Day by Day

Day by day
My life depletes
There's no other way
To accomplish my feats
Unless I decide
Which I'd have to reside
In a story that's all full of lies

Day by day
I try my best
Like authorities say
I need a rest
From activities dear
That bring others fear
And other criminal actions

Day by day
Though it's something I hate
I am wasting away
As if it were fate
As time moves along
Like the words in a song
I'm killing myself very slowly

Day by day
I will admit
That each single day
I am digging a pit
Within it I sit
While I dig and I spit
On the idea that I'm actually losing

Day by day
My life draws nigh
Another second
And I'll possibly die
But I'll send for a ship
With a sail at the tip
That will take me up into heaven




Psychology

To many people
All trying to find
The answers locked here
Within my mind
They try all their keys
With hopes to unlock
The gears in my head
All going tick-tock
Somebody once said
"You're undoubtly depressed"
So they sat me down
And gave me the test
I passed with great colors
Which makes me a loon
"I know that you fool
You goddamn buffoon"
He tells me "now calm down
You poorly young man
I'll fix you right up
As quick as I can"
I told him real good
And I told him straight
"You cannot help me
You stupid ingrate"
He laughs and says
"Child you haven't a clue..."
I cut him off then
And I said "fuck you"









To Many People

To much life in this world
There are too many people
Overcrowding my life
Filling up to the top
Overflowing population
Desolation in my eyes
Destruction in my face
I try to move around
Or I try to cut through
But this enormous wall of people
Is over blocking my view
If only I could see
The flood that still is coming
It flows through streets
In buildings
And alleys
Blocking off my path
To see the whole wide world
It kills me just to see
The people suffocating
I've seen them drown
In the sea of life
Please god
Strike some of them down













T.E.I.N.


Pain and suffering
I see it all
Destruction disaster
Soon it will call

It's happened before
And it will happen again
All of these troubles
Trapped here in my head

I have seen death
The endings of others
Like fire burning forever
In the middle of summer

I wish it would stop
It burns in my ear
But now I know
That the end is near












Mute

I am to quiet
Therefore I'm called mute
The downside to it all
Is I'm given the boot
I need to speak out
So that lives could be saved
I'd be a hero
But I'm still a knave
Who cares what they say
I'll let them all die
Their ignorance is all
That will make me cry
The pitter and patter
Of an eternal rain
How odd that blood's falling
It drives me insane
I'm a child of visions
I see all that happens
Isn't it just peachy?
How all others sadden?
I couldn't care less
They just didn't listen
Oh how their blood shines
Oh how it glistens
I laugh at death
'Cause it will never come
Except to the ignorant
There lives undone









Chaos


Within heaven resides
All that is good and happy
Hell is full of evil
There is no gay or jolly
In the middle's confusion
An enigma unsolved
Chaos reigns supreme
Everyone is involved

It was there before time
Before god made life
It'll be there in the end
Causing ultimate strife
Therefore if you follow
The way with no trend
You'll know that you've been there
Beginning, middle, and end


















A Bit of Humor

Life is but a mystery

I cannot figure out

Walking through these emotions

Following on route

I cannot find the end because

It simply isn't there

I've traveled to the ends of earth

Pulling out my hair

This poem is quite short

I'm running out of room

This message will self-destruct

4, 3, 2, 1 ... BOOM!!!








Just Laugh

Now sit with me in class
And hope that I pass
But I'm afraid that I'm still failing
Now it is too bad
And it is so sad
But I'll brush it off and won't care
Now if I succeed
And quit smoking weed
But I think that's not likely to happen
Now if god is great
And he has no hate
But he still sends people to hell
Now I don't even know
And I reap what I sow
But I'll try to say clean for Christ's sake
Now I'm losing my mind
And I'm falling behind
But I won't get locked up in a nut house
Now if happy is gay
And how do I say
But wouldn't that make homos good
Now wait just a minute
And let's get with it
But not so close that it looks funny
Now I must say "bye"
And go and get high
But I'm kidding and have one more line
Now that is the end
And get with the trend
But don't stop reading meaningless poems













Where am I?
How do I explain?
The feelings in my mid
In my heart, in my soul
My spirit longs to see beyond
The darkness I am in
My heart is broke,
My mind is dead
My soul destroyed
My life at its end
I cannot see which way to go
Or where to wander next
I have no connection
To the other world
What is it that I should do?
I have no conscience
To see what's wrong
No happiness when I've done right
Someone help me
Please oh please
Someone put my heart at rest
I can't go on
Living this life
All these emotions
I can't control
Never before have I felt them
I'm utterly lost
And forever confused
my minds playing tricks
Why can't I just die?
There is no explanation
To why I feel
No reason for why
I'm happy or sad
I don't know why I'm angry
Or why I'm surprised
Why don't I know?
I get lost trying to find
Look into my eyes
And what do you see
I see confusion
Which brings me pain
Oh please someone help me
So I don't kill myself
Or anyone else while I'm on that matter
I'm only at peace
When I look at the sky
Whether it be night or day
That is only because
I know that I am there
Somewhere in the clouds
Is where I belong?
On a star in the night
With not a care
I see myself put there
Pondering away
If I can find me
Half is there the other here
A million light-years in between
Bring us together to fix my life
Emotion and understanding
He has a conscience and understanding
I have emotion but I'm a fool
Together we could figure out
Why I'm so confused
I read my words
And don't know why
I write what I have written
No more can I take
The world is my home
So why can't I come back?
Me on this earth am only a shell
Waiting for me to come home
I stop by temporarily
To throw about some words
Than I disappear again
I can't remain with myself
My actions bring me shame
I guess it's time to go again
So...
...
... ... ...Bye








Who Are You to Judge
I walk down streets
And through halls
I get put down
Pushed into walls
Because I'm small
Or cuz I'm weak
Judged by others
Maybe cuz I'm meek
I'm told I'm wrong
Or I've done badly
They harden my heart
Making me mad
Destroying my heart
My mind and soul
They all mess around
I'm losing control
I get real annoyed
I'm tired of it all
But I won't back down
I won't get small
To the ends of the earth
We all want to judge
You can try all you want
I won't hold a grudge
You can't put me down
Why can't you see?
Humans can't judge
Only god can judge me










A Love Lost
Someone to love
Someone to care about
Someone in my life
That I finally thought out
A child, a sibling
A parent, a wife
A girlfriend
Or a love of my life
Someone to drive me
To do what is right
Someone I'd love
In or out of sight
A person I'd care for
Unconditionally
And I still haven't found one
Unfortunately
I often feel lonely
Even in crowds
While my mind still doth wander
My head in the clouds
Forever and ever
I'll hope to obtain
A person in which
Would always remain














No Memory
I'm walking down a hall
Checking every door that I see
I watch life flash by
Like I'm in a movie
I see things that are gloomy
And things that are bright
Things that end daytime
And things that brings night
Opening doors
That I barely even know
Memories lost
Is my most common foe?
Almost seventeen years
Since the day of my birth
But what I do remember
Is all that I'm worth?
I know it's very little
And it sounds kinda sad
But when you think about it
That's all that I've had
Death is coming slowly
A bit at a time
I'm trying to get away
Like I committed a crime
Life has played a role
And I have learned a lot
All the things that I know
Is all that I've got?
The last door here
I am approaching now
As I turn the handle
I turn and take a bow






Kill Me
I am without work
And without life
My time is up
Give me the knife
Cut out my heart
And end my soul
Destroy my body
Death takes its toll
I enter a tunnel
So dark and long
I see a light
And end my song



No Hope No Future Only Death
Why do I live?
Why won't I die?
Why won't my life?
Just pass me by
I've given it up
I don't care to go on
I can't keep living
This forsaken con
There is no hope
Or a future for me
There is only death
To die is my plea










True Angels



After messing up my life
Just making more mistakes

It almost made me think
Of several movie takes

But I finally got it right
I'm gonna make it through

There will be a happy ending now
Just thanks to all of you

Though commonly viewed
As holy creatures with wings

I think I've learned that
Angels can be other things

A something or a someone
That helps you through hard times

And shows you just which way to go
And even write these rhymes

You all may be wondering why
I brought up angels and such

It's because that's what you remind me of
As you selflessly acted as my crutch










Painful Passion
&
Dismal Desire



'Twas a dark and dismal day when once we did cross paths
But now a bright and shining sun has taken all my wraths

For I can no longer despise thy wonder
Nor deny my pains asunder

For a wondrous creature thou hast become
And I shalt never know of what u came from

For such perfection hath ne'er been seen
And unto us not a thing shall come between

I'm mad with desire and my heart throbs real deep
And out of this painful hole does much of my blood seep

Can one such as thee be the future of me
One of such noble intent
When my only path is hell-bent

This damnation is quite an enigma that shalt go unsolved
And I must ne'er quit till this riddles resolved

And now my time hath
Come short we may l8r consort
For I shalt not resort
To hatred of a sort





What the fuck eva



a distant future

with death so near

and id thought of love

when i saw u dear

but now it is gone

for we cannot b

i no longer want u

just like u don't want me

so I'm leaving u now

for i no longer care

and please do not weep

I'm out of your hair










The Way things were


switch it up a bit and lets go back

back 2 the way it was

kids running free on suburban streets

crime wasn't such a fuss

a time b4 drug abuse

and children who just do not care

a time b4 shootings in every school

he shot him cuz of a dare

in this i speak

of times that weren't bleak

our future was set

and we weren't in debt

no hate or sadness

please sum1 just end this madness




My 1 true love
 the time i spend w/o u
is time that's always lost
but when i finally c u
its worth more than the cost
the wait is o so painful
the longing is so grim
but just 2 c your smiling face
my heart just cant b dim
as seconds fade and minutes grow
i miss u more and more
seeing your face is just enough
2 me its the perfect score
eternity shall ne'er describe
how long this wait does seem
my heart is cold and hardened
till your voice just makes it beam
all the hatred from my years past
you've just melted all away
my shell is gone you've seen me soft
and i hope you'll always stay
all is said in honest truth
u know id never lie
and if i were 2 ever lose u
u know id surely die