I've spent so much time trying to "change my evil ways"
And yet I fall right back into the same patterns again.
Why do I do this to myself?
The free spirit inside of me makes it so I cannot be tied down, or normal..
she gets restless, and rears her ugly head every time I have the slightest break in strength.
My strength is regaining now, and I know it is time to severe the ties that are contributing to my downfall.
Sometimes you just need a good moment of debauchery to put things back into perspective.
I will no longer surround myself with negativity
I will no longer allow myself to succumb...
I'm too strong for this shit LOL


Much Love

Joshua Trees surround me.
The silence so severe, the only sound is my hollow breath,
and the soft steady beat of my heart.
There is such a purity in this solitude,
as if a weight has been lifted off of me,
and I am forced to collide with who I truly am.
There is no pretense here,
There are no masks, The desert doesn't care.
It is me, and mother nature, and she sees ME.

Small
Insignificant
Full of Love to give, to her...
She has my heart, she has my soul, she has me entranced...

I embark on a new adventure. One that holds the promise of excitement, insight, and true revelation. I haven't been that excited about anything in a very long time, and this really feels like home to me. The uncertainty fascinates me, the world open to new experiences gets me high. Expect much more from me in the upcoming months...
My mind and heart are open and free again!!!

Much Love to all of my friends.

My prayers to you know who, today will go well for you, and you will recover quickly. HUGS.

-Tiff

I am broken, I am completely dead inside... but I want to come back to life, I just have to get away from the poisons that are betraying me...
They are so powerful to a soul who is as sensitive as mine.. I have no recourse, no reason, and no rhyme that makes sense to their small minds..


God forbid I ever live
to see the day that I find myself as bitter as them
God forbid I ever betray myself
to allow my body to be a sinner and still condemn
God forbid
I wind up
LIKE THEM

God help me
I will NEVER
BE LIKE THEM

Life has a hold
of every move we make
a greater power, a love to devour, and another precious soul to take

Time has a way
of running out on us all
of leaving the surrounding powerless, full of pain we fall

Mercy is nonexistent
in the basics of the world
Love is the only pure emotion, that most of us don't even deserve

How can we be loved, if we refuse to respect and love ourselves?

Numb Numb Numb
wash the pain down
Beat....Beat....Beat....
until the heart can no longer make a sound

I have truly opened myself up more than ever before, and countless times, been reminded of why I do not. I have been up front and honest, and tried so hard to keep my integrity in tact, yet somehow people always find a way to blame. I am not, nor have ever been, dishonest in my words.. I say what I truly mean, and I let my opinion be known. I understand I am a strong personality, but the drama that it entails is far too much for me to take.

It almost presents itself as if I should lie to make myself look better, or to lessen the blows. THIS IS NOT ME!!!

I will not succumb to being a part of a pack and becoming someone I am not... It doesn't necessarily bother me that it works for others, but when I am judged for being true to myself, it makes me pull away.

It makes it so much easier to be the girl who will fall away from humanity internally. I did it for years, and appeased everyone, and am very capable to do it again.

It doesn't mean I don't love or care for others, it just shuts down a part of me that is so personal... a part that perhaps I will never show to anyone.. a part that I have been working on revealing, and have to a certain extent.. but I need to be matched, I need to be felt, I need to be equal.. not taken for granted... NEVER NEVER AGAIN..

I am a bit too strong
for the taste of the weak
I spread my wings
and rise like a phoenix

when push comes to shove
you don't know how to react
except wallow in self-pity
and want me to pick up the slack

I am strong from my heart
and give every inch of my being
but with those shades over your eyes
you walk by without seeing....

I am frozen, I am on fire
I am frigid, I am desire
I am all of these things
on different days
but that makes me human
that makes me a woman
and not the girl you apparently crave

I am restless, and discouraged as of late....
I have figured out what it is!!!
I haven't been writing music lately, and it is truly time to put some new things up, so not to fret my dear friends, I am on it!

Not only will there be NEW Tiffany Kyees originals, but I am starting a TRULY AMAZING adventure of a project with a dear friend of mine. It's a bit different than what you're used to from me, but I just KNOW everyone will appreciate and love it!

I hope this blog finds all of you well, it's been awhile, and I plan on coming around more often...

MUCH LOVE to all of you!

-Tiffy

This butterfly
Has been stuck in a web
Of decadence, and emptiness
But she's choosing life instead

You'll see this phoenix rise
Out of the dirty Hollywood ash
And become something beautiful
As you watch her fly past

She is back
She is back
She will live strong

She is herself again
She is where she belongs

Here are some of the photos from the wedding, and from Hawaii!!! What a blast, thankyou to Adam and Nicole!!! Thankyou to Lorraine as well!! It was an absolute pleasure!