So im watching this crappy movie, and I decided to walk to the gas station and get some ice cream. I walk to the gas station, and enter all regular like. When I enter the clerk says there's a dude passed out in the parking lot. No big deal. Like any other midwestern place, people here like their alcohol a bit more than they probably should. So I, like everyone else would at 6 am, go look, because well, its always interesting. I walk up, dudes car is still running. there's an ems guy who's also looking at him, but he's off duty. We deduce that the guys car is still in drive, and he's actually just bumping against the curb. Me and the ems decide that reaching in to wake the guy would be a bad plan, cuz dude could jump and hit the gas and jump the curb so we yell and knock on the window and such. Dude fails to wake up. We continue to stand a safe distance aways and try and figure a way to awaken this guy before the police arrive. We fail. The police officer pulls up, accesses the situation, reaches in and turns the key off. Problem solved. He kinda shakes dude awake, and dude looks at me, and then I realize, I kinda know this guy. Went to high school with him, seen him at a few shows kinda deal. He looked at me all confused, and I say "dude, we couldn't wake you up. You were mad passed out." And walk on to my house. Im pretty sure dude got arrested.

So I over heard this exchange at one point.
"So and so was so negative and depressing, so I don't talk to them."
If someone wh calls themselves your friend ever says this to you, they are not your friend. They are not anybodys friend. they will abandon you when life gets real. They're basically telling you this to your face. If you're countin g on this person talk you down from the ledge, just go head and jump, because they won't want to be bothered by you raining on their good day.
Just keep that in mind

excerpt from youhatemyblog.livejournal.com
So, tonight, I decided clean underwear and socks were more important
than warmth and decidedto venture out to the laundrymat. Now like all
good laundry mats, hobos hang out here to survive winter nights. Never
had issues with this. Untill tonight. Normally they're pretty low key.
Well, tonight, I get out my car and one was outside smoking, talking to
himself loudly and such. I just kept it moving and loading up my
washers. Shortly after, another one walks in loking pretty dapper in a
suit. I continue on in headphone land. I am statled free from my
internal dialogue by something slamming into a machine. I look up to
see a real life bum fight. Then I realize the semi crazy one had a
knife, and suit one did not. They keep wrestling oneventually crazy
drops the knife, and they fight on. One of the other patrons call the
police, and the swansea cops of course are fast as hell getting in, and
diffuse the situation, but not before I get 3 guns pointed at me. Then
I have to give a statement and enjoy my serenity disturbed. And then,
the almost stabbed guy doesn't wanna press charges. Which is stupid.
Except I don't have to goto court as a witness thankfully.

Because of work schedules, tonight will probably be as close as I come to a new years celebration. Well, outing. Lets go with outing. Tonight is the last night the doors to the creepy crawl will be open. The creepy crawl was the first venue in st louis I saw a show at. It was the first venue outside of belleville I did a show at. Even after the move, its easily my favorite venue across the river. So tonight, to cap off what has been a statistically improbable and all around disappointing year, im gonna go hang out one last time at the creepy crawl. Fuck 2008

rist off, theres an interview from a while ago that just surfaced. you should go listen to it. its excellent
http://www.rhymetorrents.org/VDiP/VDiP_5point5_whoremoans.mp3

also, the next round of projects is underway, and this years gonna be an adventure. i plan to make up for only one release in 08 (heightened titans. if you havent checked it out, please do) with a bunch in 09.
starting with...
whoremoans hearts you: hopefully februar. definately free.
so be ready.

So here are some exercpts from the novel I wrote on the florida trip. Im not posting the whole thing like last time, just the good parts...

Todays road trip is brought to you by utorrent, and by social ineptness(im sorry cute girl who works at schmucks who really likes my hair. The fact I managed to say "thank you." Politely is an achievement, even when I wanted to say, "I like yours too actually, and your face, wanna make out?"
Well, I started off with paper trails by t.I. I personally think he's better than lil wayne far and away. Me and less have had this argument. I just do not feel wayne at all, and I think tip is one of the better mainstream rappers.
So this road trip already sucks 15 minutes in. There's mad state troopers out and its pretty weak. Also im already hungry. Got these vanilla milkshake poptarts, but its too much sugar. I guess im definitely getting old.
I find it sad that at this point I wanna get a girlfriend so someone will help drive these rediculous road trips and make the miles less boring. Im not selfish, im realistic. Its all about finding someone your shortcomings. Mines gonna happen right about atlanta, maybe sooner cuz im mad bored already. Stupid monotonous scenery.
And I hate songs about picking girls up at clubs. They bore the shit outta me. (Porn star by ti)
So I just pulled down the visor and got hit with the a burned plies cd. Awesome. Now I gots a frisbee.

Holy shit. Opposite me, on 57 n there's a traffic jam that's a bout 10 miles long, no exagg no bull. Also, cross the line by john legend made me laugh, only cuz it made me cry on the inside alittle. Fuck I shoulda stopped in mt vernon, cuz im middle of nowhere so. Ill. And the gas light just came on. Either way, john legend, show me how to cross the line out of the friend zone thank you. Ugh... so I just stopped at this spot I've stopped at once before for gas, straight boonie ass price gouging redneck gas station, but I had no choice. 1.99 a gallon. If I was in civilization, id let em know about this bitchassness. Its a spot on the tunnel hill/goreville exit off of 24. Never stop here. Ever.
Digital gangster was dope. I think k.flay kinda stole the show with her first and secnd guest spots though. So I googled her, and now have a crush. Someone should make this happen. Now ima go with chinese democracy. Its been a long time coming. I better come myself from awesomeness.

So I just passed appleton tennessee which of course reminded me of alley cats strike, the old disney orginal movie about bowling. Old disney movies used to be the shit.
So chinese democracy aint bad. Im relistening to it to further absorb. Also, im getting propositioned on aim. Why is noone who is actually where im at or where im headed propositioning me. Always someone likely to not have to own up to it.

So I started the new jacks mannequin. Cuz I wanna sound gangster rolling through atl. Aint no fronting in me. PussyXcore ftw.
So people have been talking to me for alittle bit to keep me awake. I think the engines gonna lock up though. Im blastin early november. Like I said, pussyXcore. I should be in stopping land before it finishes their discog though.trying to get cute grls to come to shows is hard. Also, I love how all these states and counties and towns are named after the native americans the killed or ran off the land to get it. That's like salt in the wound.
I would like to say maybes are the gayest answer. Basically its like saying hey, let me toy with your hope. Either ima let you hope high and be like nope. Sucks to be you. Or its a I was gonna do it the whole time but it wanted you to think higher of me when it happened cuz I seem more benevolent. Fuck a maybe. Maybe can eat a big box of dicks.
Also, gated communites are shitty and a half. Seriously. You need to make it a big production just to get to your house? Fuck that. More bitchassness.
So I made it alive. Im watching the lions get destroyed. Quick question, why are we advertising anti obesity spots like its a disease. Like its cancer research or aids or something. Embarrassing. Wanna commit to fighting childhood obesity? Feed the kids real food and not fast food, and then don't keep feeding them.
I hate thanksgiving halftime shows. And the jonas brothers. Did they hunt for three most generic people ever and say, hey, you're a band. Atleast hanson was catchy, and had the one that everyone thought was a girl.
I missed churros so bad. Soooooo bad. I remember one harold and kumarish night unable to find any churros. In thee whole metro area. Thank god for road trips, or I may never have had another one.

A little bit of melancholy never really did hurt anybody. Even if it is a sickness im oddly convinced atleast its honest.
-dessa

I find it hilarious that im 22 and first kisses still confuse and fascinates me. Having never experienced the marriage kiss, this is the most important kiss of the relationship, and sometimes the hardest to guage. Like chris rock said, its like doublt dutch. Do I go yet, no, yes, is that it, bam. (I never learned how to double dutch. So the analogy makes extra sense to me). Plus, I still kinda want that speciality to it. stupid hollywood endings in my head. I also think the best part of any relationship is the makeout cuddle part. Before the sex. When there's a closeness, but still a playfullness and innocence. Sex, while enjoyable, seems to burden a lot of relationships by making them more serious before they're ready and slightly dirtying them. Most times. I love how people hate on my car till I point out that a) it gets 30 mpg in the city, and b)its 20 years old, has logged 80k miles in 2 years, and still runs with only minor issues. Mccain supporters tipped waaaaaay better then obama supporters. Rediulously so. And that's the only economy I care about. I have the urge to start drawing again, and yet I donot. Odd Low brass, like bass clef brass, is probably the sexiest sounding of all instruments. Tuba solos, trombone concertos, these things should be done more. If I go back to school, I think it'll be for a history degree and not for music. I wish someone would rob some common sense into the people with rims so big that have to get a lift on their car. Accident babies are te best ones. They always have a chip on their shoulder, just trying to prove they were worth it.

I decided to keep a running diary of my weekend with the frontalot/las/ytcracker tour. This is it

12:55pm, saturday. im finally all loaded up and ready to leave. In the car and all. Its crazy cuz they gave me this impala, and the car is huuuuge. It makes me feel even smaller and more insignificant than normal. Also, im only on lebanon ave and already getting a little car sick. Large cars aint my thing. Anyways, I have a few stops to make before hitting 55. Ima go get some gloves, hunt some plain hats without having to cross the river, and best buy for a 1/8 inc to rca cable.(fuck radio shack cables) and some cds maybe. I've already realized I forgot my solver sharpie I stole from front in orlando. Also, first album to be played was none shall pass by aesop rock. Thought id try to decode it. Really wish I had a chaeffer... I mean friend to help with the ride. Im already not into this ride.
1:37 so I hadn't even made it out of fairview heights and I realized I had forgot the paper from the rental place... so back home. Also I spent 50 dollars already on the neccesities. I bought gloves thatre 38 dollars. One of my big things is reciever gloves, because the tacky on them makes them the best gloves for handling money. And I bought the new bayside cd. Time to see how they've changed in 5 years with a new drummer after the dead one and such. Kinda hungry now. Also, npr is doing a thing about the cinematic scares people have occurred as children. Interesting... reminds me of the xioalin showdown episode where omi was scared of squirrels. That cartoon wasn't bad. Not great, but it was watchable. Better than what they replaced it with im sure.
2:01 got the paper. Ima carry npr out till it fades. Yay liberal media. Atleast they don't shout.
2:32 so apparently sarah palin doesn't know if africa is a continent or country. Who's shocked? Really, really? Anyone? Maybe if her and bust had a baby, it would be so significantly stupid, it would prove evolution through reverse engineering. She cute though.
3:01 bayside I chose you.
3:34 springfield il fails the "how fast can I find non fast food" test. I settle for chinese. Im still playing bayside, and im not quite sure how I feel. Took way too long to get to the guitar solos. And not enough over the top morbid. Im getting tired, but I haven't been fluiding properly. Ill get gas and rectify. Yay for 2 dollar gas. Damn republican price gougers. 28 at the gas station, 6 for the curry shrimp, and im out springfield at 3:56 with the rest of the bayside cd.
3:58 first highway cop sighting
4:17 we now start the hard part.
4:32 maaaaaaaaaaaan there is nothing out here. So bored. Thanks to lizzie, madhatter, and misterb for keeping me from looking at the road and therefore awake. Also mt dew livewire. I forgot how you got me to florida 2 summers ago, but you are my frind. Just please, no hallucinations this time. Since im headed to chicago, im playing take this to your grave by fall out boy. Trying to get the chi city feel.
5:09 rest area. Maybe 100 miles out of chi. I want a nap. And fall back. Its 36º and windy. Or as I like to say, cold. I have now moved to alkaline trio, from here to infirmary. I gotta remember not to use up my voice singing along. Also, I think ima puke. So I called dj pome for the third time in as many day and no answer. I guess he's out the proceedings as well. So there's a second person to drop out without so much as a "naw, I don't think I can make homie". Here's hoping I can rustle up a couch to sleep on. +5 punk... sorry ... punx. Anyways, darkness fell, so now I can't go 100 cuz the cops are invisible. I hate winter. And cops. Equally. That's why they call it a union. Over the course of this trip I have deduced my trip to florida will probably kill me. And suv/truck headlights still hurt, and im sitting probably a foot higher off the ground than I did in my car.
5:39 -2 more dollars on sodas.
6:09 dunkin donuts sighting near joliet. And pilot restrooms are so much cleaner than just about any other gas station. -2 dollars for donuts. I just realized I stopped at the exact exit they had towed my car to when I broke down last time I journeyed to chicago. Atleast this time I have a heavy coat if I break down so I won't be cold. hooray for planning ahead. Just put in the original mastered titans mix. Its getting remastered right now, after people listened to it on release and said the levels were all over the place. Also joliet always makes me think of the blues brothers
7:01 I thought maybe I had shat myself or someone had shat in the car, but no, chicago just smells like granite city mixed with sewage plants. Not as bad as philly, but close. And the traffic starts 5 miles after joliet. So its definitely a real city. Im envious. St louis is more a loose confederation of sections.
7:21. Somewhere on fullerton. Holy shit. I been listening to that shit for 6 years. And now im on fullerton. Yes. This matter to me. A lot. Of course im listening to last stop suburbia. Im also lost as shit. And laughing at chi payin a dollar more in gas. So were even.
8:19. Ok so we been waiting on the show, that dosnt start at 8:30 but isn't actually till 1030. There's a magnificent art gallery of cardboard city. And people who are slowly filing in. Its pretty cool.
12:55 am, sunday. So I got off a bit ago. Int80(dualcore) killt it. Without the skirt. I went on second. I really didn't think I did that good, and the crowd wasn't really that into it, there was pockets and such, but yeah, as a whole, it was alright. So I missed a lot of ffbs set, on the cool down process. Then I got cold and went for hot chocolate. -4 dollars. Of course I missed mc lars set, the only person I had never seent live. Way to fail. Well I found a floor to crash on. Ben from ffb gave up his personal space to like everyone. I personally will crash. Unless that cute chick from ohio wants to chat. Well not from ohio thankfully, just learning there. Ohio girls are losses. Like mascoutah girls. Cept there's more of them. I wanna freestyles.
5:38. There's a party. Kinda. Everyones kinda talking and shiz. Ytc is gaming on broads and such. Kids are playing smash and such. Im kinda tired and shit and I dunno. One girl is dope. Like super dope. And... yt is in. Stupid social ky. Slides into conversations. int80 sleeps like he's meditating.
6:28 so im still awake just listening to ytc operate. its effective. Like super effective
1:44 pm. Awake like after a few starts and stops. And there's no pancakes it looks like. Also, I just realized this one chick looks like jish's sister. Like spot on. Cept you know, nicer. Atleast to me. So her and her friend were arguing back and forth all night on when to leave to go back to ohio. Ytc sucked them into his vortex of attention. And they just now propelled out the gravity well. There's a definite cool down that has occurred. Not so much craziness now. Just watching football and such. Actually, the pancakes are happening. -5 dollars oj
7:13pm we have beent arrived in dekald. Got food on the way. -10 dollars. So apparently there's 9 million openers and were all only doing 10 minute sets. You should see the excitement on my face. Its clearly visible. Jumping for joy and such. The place is pretty badass though.
7:43. I just ate a chicken gyro, some wings, and baklava from this spot tom and jerrys. The gyro wasn't nearly as good as lillys in fairview, but the wings were pretty good and the baklava is badass. Im not looking forward to this as its looking more and more like a super short set. I want a nap honestly. Maybe its still the after show letdown from last night. Or the hate to go back home. I dunno. I wanna nap for reals tho. Ima go camp out on the balcony and nap. Also, I saw a the urge sticker up on the balcony. Good times. Im cold. Currently listening to black sails in the sunset by afi
1010 pm just got off. Felt much better than chi. Only half as many people. Former fat boys is on stage and kicking ass pretty hard. I just kinda wish some his songs didn't have the vox on the backup. Makes it hard to undeRstand. Also, I want his mc hammer shirt. Hammer is the only rapper to really try and bring up his hood, and he had the sickest live shows.
Monday, 12:24 am. So its the last song I think maybe I dunno, and im dreading the work situation. This show was fun. There was like a 5 minute freestyle session between I, int80, and luke ski. It was super fun. Also I received significant ego boosting from someone, and it was one of those hard to ignore or brush off conversation. Which is of course damn near impossible to do. Then someone said I look like malcolm jamal warner. Reverse trend.
1:17 am. Pulling out. Got all my free cds and handed out all of em to others. Listening to final boss by the front for the first time. Also, there's a tom sparks buick of dekalb, which reminded me of the tom slick shorts that used to be in the old george of the jungle shows. I wish I could find these on dvd. Also, north illinois pays a lot more than I do for gas. Also, im lost.
1:59 I hate north illinois roads and tolls and such. Also tmobiles lack of a map function like every other comapy has. -4 dollars in tolls, 4 in soda and snack.
4:16 gas and nasty donuts. Snacks was 4. Gas was 30. Im not sure what town im in. I wanna say bloomington.

I stopped after this to fight off the sleep while driving. I made it home alive around 7.
There's pics to be looked at.