I knew Alyssa when I was a kid.
I don't remember too much from hanging out with her, just a scattered memory here and there, same as the rest of my childhood.
I do know that she was always nice to me, and that I had faith that she would be an amazing person. And though we are deprived of seeing her grow into a beautiful adult, to see her settle down, maybe have a family, I know that everyone will treasure what we did get to see of her life.


WE, as humans, tend to miss the small oppourtunities. We tend to shy away from  letting people know what they mean to us. We wait until the right moment, or an appropriate moment. What we do not see is that this IS the right time. There is no better time than now to let people know exactly how much they mean to you. You never know when the moment is passed, and it is too late.

I never got to tell Alyssa that I thought she was an amazing person. In middle school, when I left, I don't think I even said goodbye to her. In high school, I never said more than two paragraphs to her, no more than a casual greeting and asking how she was doing. And now, she is gone. I do not have another chance. And I am sure she had her reasons. Maybe no one ever told her how special she was. Whatever her reasons, I'm sure she is on the other side, looking peacefully into eternity.

1. Aereauna Houle- You and I have been through so much together. Our friendship started at a very young age, and survives now, even though we are so very, very far apart. You mean the world to me, and I would do absolutely ANYTHING that you wanted me to, to make you happy. I would take a bullet for you.

2. Lena Park-Burns- We have not been friends for a super long time, and we never went through any super crazy shit. We just had an amazing connection. I love how easy it is to talk to you, even now, and I'm a terrible phone talker! Your silly personaltiy and abundant sense of humor make it impossible to not love you so much.

3. Stephanie Pabst- Again, we have been friends for many years. I still absolutely love to remember the first time I skipped school, and those times at the priest camp, Mean Green, in fact the memories I have with you are the ones I am most fond of! You always make me laugh about EVERYTHING! I even miss the times that we didn't do anything. I miss just sitting in your kitchen doing our make up, waiting for whatever. I miss your family. I love you to death girl, and it'd take a meteor to change that.

4. Adam and Jason Nelson- Adam, I don't see much of you, and when I do you're very quiet. Jason, we have had a lot of differences, and I know we aren't exactly friends now, but to both of you: I am very glad you are my cousins. I love you both a lot.

5. Whittni and Buck- I assume you two are still not the biggest fans of me, and probably still think I lied. And though we may never be on completely solid terms again... I am very happy for the time we had when I was a kid.

6.Hannah [yeah, cuz I can spell that last name!!]- I am so very happy for you and James, and I sincerely hope that you guys remain happy forever, and wish you the best of luck in your new family. I love that we have known each other for so long, and constantly changed at the same pace, even when I was forever away.

7. my father, Robert Johnson- When I was a young teen, I was constantly suicidal over life with mom. I saw no end to the suffering she ejoys making me deal with. Many times, you were what kept me alive, what gave me hope. The person I am today, my patience, my faith in myself, my confidence, I do owe to you. I learned those from you, and I will not forget that. I can not wait for you to move back here and see what we have become! I know that you will be so proud of me and Ian. I love you so much more than I ever would have thought when I was a kid!

8. Lindee Summerlee- We have suffered some maaaajor strains. I have loved and hated you back and forth so much, that I should be a total mess about it. But I am not. I know that you helped me to become the strong-willed, openly opinionated woman that I am now, even if you do not. Your pride over me graduating meant more to me than I could have ever guessed. Thank you so much.

9. Carlos- I like you, and I think you should pay attention to me. Like, REALLY see me. [Woah-ho-ho!! Which Carlos?!?! Oh nooo! We'll never know!!]

10. My Aunt and Uncles, Debbie, Steve, John, Tom, Duane- Debbie and Duane, I am so happy that I got to be raised around you guys. I love you guys so much, I'm so very lucky to have the memories I have with you two, same as your sons. Collective uncles, I didn't know much of you when I was young, anything I did see of you I blocked out with  the rest of my childhood. But what I have seen of you, now that I am a teenager who remembers things (:]) I love you guys. I don't know how my mom turned out so sour, with such sweet siblings. I think our family reunions would go a lot smoother without your father, guys, and I think we should try it! :)

IF you aren't on here, it doesn't mean I don't love you. These are just the people that I do not express to them how much they mean to me, and I know I need to.



R.I.P.
Alyssa Anderson

May you soar with eternal winds, and I do hope whatever troubled you here, has disappeared from you in the next world.
May the wind from your flights soothe the pain of those you have left.
May you rest in total peace.