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Stephanie Smith


Last Updated: 6/15/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 24
Sign: Scorpio

City: Jacksonville
State: Alabama
Country: US
Signup Date: 7/9/2007

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November 30, 2008 - Sunday 

Current mood:  distraught
I was driving my old Camry on a long trip. The car was packed full of my belongings, ready to go home. I came besides a river. It was huge across. Somehow I wanted to cross to the other side so badly.
         Suddenly, there was a bridge a few yards away. Its kind was not any I have ever seen before. It was a metal chainlink road with no railings, like these metal fences you often see around to keep pets inside. I could see that it was made out of several sections across that seems to move apart a few inches with tiny links holding them together. The bridge was rusty, thus making it so risky to drive across. I still drove over the bridge anyway. Getting closer to the other side, I felt the bridge suddenly drop to the level of the water.
        Terrified, I looked up. I saw one section of the bridge managed to stay up there. Somehow it popped in my mind to try to jump the car onto that section to get to the other side. I knew it wasn't possible, but I still tried it. To my amazement, I did succeed at a point. The front wheels got on the section, but sadly the car couldn't get more on. I could feel the back wheels lower into the raging river. I screamed in my mind, "Get me out of here!!! Get me out of here!!!"
        I am watching the car sink. How is this possible? How did I get out? I am on the other side that I desparately tried to reach. Seconds passed. One thought only existed in my mind at that moment. "No! Noooooo! My laptop!!!"

The End
5:36 PM 
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November 30, 2008 - Sunday 

Current mood:wistful
I dreamed that I was walking with a group of people from work. I don't know what work was. We were chatting. Talking. Laughing. "What can I do with a puppy?" a man asked. "My ex gave me the dog shortly before we broke up. I need to give it away."

"Oh! What kind of puppy is it? I love dogs!" I excitedly asked him. I have to admit he was a cute guy, but somehow I focused on the puppy. He shrugged in that sexy way. He was familiar to me, but I couldn't recall who he was. He didn't look like any of the guys I was hanging out with, usually.

"You can come over to my place and check her out." he said wearily. I grinned and went along with him and a few others. I got a feeling that the others just came to keep busy or maybe they didn't want to go home. Must be some problems at home. Huh? I saw a Jack Russel dog coming toward us. Not my type at all!!

Disappointed, I walked away from the group. I saw a rapid movement on my left side. A huge dog scared the shit out of me, jumping at me like that! My hand got caught in its fur, making me feel like purring. So soft and thick! I looked more closely at the dog and realized it was my favorite kind of dog, a Chow Chow. She was so cute, licking all over my face. "That is the one. What do you think?" the man appeared and asked. "Her? You mean this is yours? So cute! Can I have her?" I asked excitedly. "Well, if you have $250 to buy her, sure you can." "What?!!! You never said anything about selling her! Well, I can't afford that. I would need that much to feed her and take care of her." "Oh well. Too bad." Ugh...what an asshole!!!

"Do you have papers for her pedigree?" "Huh? No Sara didn't give me anything like that. Should I have some?" "Well yeah if you are expecting to sell her as a purebred dog, you need proof. You can go to the vet and pay the costs to write up legal papers. It probably would cost around 500 dollars." "No way in hell!!!" "Hey baby, do you have a name? Hmmm?" "She doesn 't have one." "Well, how about Maxie? It does fit you. Oh yea Maxie. You remind me of all the dogs I had in my childhood; Max, Bama, Missy, Blacky, Nicki, Zach, Boozer...How I wish I could have you."

The End
5:28 PM 
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October 1, 2007 - Monday 

Current mood:  melancholy

"Have to let you go"

Awful words to say

Awful to hear

My heart stopped

No, no please don't

"Have to go improve

Myself before getting involved"

Love is unconditional

I love you no matter what

I don't care if your life

Sucks at this point

I just want to be with you

So lonely being free

Looking at other couples

How lucky they are

Considering the dating scene

So hard, so painful

I tried my best to delete you

But you stole my heart

I can't get it back

No matter how hard I try

You are there in my heart

I can't cast you out

Can't excorise you from my mind

I don't want to see you

I am afraid that the only way

I'll get over you if that

Forever is finished.

6:16 PM 
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July 15, 2007 - Sunday 

Current mood:  peaceful
Category: Writing and Poetry

Oranges

Browns

Greens

Beautiful yet calming

Sights to die for

Gently blowing

Swaying trees

Leaves floating

On the wind

Warm one day

Cold the next

Confusing weather

But endearing to one

Best part of the year

Time when one's soul

Is in limbo

Not bad, nor good

Just there to be

No interferences

No botherances

Just existing...

6:47 AM 
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July 15, 2007 - Sunday 

Current mood:  depressed
Category: Writing and Poetry

Silent as ever

Feelings held inside

Trapped as ever

No one to talk to

Love in hearts united

Yet no connection

Heavenly declarations of love

Drowning in desire

Friends first

Talking and laughing

Confessing secrets

Comforting each other

Developing attratction

Between us

Best friends becoming

Lovers at the end

More silent than before

No more talking and laughing

Living apart

Painfully no sight for months

Busy at one end

Busy at another end

Dreaming of my lover

Feeling lost without him

Eyes closing

As I remember the past years

At the beginning...

6:38 AM 
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July 15, 2007 - Sunday 

Current mood:  angry
Category: Writing and Poetry

Striding the halls

Taking in the pictures

Thousands and thousands

Filling up whole walls

End to end, top to bottom

Souls staring out

Sad eyes pleading

What to do, what to do

Thoughts float to my mind

Oh, my lover how can I

Bear to leave you?

Oh, my little girl stay strong

Son, be a man for your family

Daddy, don't worry

Mommy, please stay with me

How I wish I had seen you

One more time

Overwhelming me

Making my eyes tear

Crying makes my head ache

Anger filling up

As glass breaks...

6:29 AM 
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July 15, 2007 - Sunday 

Current mood:  awake

Eyes glowing red

Out of the woods

Came out the demons

Silver fur swept by as they flew

Snarling as they surround Mom

Screaming as her body is torn apart

As young eyes stared out in anguish

Below the full moon trees sway

Glass between them and me

As one growls and jumps

Through the windows at me

Screaming as I rose up to

Consciousness blinking

Shaking and sweating

I stare out and scream

Light beaming in the room

Glaring off windows

As ice breaks...

6:25 AM 
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