HELLO EVERYBODY THIS IS JONATHAN. JUST WANTED TO THANK EVERY ONE WHO IS KEEPING ME IN THEIR PRAYERS. THERE IS POWER IN PRAYER. MY BROTHER BROUGHT HIS LAPTOP TO MY HOSPITAL ROOM JUST SO THAT I COULD LET EVERYONE KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. I WENT TO TAKE MY TRASH OUT TO THE CURB MON. NIGHT AROUND 10PM. AS I WAS DOING THIS A CAR PULLED UP RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME AND I NOTICED THERE WAS LOTS OF MOVEMENT INSIDE THE CAR. THE PASSENGER GOT OUT AND WALKING TOWARD ME WITH A GUN IN HAND AND BASICALLY SAID"YOU BETTER EMPTY ALL YOUR POCKETS OUT RIGHT NOW OR ELSE." I SAID "WHAT" THINKING TO MYSELF "YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING ME". HE THEN SAID "I AIN'T GONNA TELL YOU AGAIN, MAN I'LL KILL YOU" TO WHICH I SAID, "YOU WILL ONLY DO WHAT GOD ALLOWS YOU TO DO" THE GUN WAS NO MORE THAN 2 FEET FROM MY CHEST WHEN HE PULLED THE TRIGGER. HE TOOK OFF AND I BEGAN TO REALIZE "OH MY GOD, YOU'VE ALLOWED THIS, I'VE REALLY JUST BEEN SHOT!" I PUT MY HAND OVER MY CHEST AND FELT THE BLOOD GUSHING OUT OF MY CHEST. I THOUGHT I'D BEEN SHOT IN THE HEART BECAUSE EVERYTIME MY HEART BEAT, THE BLOOD JUST GUSHED OUT OF MY CHEST. I SAID "LORD FORGIVE HIM, HE HAS NO IDEA WHAT HE'S DONE. NOW BEFORE YOU GO THINKING I'M ALL HOLY, LET ME JUST SAY THAT I SAID THIS MORE FOR MYSELF THAN FOR THE GUY. As we judge we are judged, as we forgive we are forgiven. I KNEW IT WAS THE RIGHT THING TO DO AND I DIDN'T THINK I'D HAVE TIME TO DO IT LATER SO I JUST GAVE IT TO GOD. MY CHEST FELT LIKE IT WAS GOING TO EXPLODE! I WAS QUICKLY LOSING BREATH AND BY THE TIME I GOT TO MY NEIGHBOR'S DOOR AND KNOCKED, I COULD NO LONGER STAND. I WAS BANGING ON THE DOOR SO HARD MY FIST WENT THRU THE GLASS DOOR. FINALLY A KID CAME TO THE DOOR AND I TOLD HIM "CALL 911 I'VE BEEN SHOT". THE KID WENT BACK INSIDE AND I JUST SPENT THE NEXT FEW MINUTES LAYING THERE ON THE FRONT PORCH THANKING GOD FOR MAKING ME READY FOR THIS DAY. YOU SEE, FOR MANY YEARS I'VE WANTED TO BE AT THE POINT WHERE I HAD POWER OVER MY FLESH, POWER OVER MY THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS. TO LIVE IN VICTORY NOT DEFEAT. TO MAKE CHRIST YOUR SAVIOR IS EASY, TO MAKE HIM YOUR LORD TAKES STRENGTH. I'VE FINALLY SURRENDERED MY WILL A FEW MONTHS AGO AND HAVE BEEN CLOSER TO GOD THAN EVER BEFORE IN MY LIFE. REALIZING THE PEACE THAT PASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING. A JOY THAT IS NOT DEPENDANT ON MY CIRCUMSTANCES. I THANKED GOD FOR MAKING ME READY. I SAID "GOD I THANK YOU SO MUCH THAT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OF LIVING IN DEFEAT YOU DIDN'T ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN. YOU WAITED UNTIL YOU MADE ME TOTALLY READY TO COME HOME TO YOU BEFORE YOU ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN." I HAD TOTAL PEACE, NO FEAR AND WAS TOTALLY READY TO MEET MY MASTER AND THERE IS NOTHING LIKE HAVING THAT KIND OF PEACE. ABOUT THAT TIME I REMEMBERED THAT GOD HAD TOLD ME IN THE PAST THAT SOMETHING WOULD BE HAPPENING IN MY FUTURE THAT HAD NOT HAPPENED YET, SO UPON REMEMBERING THIS I REALIZED I COULD NOT YET DIE BECAUSE THAT HAD NOT YET HAPPENED. I'M VERY BLESSED AND I THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND BLESSINGS. PLEASE PRAY THAT GOD WOULD JUST USE THIS SITUATION TO TOUCH THE HEARTS OF THOSE WHO HEAR IT. BECAUSE THAT IS WHY HE ALLOWED IT TO HAPPEN.