She's wishin all this would end
And she's gonna try to take her own life again

Wait, I know your hearts been shattered
But there's someone worth the wait
There's so much more that matters
And I know you will be alright, just try
to love the little things in life
Like running in the rain


He drinks alone to forget her
And every time the room starts spinning
He starts to thinkin 'bout where they were
When she told him that she doesn't need him
He's wishin all this would end
And he's gonna try to take his own life again

Wait, I know your hearts been shattered
But there's someone worth the wait
There's so much more that matters
And I know you will be alright, just try
to love the little things in life
Like running in the rain

She's wishin all this would end
And he's gonna try to take his own life again

Wait, I know your hearts been shattered
But there's someone worth the wait
There's so much more that matters
And I know you will be alright, just try
to love the little things in life
Like running in the rain

Running in the rain


But I know you will be alright, just try
to love the little things in life
Like running in the rain
Saturday, May 09, 2009 
Ones in "" are mine. :]

Since the first time he ran his fingers through my hair, since the first time his hugs eased my pain and since the first time his kisses took my breath away, I knew there was no one else for me..<3

True safety is only found in the arms of the one you love.

Love never fails.

Baby will you be my corona and lime, and I will be your main squeeze.

Never say goodbye. Because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting...

I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me.

I will be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away.

Sometimes... Not being in control is the most beautiful thing in the world...

I'm either always fighting to hold on, or fighting to let go..

"And I never saw it possible, never thought it'd happen, but when you kissed me babe, I realized even the impossible is possible. <3"

"It's funny how we use to rag on the friends that ditched us. We were never really in love then were we? Cuz now, Looking at them, We're the same way they were, only years behind them."

"When he said he could ruin the relationship with the person I should be with.. I knew we both realized you and I were perfect."
Monday, April 13, 2009 
I hope youre doing fine out there without me
Cause Im not doing so good without you
The things I thought youd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

Everything I have in this world and all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I cant take another day without you
Cause baby I could never make it on my own

Ive been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I cant always find the words to say
Everything Ive ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

Everything I have in this world and all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I see time is standing still for me
When youre not here
Sorry I cant always find the words to say
Everything Ive ever known is swept away
Inside of your love

Everything I have in this world and all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

Everything I have in this world and all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me.........

Sunday, March 29, 2009 
"Save You"


Take a breath

I pull myself together

Just another step till I reach the door

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away



Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know



When I hear your voice

Its drowning in a whisper

It's just skin and bones

There's nothing left to take

And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand



Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know



That if you fall, stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I'll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall

Oh you know I'll be there for you



(Ahahaha)

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away



Sometimes i wish i could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

(Oh)

I wish I could save you

I want you to know

(Ohohh)

I wish I could save you (oh)



Monday, March 02, 2009 
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And my scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel



Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is



[Chorus:]

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel



I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last stand



[Chorus]



I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever come around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause you're drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself



I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life



[Chorus x2]
Friday, February 13, 2009 

I'm not even asking you to stay forever. Just be here tonight and hold me till the dawn breaks over and I know it's alright.

I wanna cuddle with you under the stars and wish on every single one we'll be together forever.

I want to be the girl who can always make you lose your breath, and the only one you hold.

Don't just say you love me, make me believe it.

Perfect would be cuddled up on the couch, watching disney movies and you teling me that you'll be my prince charming..<33
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure.
and at time I'm hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at my worst,
Then you sure as hell
Don't deserve me at my best.
-Marilyn Monroe.

Andd you're the only thing I can't get enough of...

I wanna be the girl that's good for him, You know the one he changes for and the one where even if I'm not physically with him; I'm always on his mind and he thinks I'm the best thing that has ever happened to him. [Laguna Beach]


Always hold your head up high, even if on the inside you're about to cry. Pretend nothing's wrong at all. Close your eyes before you fall. If you can't see it, it's not there.


Andd for a complicated girl she ain't that hard to figure out.


-Slipping under the waters embrace, Hold your breath sweetheart-

She kept it hidden well until she cracked and then she fell.

I close my eyes to block it out, not the pain, but how much I really this to end.

She doesn't believe in giving up but she's almost had enough.






..............


....






Tuesday, February 10, 2009 
25 Random Things About Me

Normally a facebook thing, but yeah.

1. I clean when I'm upset, but inbetween I can be a huge slob.
2. I've pretty much had the same friends since kindergarten.
3. I have the most amazing boyfriend ever and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him.
4. If I could I would pack up and move. I wouldn't even care where.
5. I fall for people too fast, but attach at a much slower rate.
6. I'm definitely not a materialistic person.
7. I'm no where near high maintence. But I like to look good.
8. I can't stand silence at all. I have to have some type of background noise.
9. I hate working but if I don't work more than two days I go insane.
10. My emotions are written all over my face almost all of the time. Unless I seriously choose to hide them.
11. I'm very stubborn and it takes a lot to get me to admit I'm wrong.
12. I have a blanket that I have to sleep with every night.
13. I love the snow, and hate summer.
14. I sleep a hell of a lot better if there if someone else is in my bed with me.
15. I miss every single thing about my last year of highschool. Even the fights I went through.
16. I would rather watch a scary movie than a chick flick.
17. I like to run with music playing and no one around.
18. I love to cook.
19. I love to dye my hair.
20. I really like to get creative, but things never turn out how I want them to.
21. I hate the color red.
22. I'm addicted to jeans, hoodies, and shoes.
23. Invader Zim and Family Guy are the only cartoons I really like.
24. Candles make me happy.
25. I have an overly good memory.


Woo.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009 
My new profile song.

Anywhere but here - Safetysuit
Is this the end of the moment

Or just a beautiful unfolding

Of a love that will never be?

Or maybe be

Everything that I never thought could happen

Or ever come to pass and

I wonder

If maybe

Maybe I could be

All you ever dreamed, cause you are



Beautiful inside

So lovely and I

Cant see why I’d do anything without you, you are

And when I’m not with you

I know that it’s true

That I’d rather be anywhere but here without you



Is this a natural feeling

Or is it just me bleeding

All my thoughts and dreams

In hope that you will be with me or

Is this a moment to remember

Or just a cold day in December?

I wonder

If maybe

Maybe I could be

All you ever dreamed, cause you are



Beautiful inside

So lovely and I

Can't see why I’d do anything without you, you are

And when I’m not with you

I know that it’s true

That I’d rather be anywhere but here without you



Is this the end of the moment

Or just a beautiful unfolding

Of a love that will never be

For you and me?



Cause you are

You’re beautiful inside

You’re so lovely and I

Can't see why I’d do anything without you, you are

And when I’m not with you, I know that it’s true

That I’d rather be anywhere but here without you.

And my wonderful boyfriend.
:]


Saturday, January 31, 2009 

When people put me exactly where they are on my top, Lol. And then notify me that I've been moved on their top lol. Like it's suppose to hurt my feelings and make me move them back up. Lol. It's not, seriously. It doesn't hurt my feelings and I don't need notified, I can snoop on my own. :]

BTWWW!!



Wednesday, January 28, 2009 
Writers Block
Three Happy Things

There's the days stuff.
Work soon.


Wednesday, January 28, 2009 

Current mood:  annoyed
Yesterday

Writers Block
Three Happy Things

Today
Poem - "Hide"

Thats all I got for you. I didn't do writers block today because I can't figure out my pet peeve. Can't exactly think of three things that are happy today.

Magine that?


Tuesday, January 27, 2009 
You know you love someone when; no matter how much you fight you always make up; no matter how mad they make you, you can't help but love them; anddd no matter how hard you try they're impossible to live without.

Andd if one day you start to realize we haven't talked in a while, remember you pushed me away.

I know what it's like when memories make you wince and love letters read like obituaries and photo albums are books from the dead. I don't need no reminders I'll forget the past and lay it to rest.

She's just another junkie in runnings for maniac of the year.

I learned how to play the fucking game.

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds..



Saturday, January 24, 2009 
Three Happy Things
Writers Block

I'm in a fairly good mood. I've been up for 12 hours now and I'm not even tired which is amazing, maybe I've been overly sleeping.

Found the that three happy things make me look for good things everyday, so I'ma keep doing those..
Let's see anything else new?

I got a test and two math assignments to do by tomorrow and a lovely english assignment, wait two, due by Monday.
Anyone willing to do them for me?!

I kid.


Wednesday, January 21, 2009 
Three Happy Things
Writers Block

Check those out, there are some other things too, but those are just fun things. :]

Pretty good mood today, not sure why. But hey, it happens and I'm glad.

Tasha Angelia