I feel like doing this, so you all can watch my favorite vids i suppose. sdo, let's begin,  they aren't in any particular order. Neither the last or the first is necessarily the best. I would do this on FB but i can't post the videos =..

All right, so this is completely random and no one will actually read this an understand it, but still. i gotta write it. 

So, at this point.. i have nothing better to do then sit here and ramble about absolutely nothing. See, i could do it facebook where people would actually read it but then... people would... actually read it...

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't list names)


1) aaaaaahhhhhhh my, it sucks that the moment i was getting over my shyness and starting to actually talk to people, you up and graduated. But, i'll always remember the myspace conversations that went on half-way during the season when i was beating myself up and you were the only one to ask what was wrong. You told me i could make it and i did, against all odds. sure it was only a lame old medley relay, but it was worth it to me. You made practices fun even when it also might have gotten the rest of us in trouble. I have no idea why i'm doing you first, don't ask me. lol i wish i could have been braver and talked to you earlier.


2) Oh my darling, when did we first meet? Why do we both have such bad memories? ahhhh i have so many random things i could say to you but what to start with? you're probably my bestest friend in the world and i wish i could remember when we first realised how much we had in common. but as i said. baaadddd memories. lol we get stuck together for weeks and yet never run out of things to say and even when we do it's not awkward, lol. we both have the most bizarre tastes in the world and get weird looks from other people. (it's that side-long 'are you cutting yourself?' look that we've both gotten) and yet we keep doing what we love. that's all that matters anyway. i love looking at your drawings 'cause it usually makes mine grow in a way. i've always looked up to you in your art in a way i couldn't in real life (HAHA I COULDN'T RESIST!!!!) love you =)


3) We haven't known each other long, and i know i haven't been the greatest friend. when something gets on my nerves i tend to shut down and i sense you've noticed. ahh but what can i do? you're a fun person and i enjoy hanging out with you but sometimes it all becomes to much. i love you, but sometimes your personality overwhelms me and i have to say no. so if i ever hurt your feelings i'm sorry about it but sometimes i can't help it. i know i can be mean but it's always loving (trust me, you KNOW when i'm not being loving) so i'm sorry if i've hurt your feelings so far.


4) Dude, i knew we were friends when i started singing Phantom of the Opera at (note: at not too. lol i'm pretty sure you didn't want to hear it lol) you at summer Champs. lol. and when you beat me in the 100 fly and made zones on top of it after you whined about how you'd never make it 'cause it was your first time swimming it and i told you you totally would. i miss you terribly nowadays that you're swimming LHS but you'll be back =) you make my practices fun because you're over-all hilarious. Even when you tell me to go in front of you on the sprint sets (seriously. i'm not a sprinter. you CAN go ahead of me, i won't mind) and when you're saying you can't do something when i know you can. you always can. you're an insanely good swimmer and i'm glad you're one of my friends.

5) You're the kind of person that's everyone's friend. I've known that for a long time. and yet you made an effort to be my friend. lol i'm probably one of the shyest people ever (well maybe not ever but still.....) and i usually don't feel like i should join in unless i'm wanted. and you made an effort (whether consciously or unconsciously) to make me feel relatively wanted. swimming pretty much sucked for me until i started swimming in the lane with you (and the others lol.... they've all helped) in a swim team that had melted into cliques with 'popularity' you attempted to make us all a team again. and i think you've done a good job.


6) i'm so mean to you. i really am. i hope you know it's loving cause sometimes i say things to you that i realise could be taken the wrong way and yet you still call to ask to go to movies and hang out and w/e. i do love you! lol i just show it by being kinda mean. don't ask me why, i've noticed i'm mean to the people i like best. when i feel comfortable around someone then i start teasing and being kinda mean to them. so it's a sign of affection form me. i just wanted you to know. lol


7) we have the same name. how creepy is that? and yet we hit it off immediately. we've never been well-liked (why is that? we're both so much fun!) for some strange reason and yet we've always been there for each other. i know that i times maybe i seem like i'd rather be anywhere than there when i'm talking to you but pay me no heed! lol it's just me not wanting to miss out on anything that's usually lame anyway. i totally succeeded in getting you into my books which i find to be an accomplishment. but yeah, you're pretty amazing just so you know.

8) what can i say? phantom of the opera, hayden christensen(haha), rock music, vampires, random IM conversations. we've been through it allll.... i miss seeing you =( and miss plotting to kill mankind when we become vampires (haha....ohh man that was a bad weekend for me....) lol love you darling =)

9) FUN DIP!!!!!!!!!! ......that is all that needs to be said

10) I've never actually met you, but i enjoy talking to you when we're both online. and i want to let you know that i've read the things you've written saying you're all depressed and w/e and you can talk to me. i don't give advice but i'm willing to listen. You're fun to talk to though it disturbs me we met through a dating site (haha) i've told you things that while i'm typing i'm thinking 'why i'm i telling him this? i don't even know the guy!' but i the end i enjoy talking to you.


Nine things about yourself.

1) I'm very shy but when i get around people i know tend to be the center of everything (most times i wish i wasn't....)
2) I'd rather be in my room writing or in the pool swimming than most anything else
3) I have a majorly bad crush on the bad guy in the book i'm writing (lol...yeah...... that one's embarrassing....he's so awesome though!)
4) I have an addiction to music of all kinds. Symphonic metal is my favorite though and Sharon den Adel is my hero.
5) For all i'm worth, i really am just another fantasy geek at heart.
6) I'm smart for my age (15 and a junior) but i lack common sense and some people skills. lol
7) I trust too quickly and am way too nice. i have a hard time saying no when people ask things of me.
8) I've never had a boyfriend and only had 3 crushes in my life. My standards for guys must be high or something because i've never met a guy i'd actually date (or maybe i have.... no one's ever asked though so how would i know?)
9) If i seem like i'm in another world, don't bother me because i most likely am and it might be ingenious. I love long car rides because it lets me brain-storm new ideas for my book and hate it when i get interrupted from that.

Eight ways to win your heart:
1) Make me laugh
2) Don't lie to me, i can usually tell when someone is lying.
3) Let me be the idiot i am, though tell me when my jokes are lame. lol
4) Read the stories i've written and tell me something that sucks about them. i hate getting told that they're amazing, you can't improve on amazing.
5) Find me new music then be prepared when i ask for alllll the cd's by w/e band it is. i have to feed my music addiction. =)
6) Listen to me when i rant about the books i'm reading, even though you don't understand a word i'm saying and i might be ruining the book for you.
7) Tell me my drawings are good... it's kinda my weak point....
8) Never call me or text me when i might be asleep.... it incites rage on my part. lol

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
1) Suck. i seriously don't wanna get up.
2) Didn't i just do this?
3) Crap, forgot to work on my book again....
4) Deja vu.....
5) That book goes back to the library soon and i'm not done yet...
6) I wonder if (insert guy name here) would work in a book of mine....
7) I'm hungry...

Six things you wish you had never done.
1) Not worked the first 2 years i swam
2) not had enough courage to talk to people
3) not know when to keep my mouth shut
4) blow up at people when they don't deserve it (though my blowing up is usually getting really quiet...)
5) when i'm not enjoying myself when i know i should be
6) when i ever lied to a friend(s) to make them feel better.... i usually never do that....


five turn-offs:
1) immaturity ohmigosh there is nothing worse
2) swearing when they're is truly no point.
3) waking me up before i need to get up
4) mushy pointless flattery...
5) arrogance.

Four turn-ons:
1) .........sarcasm........... lol
2) being funny without being majorly perverted, lol
3) Just talking... like, when someone just sits down and wants to talk to you.
4) Smiles

Three smileys that are describers of your life:
1) =)
2) =..
3) <_<

Two things you want to do before you are dead:
1) Get my stuff published and be over-all famous (haha kidding on that last part)
2) Traveling Europe.

One confession:
Ummmm, my gosh another?!?! Sometimes i prefer my own fantasy world to this one. don't mind me when i'm zoning out just tell me to get the heck out of my head. don't mind me when i say something mean, i rarely ever mean it. i love all my friends, even the ones i don't really know. I'm loyal to the ones i love but am kinda indifferent to the ones i don't really know. but yeah i'm kinda done so, love you guys =)

K, i haven't wrote one of these in a while so i figured i'd give it a go.

Life is good.....my rabbit keeled over at the fair. 4-H pretty much sucks (One more year Emily, one more year) I feel like I tell myself that with a lot of things, forgetting that after one more year....it's over....*gulp* college.

Kinda sucks being smart and graduating at 16/17. Most kids are just worrying about getting their liscence (sp...not worth looking up) at 16...no, i must worry about making it through my senior year. Granted I'm only a junior this year. But still....

Swimming is fiinneee. Much better than last year. You all must forgive me for all those whiney blogs last year, i handled the swimming issue rather.... bizarrely last year.

I found that Europeans do pretty much everything better than we do/ Including make good prog/symphonic metal (except Kamelot! Love you guys from Florida!) Within Temptation, Nightwish, Lacuna Coil, the list goes ever on. It's all excellent. I'm debating right now in the ever present Tarja vs. Annette Nightwish battle. Personally Tarja's voice is a lot stronger, but Annette holds her own when having to sing behind Marco's *ahem* screaming.

I'm learning guitar and found that i have a talent for it like i did piano. It's really quite easy actually....idk

Me and my mom saw the new Keira Knightely move 'the duchess' this afternoon. It was excellent =)

Well, i think i've rambled enough for one afternoon. I'll be along.

"This is for long forgotten, light at the end of the world. Horizon crying, the tears he left behind long ago. So long ago."

One of the best bands ever!!!

Ah I'm so exhausted. And i realize it's been a while since I've written one of these. Sorry about that.
Sooo, i was at camp this week. Yes the one my friends dragged me too =P lol, I'm so glad i went! I had so much fun and learned so much (yes it was chuch camp..)
lol i met some great people and made some good friends. and laughed so hard i was pretty sure i was going to die. Lol it's amazing how funny Monty python can be when you're quoting it on a bench before chapel.
i also got hit by lightning. No lie. We had a bad storm on Friday and lighting hit the line, i was standing next to the outlet when the lightning came through and it hit me. It was quite and unpleasant experience.
I get one day to relax then i'm back in the pool (which is going to hurt a great deal, let me tell you.)
I honestly can't think of anything else to write except i haven't done any piano playing in a good 3 weeks.....crap....oh well, i'm printing the music to Sarah Bareilles 'Gravity'...i love this song =)

Ultimate Twilight Obsession Quiz

You know you're obsessed with the Twilight Series when:


1. you download every song from Stephanie Meyers playlist and listen to them non-stop on your iPod. no...
2. you dream about it every night.*snicker* frequently yes
3. you want to go to Forks for your spring break. Of course!!!
4. you squeal every time you see a silver Volvo, even if it's not your favorite car. YES!!!
5. you cringe whenever you hear/see Edward's or Bella's name and it has nothing to do with Stephenie Meyer. lol yeah
6. you've ceased to believe that vampires actually have fangs or any weakness. And you believe all vampires must be inherently hot. Yeah!
7. you're counting down the minutes until Breaking Dawn comes out. T=Yeah, that's me
8. you quote lines from the books for use in your everyday speech. Ohigosh yes!! I quote lines on a daily basis!
9. you solidly believe your boyfriend is a vampire simply on the basis that he's sexy. If i had a boyfirend i'd prolly think that
10. you refer to your ideal boyfriend as an "Edward." Of course!
11. you pre-order your copy of Breaking Dawn at Barnes & Noble. No, but i have it on hold for me at the library already =)
12. you name your characters after the Twilight characters. That would be known as plagurism and since i actually want to be an author i would never do that
13. you cry because your father used New Moon as a coaster for his drink. *laughs*
14. you count down the days till Edwards birthday 60 days before it starts. Duh!
15. a love song comes on and you immediately think of Edward and Bella. Yeah, that''s a bad habit of mine. I also can pick out anyhting in a song that could relate to twilight
16. you have bought both the audio books. I hate audiobooks
17. you have bought t-shirts from twilightteez.com. I haven't yet, but it will happen..unless me and clay make shirts like we were planning
18. you relate even the weirdest things to the book. Yeah, that's me
19. you carry the books with you. Twilight is the most beat up book i own cause it goes everywhere with me!
20. you go to Forks. Is that seriously a real town?!? ohmigosh
21. you almost faint when you first saw the cover of Eclispe. Yes!! I adore the cover of eclipse
22. you think you can feel Edward beside you while you're reading(or just doing nothing at all). No...
23. you talk to nothing but think you're talking to Edward. No, i just talk to myself
24. you stay locked in your room until you've read it over a million times. LOL yes i've been known to do that!!!
25. you start talking to it (the book). I read them out loud!! It enhances the experience =)
26. you talk to your friends about it...even though they have no idea what you're talking about! Ohmgosh yes!!!! But then i got most of them to read it so they know what i' talking about now
27. you ask them how you know you love the Twilight series even though they STILL don't know what you're talking about. i don't get that question....
28. you sleep with the book cradled in your arms. That would hurt...
29. while talking to your friends, they mention something that reminds you of Twilight, and you mutter a joke for Twilight-lovers with super hearing and start laughing your head off. *snickers* Ohmigsh that's so happened to me!!! I spit up my pepsi too!!
30. you are highly considering naming your future children the characters names. Actually......=)
31. in class, you relate every project to something in the book. No, but my mom made me write a report on twilight (crap i still haven't done that...)
32. the name Edward becomes your new favorite guy name. Yeah, it's so one of my favs
34. you and your boyfriend call each other "Edward" and "Bella". i don't have a boyfriend, but me and my friend clay have decided that i'm bella nd she's alice =)
35. you sit on the roof of your house every night waiting for Edward to come. *laughs* thats never occured to me, i like that one!
36. you name random people at your school the characters' names. No, me and clay do that to our friends
37. you wish for them not to make a Twilight movie because it could never be as good as the book but still want to see it. I've accepted the fact that it wil not live up to my expectations. So know i'm allowed to get excited about it!!!
38. you start failing in school because either your reading the Twilight Series. Or you are thinking about Edward and his family. lol!!! no...
39. you make a protective cover for your twilight to ensure that you never leave your copy of Twilight when it goes with you to yours friend's house. wow that's stange...
40. you create a debate in class over Edwards "perfection" *ROTFL* i get into huge arguments because I adore Edward and my friends love Jacob and so i have to argue all the things that are better about Edward compred to Jacob!!!
41. you and your friends try to guess the entire plot to Breaking Dawn. Yeah and i STILL have no idea what it's going to be about
42. you refer to it as "The Black and Red Bible" that's kinda sacriligous....
43. you start imagining scenes from the books in your head before you go to bed. lol yeah sometimes
44. you try to compare a lot of things to the book. It's easy!!
45. you cry at sad parts of the book... Even though you've read it 20 times. Ohmigosh yes!!!
If you agreed, laughed at, or even remotely understood at least 10 of these, you are obsessed with the Twilight series. XD