Remembering

I remember amazement

I remember walking down that hall way everyday

I remember going from getting a grin to a smile

I remember even getting the wave

I remember walking in and seeing her in the office

I remember the feeling of my heart about to pop outta my chest

I remember becoming friends

I remember just walking next to her everyday

I remember the walking next to, with her hand in mine

I remember the longest and greatest talks ever

I remember my lips touching hers for the first time

I remember having all that love

I remember loosing it just as quickly as I had it

I remember doing what I could to just keep holding on to it

I remember the day she said she could never look at me the same

I remember it was my fault my heart was broken

I remember hating myself for making the biggest mistake of my life

I remember wondering when she was coming back

I remember thinking if we would see each other again

I remember when she finally returned

I remember being so hot cause her windows wouldn’t go down and laughing

I remember how great that day was cause it was the last time we would hang out in forever

I remember telling her I would call when I got back into town

I remember being to much of a coward to follow through

I remember finding out I was to late

I remember reading that email after so much time had passed

I remember just wondering what if

I remember not seeing myself worthy, not then and even less now

I remember hearing someone tell me " don’t hold your breath"

I’ll never NOT remember all these moments….but is that all that we’ll ever have

Probably, but she’s the most cherished and embedded part of my soul

THE LIGHT

Been so long since these eyes caught a glimpse of it

So hard to even focus, the pain is excruciating

And at the same time I can't stop trying to see

Just try a lil harder, don't give up

Its like, at any moment its gonna be so clear

Stuck in the dark for so long with nothing

But your own echo to keep you company

Even though you new there was something more

Just sitting right outside

Why was I, and even still, a lil bit scared of stepping out

Its time now, I'm finally ready

You can even feel the warmth of it embracing your very soul

As long I as can maintain the courage, its gonna happen

What awaits is so unimaginable, all the many possibilities

Just walking towards it, and knowing that within it lies my future

My success, my love, my family

Who wouldn't be afraid of all of that

First step to acknowledgement is acceptance of that

Which has kept me in the darkness of my own cave

My eyes suddenly are adjusting

And I don't think I've ever seen anything so beautiful

It's at the very root of was makes us stronger

Of what feeds our ambition and life…………

THE LIGHT