I start off my days with my little one pouncing on my head and biting at my toes. He wants some food and water. maybe even a stroll outside. When the sunrises he likes to wake me up...but ill sleep in a little..just today. When i walk down my stairs im thinking of what to do today. I dont work till late in the day and even then it wont really feel like work tonight. The last days i have been in my own world..not meaning to. Just have been trying to find another way to realese myself. Listening to music helps. And woo.. i fianlly got my ipod to start working. You know the ipods from years ago. Who has that kind of money right now to buy a new one. I know i dont. Anyways back to my day.. Its cloudy out and i was in the rain almost all night last night. So i may have a slight cold today. I know my nose is cold. I want to go for a walk...no not today..maybe tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow it will be pretty and warm again. I can only hope..

When the anxiety comes.. 1..2..3...4..5..6..7...8..9..21.