Here I sit among unpaid bills and lists of chores that sill need attention and I wonder why. Why clean the kitchen when it will be dirty before I will see it again because of the breakfast mess that I know my boys will make as they rise with the sun to watch their cartoons. Why clean the TV room when it will just get cluttered with Kessie's toys again as soon as she wakes up and scoots all over the house? Why do the laundry when the hampers will be full again in two days? Why cook dinner when it just makes another mess and it is gone in 20 minutes? Why take care of this months bills when I know I will get new ones next month. Why care? Why try? Why go on? Well, beacuse others expect me to? Becasue if I don't take care of these things, who will? It's becasue I love the people I take care of and I want them to be happy. It's beacuae I am worth it!!
I like the sense of accomplishment I get from a job well done. I like knowing that my baby can crawl around on a clean floor that won't give her some strange disease or ailment. I like seeing my kids in clean clothes so they don't have to go out into public looking like street urchins. I like knowing that I could walk into ANY store that I wanted and be approved instantly for a line of credit. I like being able to take care of myself. I like the warm fuzzies I get after solving a tough problem. I like learning from my trials, and I like the hard times because they make me a better person. Would it be easier to go through life without having to worry about the bills, wash the dishes, clean the clothes, mop the floors, mow the lawn, hurry the kids off to school and help with the homework when they get home, wipe runny noses, take care of owie tummies, or change dirty diapers? Well, of course it would! But would it be as fulfilling or as rewarding?
NOT ON YOUR LIFE!
So, as I sit here tonight and worry over how the bills will get paid this month; or how much I still need to do to organize my new home; or how tired and worn out I feel just keeping up with the day to day chores, I know in my heart that I cannot give up or give in! I know that others are counting on me to do my part! I know that I am needed and loved and that no matter how much I don't get done today, there is always tomorrow! I know that as long as I have hugged and played with my baby, read to my boys, laughted with my daughter, and told my sweetie how much I love him that the day has not been wasted and that my time has been well spent. In short, I keep going because of love. If there is anything in this short life that is worth the effort, LOVE IS!!!