2008 has been a rough year. I missed the first 2 months of the year, I had my heartbroken, I have seen a lot of stupidity from people around me. I have lost some friends. I was asked by a close friend what am I thankful for this year? Well I am thankful I have my family, my life, my close friends, and I hope that 2009 is a more promising year for me.

Time for me in the military is winding down, still trying to outweigh the good and the bad, looking forward to the day, 23rd of July 2010.

    Josh and I went fishing, he caught a 13 pound rainbow trout and threw it back into the water, I asked him why and he said cuz he didnt want a gay fish!

Well, The title says it all... I am disappointed. My personal life is not going the way I had hoped it to.. Well I guess the only thing I have to say to that is that I should have remembered that.. life is never perfect.. sometimes the pieces fall into place other times the are all out of sync. I need some football back in my life to relieve my stress.

The Road is getting a lot wider which means that my career is about almost done. It was a fun ride. I appreciate the times I had and the friends I met while in the Marine Corps. The challenges that I overcame. I definitely thank god for the opportunity to live my life the way I have. 18 months left.

This blog is for my friends that go through bad days.  I know that there are days that we all have where everything that you could go wrong does.  Most of the time, you think to yourself the only things to make today even worse would be this... and that.  Many times we just think to ourselves what else could possibly go wrong.  I encourage all of you to stop what you are doing.  Go outside and take a deep breath to relax yourself..  and take a few minutes to look around you and just notice everything that is going on.  Observe and breath profoundly.  Just remember that the day is not over and tomorrow is more promising. 

Everyday you wake up think to yourself today is going to be a great day.. try to look at things such as getting up as a positive experience. 

 

Thanks.

 

-JJ

Well lets see... where to begin. Last year was a rough year.. for many that are going through tough times believe me we all are in some way shape or form. What has life brought to you so far? Pain, love, hate, happiness? Everyone has had different experiences. Many of us like myself have experienced a little bit of everything in a short year... We have a lost friends that were close to us and are trying to hold ourselves together. For me its a little difficult, I can't manage to sit let a lone stand for more than 5 seconds without scratching my head or pulling my hair for no apparent reason. I believe that its all a little bit of anxiety along with a sense of uneasiness... Wanting more... I have no idea why I pace back and forth wondering why it is I stress... but life is crazy at times... maybe its because I sense that something is not right... Whatever it is life is always going to be a little rough. I am just hoping to be able to settle myself down and take a deep breath in relief. Life is crazy like I said, but as long as we are all breathing we might as well enjoy every minute of it.

someone recently told me this " the hard part is not to stop loving someone, its loving someone you pretend to have never met"

i dont know if that makes sense to any of you... but you can't hide your feelings.  Life has shown us that grass isn't always green... and the other side of the bridge seems really hard to get to because there are so many people trying to cross at the same time...

   Can anyone guess what I am refering to?

    Hey everyone... If you have been trackin my page you know by now that I have been thinking of going back overseas... this time I want a different mission I am all about challenges and new experiences.. I miss being overseas.  Its Ironic that I say that now... but its a completely different feeling being in a different country doing good things..  I did it for seven months I just wish that the unit I was with would have been a little better.  But I think this will be a great opportunity for me.. I will definitely miss my family and friends... life is full of surprises and its short lived.  I wanna take advantage of the fact that I am still single and dont have any major commitments out here... I had tried once in three years and I learned that happiness is not impossible to achieve but the bond has to be there as well as commitment.  I am putting my package together so I can leave before the end of the year.   I love you all.

-JJ

    after three long months of growing my hair out... I feel nothing but dissapointment... I miss my long hair.  :(   lol its ok.. its time to grow it out again.... from now until the time I go up to oregon for my birthday!!!