First let me start this piece off giving all honor & all glory 2 God.
I’ve chosen to sit down and write; after a long hiatus of perfecting my craft of writing, to offer some insight, maybe even some encouragement to those I know in these troubling times.
Like all of us, I’ve been through the storm. The fire. The rain. Every imaginable crisis has entered as well as exited my life; and although I pray those days never come again, I’d be foolish to think they wouldn’t; how else am I gonna grow and mature.
But I stand here today before you a better woman.
More intelligent, a little older, wiser and overall stronger.
The devil has been busy, he’s on the job 24/7 and I’ve witnessed his wrath in my life when I gave him power. I also have witnessed god’s glory, his mercy, and his overall hand working in my life.
In the past 45 days people, emotions, and baggage have been taken from me; looking back I accept all that has happened and I’ve forgiven, have forgave myself, and have since gave it to god and moved on. I cannot begin to express in words just how much my life has changed and how the weights that I’ve carried around for so long, simultaneously lifted once I gave god full control and power over me and my life. With that being said, HE HAS/ STILL IS WORKING IN ME I’m not finished, because I know he’s not finished, I’m merely a work in progress.
Within the Month of May alone I have accomplished so much, physically I’ve broken chains that have held me, dropped bad habits, bad people, and am continuously working towards other things I’ve yet to conquer. I’ve secured a new job, a new apt. and a fresher mind frame that has as of today led me nothing but to positive things.
And I’m not ashamed to say….i know no one else has been responsible for this but god and myself.
“ He gave me the signs, but I was too blind to see.
So those things that weren’t of him; he took them away from me.
He put into my life the opportunities that relieve so much anger and stressed
And I thank him for all his done and gonna do, all this time I realized I’ve been blessed”
With all of the above being said, I’ll keep this short and simple. I’m such a better woman now. My life is much happier and my days are more productive.
I know this wouldn’t be possible if I 1 didn’t allow god his control and 2 speak death into all that I was involved in. you know “if you speak it into existence it shall come to pass”, well if all you speak is negativity and hatred and go about your daily life with anger, resentment, and all those other bad emotions, how do you expect the things you do want to go right. Why be so contradictory.
With that being said, here’s the time for my spring cleaning to begin.
“we cannot become what we need to be by remaining what we are”
And that’s something I’ve been taking very serious these days. I’m cleaning out closets, emotional, physically and mental. Myself, associates, and friends. A lot of people I’ll no longer contact to an extent, I can’t have the negativity bringing me back to the place I’ve left. ‘you can’t take everyone with you”
Well, this bus is approaching a stop…it’s time for a lot of people to exit.
God Is Love
-Ash