Don't cry baby,

I'm the only one you need in your time of despair,
Just fall into my arms and close your eyes tightly,
I'll keep you in my prayers.

I'll never let you go,
I'll never let you leave;
I need to see you breathe.

Keep yourself quiet,
Don't make a sound,
Just keep your mouth shut,
There's no one around.

Don't worry about the dark,
I'll keep you safe,
We're about to embark,
On this journey today.

There's nothing to fear,
So please don't worry,
I am near.

There's nothing I'd rather be doing than holding him in my arms, his
head against my chest... Everything feels perfect now... Things used to
be like this all the time, ever since we were younger; until that one
day, that one day I found out that he's...
"...Suzaku? Are you awake?" Lelouch interrupted Suzaku's thoughts and stirred a bit in his lap.
Suzaku smiled softly and brushed Lelouch's hair out of his face, "Yeah I am, is everything alright?"
"I just wanted to know if you were still here with me... The sun is coming up."
The
boys laid together on Lelouch's bed watching the sunrise, the night had
been long, and neither one of them slept a bit. The pink and purple
hues of the sunrise shone into the bedroom slowly lighting up
everything around them.
"I'm very tired Suzaku." Lelouch closed his eyes as the warmth of the sun ran over his body.
"Maybe we should go to bed?"
Lelouch was fast asleep before Suzaku even spoke.
He's just so beautiful...

It
was near noon when Lelouch woke, he glanced around the room looking for
his lover and found nothing except for a neatly folded pile of clothing
and a towel with a note.
"Lulu, I had to work, I didn't feel it was right to wake you. I love you, I'll see you around five tonight."
Lelouch
sighed and got out of his bed to take a shower. The rest of the
afternoon dragged on as the ebony haired boy sat outside waiting for
his boyfriend.
"Nii-san? Are you waiting for something?" Rolo casually walked over to his older brother and sat beside him.
Lelouch
smiled at his brother, "I just wanted to sit outside, it's nice out
today." Lelouch paused then turned to his younger brother, "Rolo may I
ask you something?"
"Yes Nii-san, anything."
"What do you think of Suzaku?"
Rolo thought for a second, "I think he's a very good friend, why?"
"No reason."
"Nii-san, Rivalz asked me to go with him to the mall, is it alright if I go?"
Lelouch
put his arms around his brother and hugged him close, "Yes, you don't
need my permission to go with a friend, but thank you for asking."
"Ok Nii-san, thank you." Rolo left to find Rivalz

Maybe I should call out for dinner tonight, I'm sure Suzaku will be tired after such a long day of work.
Lelouch picked up his cellphone to call out for pizza.
Once
Suzaku was home, the two sat down to eat their dinner. Lelouch soon
found himself in Suzaku's lap with lips pressed against his own.
Suzaku's tongue invaded Lelouch's mouth making Lelouch moan for more.
Lelouch's shirt was lifted off and tossed aside. Suzaku's hands ran up
and down Lelouch's body as he struggled to unbutton his lovers pants.
Once both of their clothes were off, Suzaku laid Lelouch down on the
couch and placed two of his fingers on Lelouch's lips.
"Suck them," Suzaku commanded.
Lelouch
took Suzaku's fingers into his mouth and sucked on them slowly and
swirled his tongue around on them. Suzaku pulled his fingers away from
Lelouch's mouth and slowly pushed a finger into him. Lelouch moaned
quietly and winced a bit. A second finger was soon put into his
entrance and Suzaku scissored him slowly. Suzaku pulled his fingers
away from Lelouch after a while then rubbed some lotion on his erection
before pushing into Lelouch.
A moan escaped Lelouch's mouth as he tried to fight back tears from the pain of Suzaku's hardness.
"Are you alright?" Suzaku held himself still.
"Yes, you're just so big," Lelouch smiled and bucked his hips slightly.
Suzaku
smiled at Lelouch and started thrusting into him. They moved in sync
both moaning and feeling each others bodies. Lelouch's sweet spot was
hit over and over by Suzaku making him feel his climax coming on.
"Oh... Su...Suzaku... I'm..." Lelouch came on his stomach with a loud moan.
Suzaku came soon after Lelouch from the feeling of him getting tight around his hardness.
The boys collapsed on the couch in each others arms and slowly drifted off to sleep.

My Dress:


My Garter:


My Bouquet:


My Guest Book:


My Ring Pillow:


My Candles:


Place Cards:


Invitations:


and now...

The Cake!!

He loves me he loves me not
I finally know what I've got

I've waited for so many years,
I've fought off all these painful tears.

The pain in my heart just keeps growing,
As long as my love for him keeps on glowing.

Depressing days and sleepless nights,
I wait for him and win the fights.

Stopping, waiting, seeing him there,
I don't know how much more I can bare.

Like running down an empty hallway,
Looking for the proper doorway.

I'm always lost in my train of thought,
Carrying on this deep wrought.

Waiting for his final word,
Seems my visions just so blurred.

Running down these endless stairs,
Searching for him in my prayers.

Maybe I'll never know the truth,
At least I know he's my fountain of youth.

Dealing with all this pain,
I'll just try and end this game..

I can't take it anymore I don't want to be alone.. It's nice hanging out with Alicia, Jen, Mom and Nanci.. But I need actual friends, the only friends that I actually like are all gone or leaving. I can't win. Granted it's nice that I have Paisley and Jon now, because they're nice to me and don't judge me, but I really like this boy and I can't have him at all.. I've been crying for three days now and sometimes just for no reason.. I'm so upset right now it's hard to eat my damn lunch/dinner. I wanna talk to someone about it but people just look at me like I'm crazy, so thats why I post these nonsense things that no one reads..

Yaoi Warning


Ever since Suzaku had arrived at Ashford Academy, Milly had been pestering Lelouch on how they knew each other.
"Please tell me?"
"No Milly."
"But I have to know, I know basically everything else about you." Milly grinned in excitement and hope that Lelouch would tell her more about his life.
"Oh leave him alone Milly, you'll weasel it out of him another time!" Rivalz smiled at Milly
By this point Lelouch had stormed out of the room and into the bathroom. He slowly washed his face in cold water to wake himself up. Lelouch sighed and hung his head while holding onto the sink.
"Lelouch? Are you alright?" Suzaku slowly walked into the bathroom and looked at his friend
"Yeah, I'm fine." Lelouch dried off his face with some paper towels
Suzaku leaned on the wall watching Lelouch's every move. He always seemed to be fascinated with the way Lelouch moved, he was so gentle yet dominant with the way he did things.
"What?"
"Nothing..." Suzaku scratched his head a bit and looked away from Lelouch
"You haven't told Milly anything have you?" Lelouch put his hand on Suzakus shoulder
"No. What makes you say that?"
"Well she keeps asking questions on how we know each other and why we're, well, so close."
Suzaku shrugged and looked into Lelouches eyes. Lelouch found his ears getting warm and looked away from Suzaku.
"Can I stay with you and Nunnally? I think my room mates in the boys dorm are afraid of me..."
Lelouch sighed a bit then nodded at the question, "You're going to have to stay in my room with me though, the guest rooms are taken up and I can't have you staying with Nunnally."
"What about the couch?"
"It'll, hurt your back..."
"But Lelouch-"
Lelouch covered Suzakus mouth with his hand, "Join Nunnally and Me for dinner tonight, I'm sure Nunnally would like that a lot." he let his hand off Suzakus mouth then walked out of the bathroom leaving him alone.
Suzaku wasn't sure on where Lelouch was going with this, but he didn't care, he had his friends back after seven years.

Later that night Suzaku arrived at Lelouchs and Nunnallys with a bag full of his things. Nunnally was excited to have him there, but her brother didn't seem too thrilled.
"I'm so glad you will be staying with us Suzaku." Nunnally sipped her tea
"I'm glad to be here, I've missed you."
Lelouch picked at his food until everyone else was finished eating.
"Something wrong?"
"Hm? Oh, no. Nothing is wrong." Lelouch got up and put away the left over food then did dishes
"Do you need some help Lelouch?" Suzaku leaned in the doorway
"You can go to my room and make the bed down. There's some extra pillows in the closet on the top shelf, I'm sure you will need one."
"Ok..." Suzaku left the room and wandered upstairs to Lelouchs room.
Lelouch finished the dishes and helped Nunnally into bed then walked to his own room only to find Suzaku sprawled out on the bed asleep. He sighed and undressed his friend down to his undergarments then moved him over onto one side of the bed. Lelouch slowly climbed into bed being careful not to wake his sleeping friend.
"Lelouch?" Suzaku woke slightly and looked up
"Yeah?"
"I'm sorry..."
"For what?" Lelouch looked at him confused
"For this," Suzaku sat up slightly and kissed Lelouch passionately
Lelouch looked at his friend in shock but slowly kissed back. Suzaku slowly slipped his tongue inside his friends mouth and caressed his tongue.
They both had mixed feelings for each other that they felt since they were children, now that they were older these feelings were being expressed.
Lelouch pushed Suzaku away a bit, "We shouldn't do this."
Suzaku nodded and laid back on the bed and closed his eyes to go to sleep.
Lelouch did the same.

Kay so my cousin, Alicia, and I went into BigY lastnight around eh.. 9:20pm.. to find something to eat for supper, needless to say we skipped around and couldn't find anything so at about 9:30 we're like screw it.. and she grabbed a bag of rolls and was going to get stuff to make a sandwich.. so as we were going to go get the cheese some ugly ass woman with gray rat-nest hair all hunched over said, "ladys you need to get your final perches' and PAY for them up front" (she emphasized on pay...) so we're like w/e.. and walked to the other side of the store (the older part of bigy for those of you that live in/around Gt. Barr.) and got some cheese.. she freaking fallowed us to the other side of the store when we were getting cheese and told us again.. so we're like -_- ok.... so we were walking up to cash out and heard the woman and cashier talking.. and the cashier said.. "are those the two?" and the womans like "yeah... those two.." and we're like wtf did we come in here some other time and not realize it and do something so very wrong that we need to be kicked out?! I swear the only reason we were being asked to leave was because we were dressed in tripp pants, and black shirts.. so yea if I go in there again and they say something to me I'm going to have them reported and fired because we did absolutely nothing wrong, i could see if we were like, screaming and yelling and throwing fruit and knocking things over!!! but come on...