One day I had wrote on a someone's profile on the net, how I envy he has some cool friends, based on the story he told on his journals. Then he replied something. "What do you mean? All friends are cool, unless they pretend to be your friend and and backstab you in the back!".

Then it hit me. Almost all peoples who claimed to be my friends share that same criteria. They always come to me for something, and immediately retreat when I need their help. I was used. Over and over again. And to my shame, I have done nothing to prevent that. I had practically let myself to be used.

Therefore I am starting to hate myself. Why? Why would I allow myself to be used like that? Am I stupid? Was I blind all these time?

But I am somehow, very lucky to have some real friends. Those who helped me during my hard times. And to put the rest of you to shame, my dear 'friends', some of them are not even peoples that I have met before. Online friends. But they are what a true friends are. They listened. They offered support. They are what a friend supposed to be.

So this is a mental note. To me and all those 'friends' out there. It's time for me to grow up. No more free helps if it doesnt benefits me. So long leeches. Time to find yourself a new host!

To Kevler, Bizer & Brianna, you guys are some best friends that a guy could have. As for the rest, if you have been a good friend, you should know who you are. And vise versa!